Month: Oct 2019

Portent

There’s no reprieve

For those who venture outside

As on All Hallows’ Eve

There’s nowhere to hide

10

The Raven

Those
piercing
eyes

That
matte
black
beak

I wonder
what
secrets
you
would
yield

If
only
you
could
speak

10

The Blood Red Moon

Wide
awake
night
after
night
screaming
at the
ghostly
twilight
trying
with all
of my
might
to summon
the courage
to continue
the fight

 

11

Vanity

Waiting
for the
rain to
stop

I don’t
want to
see another
drop

It
really
doesn’t
seem fair

For I’ve
spent so
long doing
my hair

13

Clueless

You
think
you
know

But
you
have
no clue

What
I’ve
had to
let go

Or
what I
still go
through

4

Something Old / Something New

I wandered lonely as a cloud

Screaming the words fuck you out loud

As, like the night, she walked in beauty

I wished someone would just come along and shoot me

As I, in the wood, took the road less travelled

I sat and cried as my mind unravelled

And as we talked between the rooms

I closed my eyes and succumbed to the fumes

13

I Want More

I’ll no
longer
provide
a distraction

Or a
lens for
your
dissatisfaction

I should
command
much more
attention

For I
deserve
the utmost
adoration

12

Support

I can’t
stay,
she said,
I have
to go
back

It’s the
only way
to get my
life back
on track

I’ll come
with you,
he said,
you don’t
have to go
on your own

I’m here to
help you
through
so you’ll
never
be alone

0

I Don’t Care

Don’t
expect
me to
be shocked

Or to
go off
on one
half cocked

For I
know this
is where
it ends

And why
we can
no longer
be friends

5

Dreaming

Not only
did I
sleep
last night

I
also
dreamt
of you

I
woke
up
crying

With
my
insides
dying

Oh why
can’t my
dreams
come true?

19

Tight Lipped

I’m
not
trying
to be
mean

Or to
cause
yet
another
scene

So before
my fuse
is well
and truly
blown

Please
just piss
off and
leave me
alone

0

Afternoons

Once again
it’s that
time of day

Do I get
out of bed
or stay

Here all
afternoon
and wonder

Why our
hearts were
torn asunder

4

On Silent

Don’t bother
to call me

As I’ll just watch
the phone ring

I will not
answer to you

And I’ll never
tell you anything

9

Wonderland

It’s nice
to think
I matter

That what
I feel is
shared

But really
I’m as mad
as a hatter

Surely no one
else is this
impaired?

0

For Our Own Good

You never
see the
worst of
my illness
because
I hide it
from you

For you
to know
the truth
about me
would just
tear me
in two

So I’ll
paint
on a
smile and
pretend
that I’m
fine

For
doing so
protects
both
your
sanity
and mine

6

Down

I can’t
do anything
any more

All I do
is sit
and stare

Questioning
myself all
the time

Moaning
how life
isn’t fair

In truth
I actually
bore myself

So fuck
knows why
you care

10

Masochism

Every time
I hear
this song

It brings
tears to
my eyes

And pain
to my
heart

A reminder of
all I’ve come
to despise

And how
we’ll forever
be apart

I should
just press
stop

Switch
off the
laptop

And
walk
away…

0

Harm Reduction

I’ve been
trying
so hard
to break
this chain

So I’ve
drawn on
my arms
with Biro
again

At least,
this time,
it’s just
a token

And my
skin,
for now,
remains
unbroken

8

The Lamp

I should
have been
more careful
with what
I wished for

Because
I never
wanted it
to end like
this at all

10

I Surrender

It’s the
first
thought
I have

When
I
wake

A
desire
so
dark

My heart
starts
to
shake

As the
hour of my
certain
end draws
near

Will today
be the
day I
release
my fear?

6

Done In

There’s
only so
much I
can write

Before
I go
to sleep
tonight

My
eyes are
heavy and
overtired

My
head is
weary and
overfired

2

Frenemies

If I
called you
at midnight

Unable
to
cope

Would
you hear
my plight?

Or hand
me the
rope?

24

Indebted

Thank
you so
much
for
being
you

Otherwise
I’d still
be wandering
around
without
a clue

Waiting
for
the days
not to
feel
so blue

And
hoping
to find
a love
that’s
true

2

Fairytales

I only hope
that one day

You might look
at me that way

That you will
give us our chance

To get caught up
in a fine romance

9

Mondays

Head racing
a million
miles an hour

Heart
pounding
the same

So many
appointments
to make

So many
lions
to tame

10

Letting Shit Go

What’s
the
point
in all
of
this?

Of me
putting
up
with
your
bullshit?

