So scathingly
hatefulSo achingly
beautifulIt actually
hurtsTo turn and
look at you
Radio Silence
It’s
not
that I’ll
never
call
you my
friendIt’s
just
that I’ll
never
call
you
again
… – – – …
I
NEED
YOU
MORE
THAN
EVER
BEFORE
I
SIMPLY
CANNOT
DO
THIS
ANY
MORE
Lovers Reunited
If I
can’t have
the one
that’s gone
then I’ll
just wait
out here,
alone,
until there
is an end
to this pain
and our
hearts can
beat together
again
Work
Well I
guess
there’s
nothing
else for it
Three hours
left wading
through
this
bullshit
Perhaps I
should
hand in
my notice
and quit
At least
then that
would be
the end
of it
The Looking Glass
Looking at you
Looking at meI wonder how
far into
my soul
you can
really seeLooking at me
Looking at youI wonder
if I’ll ever
believe
what you
say is true
Your Voice
You have
to stop
talking
to me
I know
you’re
not really
there
Are you..?
Missing Kisses
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I kiss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I kiss you
I miss you
I kiss you
I miss you
I kiss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
so much
Last Year
It wasn’t
just the
end of us
It was
the end of
everything
Xxx
Secret Anxiety
Sickness grows
Frustration shows
Conversation slows
But no one knows
9.15am
I
was
high
And
so were
you
As we
said our
goodbye
In the
morning
hue
I’d Only Stand in the Kitchen Anyway…
For the third night in a row there are people having a party, somewhere, along my street.
I can hear them talking and laughing in their garden.
I can smell their cigarette smoke through my open window.
I can hear the rattle of beer bottles as they are thrown into the recycle bin.
Music blares away until the early hours.
I’m so jealous sitting here, miserable and alone, night after night.
I mean, I can be fun too you know.
Well, kind of.
Come Closer
I don’t bite.
Much.
Your Smile
Even though
my heart
currently
resides
in the
deep freeze
Your smile
still has
the power
to make
me go weak
at the knees
Not Long Now
Each day
brings another
false hopeAnd an earth
shattering
new lowI’m really just
biding my
time nowWaiting
until it’s my
turn to go
On Death
I
can’t
be
arsed
Goodbye
Be careful
when you
dismiss meAs
One day
I won’t
come back
Let’s Go Back
This was the wrong choice
Said the spider to the fly
I think we should returnI suppose you’re right
Said the fly to the spider
When will we ever fucking learn?
Let’s Go
Fuck this shit
Said the spider to the fly
I really can’t be arsedI agree entirely
Said the fly to the spider
I’m done with this farce
Past Lives
I think I remember you,
she said,
I think we’ve met before.
Perhaps it was when I was young,
she said,
and before my heart was sore.
I don’t remember meeting,
he said,
although I really can’t be sure.
Why don’t you sit down,
he said,
and talk to me some more.
Sham(e)
I got
bored of
this shit
a long
time agoThese
endless
tales of
sadness
and woeWith eyes
that burn
from the
tears that
flowI loathe
myself
more than
you’ll
ever know
Out With A Bang
What is this
stabbing pain
in my chest?
Why is it
causing me
such unrest?
Fingers
crossed it’s
a heart attack
Then I
can leave
this place
And never
have to
come back
Silent Conversations
Not yet
but soon
she says,
as she makes her
way to the door
But when,
how soon
he asks
as he stares
at the floor
Not yet
but soon
she says,
as her head
is slowly bowed
But when,
how soon
he asks
will we
be allowed?
Confusion
No!
No!
No!
Yes!
Yes!
Yes!
How am
I supposed
to decide
what to do
When my
head is
in such
a mess?
Scissors
It’s time
to put you
back in
your boxTo fasten
the lid
and change
the locksI cannot
continue
down this
pathFor if I
do there
is no way
back
Two Sides
I lie
in your bed
and I lie
to your face.I am
a public fraud
and a private
disgrace.
Left
I
missed you
again todayEveryone
else had
gone awayAnd it was
just me
here aloneCrying for
the love
I had once
known
Last Chance
Despite my
protests
to the
contrary,
it has
always
been you.
Why not
meet me
at the
library,
and I’ll make
your dreams
come true.
Soon
Life
has been
so much better
without
your bullshit
in it
Now
I know
for sure
I’ll soon be
removing you
from it
The Day After The Night Before
The come down
from seeing you
is a pain
I’ll always be
willing to endure
‘Always So Lost In The Dark…’
It’s 10.15 on a Friday night and excitement builds all around.
