One Night In Heaven

I’ve lain awake at night thinking about this, about the permanence of death. I haven’t had anybody close to me die, or died myself (obviously), but when I think deeply about it like this, I understand the fucking with your brain part. However much you can understand it logically, on some level it feels like an impossible concept.

Also the same about myself dying. The personal magnitude of it, in the context of the span of the universe! If I die, the whole universe dies too. Crazy. I am here right now and experiencing the universe, and this experience can’t be replicated. Nature’s a fucking bitch! 🤦‍♂️

We get so protected from nature by modern society, all of the comfort and easiness of living. It’s scary to face the fundamental cruelness of it which is always there. It feels really incongruous how there’s this appearance of people living perfectly neat, planned lives with careers and pensions and retirement plans and stuff. But it’s all like a sandcastle.

I think the modern world can be a harsh place when you have to deal with anything serious, because everybody around is moving on like a cog in a machine and you’re expected to jump back in as soon as possible. Meanwhile you’re just dealing with fundamental nature. We really need more human connection for a lot of reasons.

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