Well
I’m
giving up,
I’m
letting
it go

But I’ll
always be
the better
person,
just so
you know

6

Our House

Nothing in this house
makes sense anymore

Madness lurks
behind every door

Memories of all
the love we swore

Leave my head in a spin
and my heart on the floor

10

Flowers

You never
once
bought
me flowers

Which used
to make
me mad

Now I don’t
give a fuck
about any
of that stuff

I just
want you
back

3

Drinking

I fear I’ve
had one too
many a drink
tonight…

Perhaps now
is not the
time my story
to write…

3

Tug Of War

Please
don’t push
me away,
he said,
I only want
to make sure
you’re okay

Please
just leave
me alone,
she said,
I am much
better left
on my own

2

Bitter

Tell all
the lies
about me
you like

Spin your
twisted
tales
of spite

But half
truths won’t
make people
like you

And they
certainly
don’t make
you right

8

A Hopeless Romantic

You’ll
never
be the
one for
me,

So why
can’t I
just
leave
it alone?

Why do
I keep
getting
my hopes
up,

When
you’ve
made your
feelings
known?

10

Keeping Busy

It’s been
a busy
few days

In
many
ways

But now all
my tasks are
completed

So with
nothing
left to do

I’ll soon
be thinking
of you

And how
I’ve been left
feeling cheated

10

The Anniversary

It will
soon be
a year,
without
you here,
and I
don’t
know
what
to do.

For I’m
still
nowhere
near,
facing
my fear,
or the
reality
of losing
you.

Xxx

17

Undeserving

I’ll
never
fall
in love
again

Not
that
I ever
wanted
to be

Love is
for those
with
delicate
souls

And
not
for the
likes
of me

14

‘Handsome Devil’

There
was
once a
light

That
shone
in my
life

But
now it’s
sadly
gone out

For
I
have
found

Heroes
let
you
down

Of that
there
can be
doubt

17

Twinkle

You
say
that
look
in my
eye

Sends
shivers
down
your
spine

I hope
one day
when
you
look
at me

That
you’ll
send
shivers
down
mine

0

Inevitability

I’m
not
sure

I can
give
any
more

I think
I’ll
have
to stop

There
is
nothing
left

Now
I’m
bereft

But to
wait
for the
other
shoe
to drop

12

The Fall

I am
unsure
how it
happened

And I
certainly
don’t
know why

There’s
nothing left
for me to
do now

But
just sit
around
and cry

13

Tuesdays

Waking up tired,
Heart already in pain

I really can’t be arsed,
with this shit again

4

Public Displays of Affection

It’s a
jarring
thought

For us
to be
caught

Holding
hands with
each other

I would
be terribly
fraught

To think
of him
distraught

That I was
now in love
with another

4

Following The Leader

I would
follow
you all
the way
there and
back

To where
the air
turns blue
and the
sky turns
black

I would
follow you
all the
way there
and back
again

If we
could be
together,
forever,
without all
this pain

0

Prey

The
wolves
are on
their
hunt
again

I can
hear
them
whine
and
howl

They
are
already
stalking
me I
know

As
you’ve
told
them
where
to prowl

0

A Little More

As I fall
apart
a little
more
each day

I wonder
if I’ll
always
feel
this way

How
much
lower
can I
sink?

Who will
pull me
back
from the
brink?

14

Emotional Flux

The guilt
I feel
when
I smile

Consumes
my day
and night

Perhaps I
should
just wait
a while

Before
thinking
it’s alright

7

It’s Over

I love you
with all
my heart

He said

And that
would never
change

I can’t
imagine us
being apart

He said

It would
really be
too strange

I’m sorry
but that’s
not enough

She said

For me
to want
to stay

I know you
will find
it tough

She said

But I
have to
walk away

12

Harsh Truth

It can
be a
hard
lesson
to learn

When
you’re
at the
point of
no return

That
nobody
actually
gives
a shit

Whether
you decide
to stay
or to
end it

11

Acceptance

I
asked
the
doctor

When
will the
tablets
work?

When do
they take
away my
hurt?

Nothing
will
do that,
she said

Tablets
only
make it
easier to
get out
of bed

I
asked
the
doctor

Are
you
sure?

Won’t
you do
something
more?

There’s
nothing
else I
can do,
she said

You just
have to
accept
that he
is dead

12

Healing

Some
days

You are
so close
to me

Some
days

You
are so
far

Some
day

I’ll have
nothing to
remind me

Other than
this scar

9

Moods

Ups and downs,

Peaks and troughs,

But the darkness?

That never stops…

7

Misanthropic Me

People
never
cease to
disgust
and
disappoint
me in
equal measure

Perhaps
that’s
why my
life is
full of
discomfort
and
displeasure

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