Saturday Waits as the promise of Spidermen and Caterpillars abound.
Like all those Japanese Babies who tumbled through the gate,
I Burn for tales of Cagey Tigers and Dogs who Shake.
And then I am reminded, as I Move To The Beat,
Why you Imaginary Boys always look so good enough to eat.
I’m So Glad I Came. That I finally made it to A Night Like This.
If only it could end with Just One (Strawberry) Kiss.
Alas, I am cast adrift to the Edge of the Deep Green Sea.
Wondering Why I Can’t Be You and not so Lost and Lonely.
The Cure
Bellahouston Park
Glasgow
16.08.2019
Robert
Your
melancholic
madness
dances
rings
around
my
heart
As
you
smudge
your
eyes
with
kohl
And
slash
your
lips
with
crimson
Speechless
There is so much
I want to tell you
So many things
I want to share
But my tears flow
all over again
When I realise
you’re not there
Eternity
Counting the days
Counting the hoursYou bring the wine
I’ll bring the flowersCounting the minutes
Counting the secondsWe’ll both take a pill
As eternity beckons
‘Slip Away, Quietly’
All happiness
is fleeting
All sadness
is depleting
I’m no
longer competing
From sanity
I’m retreating
New Life
I’m still
nowhere
near the
same she
said
Something
inside me has
permanently
changed
I can no
longer
play
your game
she said
Unless a
new life
can be
arranged
Reassured
The relief
is palpableMy anxiety
is pacifiedOur normality
is restoredThank fuck
you replied
Tarnished
That ring
you gave
me has
slowly
turned
my finger
greenA more
appropriate
metaphor
for our
relationship
I have
never seen
Only Sadness Remains
I wander barefoot
in the rain
Trying to wash
away your stain
Now that I’m left
in eternal pain
I’d give anything
to laugh again
It Should Be Me
Looking
up
to
the
sky
Tears
falling
as
I
cry
Asking
over
and
over
why
Will
you
forever
pass
me
by
Cops & Robbers
Caught with
my hands
in the
sweetie jar
I retreat,
shamefaced,
when I
hear a
police car…
Who the
fuck has
called
the cops?
I’ve only
stolen
a couple
of pear
drops…
Power
I’ve walked
along
this road
before
Feeling
lonely
and
insecure
At least
this time
I know
for sure
You
cannot
hurt me
anymore
Each Time We Meet
Why isn’t
it me,
she asks,Why can’t
it be us?For I
already
love another,
he says,As her
dreams
crumble
to dust.
Undefeated
You might
not be
speaking
to me
But I know
you’re
speaking
about me
That
means
I win
08.08
So it’s another birthday
And what a day it has been
If I’d have known last year
What I know now
I would have jacked it all in
But I suppose now it’s time
At this ripe old age
And much to my chagrin
To find a way of moving forward
And discover the strength within
Childhood Memories
I got lost on my
eighth birthday.
Sometimes
I wonder
what would’ve
happened,
if I’d never
been found.
Birthdays
The older I get
The more I realise
I never wanted to be here
In the first place
Out of Shape
In a world full of cubes,
I’m a dodecahedron.
Overly complicated.
Good Enough
So I’m good enough
to speak to today?
Now all your friends
have gone away?
Well I’ll hold my tongue
and try to be nice.
But you’ll find my lenience
will come at a price.
Over
Time will heal
Hearts can mend
Until then accept
This is the end
Stale (mate)
You
deserve
lessI
deserve
moreWe’re both
fucked either waySo let’s
call it a draw
Temple Bar
The hordes gather outside your hotel window.
Laughing,
Joking,
Having fun.
You wish you had the guts to be more like them.
Prettier,
Funnier,
More confident.
Instead you’re sitting in here alone with the curtains drawn.
With nothing but your ‘I Hate People’ badge for company.
Perpetual Brightness
This heat is exhausting,
It’s too much for me to bear.
My feet feel like they are on fire,
Sweat dripping from my hair.
I sit and pray for some relief,
Perhaps a cool calming breeze.
Something to help me ease the pain,
A salvation from this awful disease.
Hand Luggage
This weight
is too heavyIts burden
is too greatYet I struggle
on regardlessResigned
to my fate
Getting Dressed
I could
put on
a smile
Or put
on a
dress
But why
should I
bother?
Who is
there to
impress?
The Burden
If
only
I knew
what to do
I
would
not be so
reliant on you
If
only
I knew
how to grieve
It
would be
so much easier
to let you leave
If
only
I knew
who to be
I’d
thank you
for your help
then set you free