‘Very few of us are what we seem…’
– Agatha Christie
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
‘Very few of us are what we seem…’
– Agatha Christie
How do I give you up
My drug of choice
You don’t stand a chance
Whispers a voice
I
guess
I’m
happy
More
or
less
Even
though
I’m
left
To
clean
up the
mess
And
then
it
hits
Like
a ton
of
bricks
And
I don’t
feel a
thing
Lying to
myself
is bad
enough
But
lying
to you
hurts
more
But
there’s
no way
I could
be truthful
That’s
for
fucking
sure
I suppose
I should
make it
clear
Right
from the
very
start
You may
delight
in my
body
But you’ll
never
have my
heart
I wish
you were
with me
Gently
squeezing
my hand
Providing
me with
comfort
Helping me
understand
A kind man once said to me
You can be anything you want to be
But it’s hard to believe that you could matter
In amongst all this chatter
A kind man once said to me
You can do anything you want to do
But it’s hard to believe that could be true
When you live your life as I do
A kind man once said to me
You can say whatever you want
But it’s hard to believe you could speak that way
When you’ve never felt that it’s okay
A kind man once said to me
You are capable of more than you think
But it’s hard to believe you could make that link
As your heart, once more, begins to sink
Thirty
six
thousand
words
And
each
one of
them
shite
But now
I’ve
passed
one
thousand
followers
I
must
be doing
something
right
I don’t
know if
you’re
aware
She
said
But
I’ve
been
feeling
rather
down
Let me
fetch my
notebook
He
said
Reaching
forward
with a
frown
Carry on ‘studying’
For your Mickey Mouse degree
But just know whatever happens
You’ll never be better than me
Maybe
you’ll
change
your
mind
Or
maybe
you
won’t
But
one
thing
is for
sure
You’ll
regret
it if
you
don’t
I think you feel
The way I do
That your heart beats
Like mine does too
That your mind wanders
On the same path as me
That you also dream
Of when you’ll be free
I
did
not
realise
That
space
in my
head
Would
still be
filled
by you
Even
though
you’re
dead
My
head
hurts
today
Just as
much
as my
heart
I need
coffee
and a
cigarette
Then
I’ll
make
a start
I read,
read
and
read it
again
But it
doesnt
change
a thing
I can’t
take
back
what
I wrote
Or
remove
it’s
sting
All
those
times
I was
there
for
you
I
never
asked
for a
thing
in return
Well
you’re
on your
own
You
self
righteous
cunt
So
perhaps
now
you’ll
learn
All
that
time
together
With
nothing
left to
show
But a
heart
that is
broken
And a
space
down
below
If I
could
be
Who
you
want
Me
to
be
Perhaps
then
we
Would
both be
happy
Let
me
out
She
said
You
can’t
keep me
here
I
think
you’ll
find we
can
He
said
The
law is
very
clear
As
the rot
starts
to set
in
I
pour
myself
another
gin
To
silence
the pain
in my
head
As
the
thoughts
seem to
shift
My
mood
starts
to
lift
And
I can
finally
get out
of bed