Month: Nov 2020

Ontology

Who am I now?

What should I do?

Why am I still here?

When I could be with you?

Xxx

6

Mawkish

You’ll say you miss him terribly

As you bleat and cry and whine

But all I’ll remember is when

You couldn’t stand to be near him then

Even half the fucking time

6

Congruent

If I was ever anything

It certainly wasn’t fake

So if you think that’s true

After all I went through

Then that’s your mistake

5

Fraudulent

Love me a little

Hate me a lot

At least I’m not the one

Who thinks they won

Pretending to be someone they’re not

2

My Lips Are Sealed

Don’t you worry

I will never tell

How much you hurt me

And put me through hell

But not to keep

Your good name intact

But more to ensure

You never come back

14

‘Want’

An artist for the ages

Your words leave me floored

What else is there to say?

Other than please, give me more

4

Rusty

Please
don’t
be
scared

He
said

There
really
is no
need

It’s only
because
it’s been
a while

She
said

Since
I’ve
done
the dirty
deed

15

Scabs

Picking at these circles

All itchy, bloody and raw

Wondering why

The fuck am I

Doing this shit again for

15

Vanished

With no idea what this shit means

I’ve fallen apart at the seams

Hidden behind these opaque screens

I only exist now in my dreams

5

The Pact

How very dare

You go up there

Without taking me

Don’t you care

Can’t you see

That’s where I’m

Supposed to be

16

Especially

Loving
someone
is
painful

Especially
when
they
can’t
love
you
back

If
only
there
was a
way

Those
feelings
to
allay

Without
the
need
for
Prozac

4

Ping

Your final post

Flashed up today, as a memory

And although just a notification

It meant so much more to me

Xxx

16

Love In The 90’s

No one could wear

A band t-shirt like you

With your longer hair

And grey cardigan too

With your smile so shy

And Doc Marten boots

It was no wonder why

We were in cahoots

8

Weak

I really am sorry

I cannot take your weight

For my arms are too broken

From carrying my own

23

Hard To Grasp

I’m not sure you ever loved me

Or even liked me very much

Perhaps that’s the root

Of all this pain

The lack of human touch

11

High Maintenance

I’m not looking for just anyone

For not just anyone will do

It’ll take someone superhuman

To survive what I’ll put them through

17

Regret (2)

Considering
everything
I’ve given
up

My
life is
finally
on track

It’s just
a shame
I didn’t
know
how

All
of
this
would
work
out

And
left
you
standing
a while
back

7

The Daily Struggle

I went back to bed

Three times today

To try to dream

This pain away

But it didn’t work

And now I’m awake

Do I have any choice

But my life to take?

21

I’m Not Sorry

Why
should
I apologise
to you

When
you
lashed
out
at me?

I’m
just
glad
to have
realised

You’re
no
longer my
responsibility

4

Random #38

‘Have we enough to keep it together?

Or do we just keep on pretending,

And hope our luck is never ending…’

4

No Matter What?

How
long
will
you

Be
here
for
me

When
your
own
tradegy
strikes

What
will
happen

To
our
love

When
your
reality
bites?

10

Struck

All
my
life

I’ve
waited
for this

The
feeling
of certainty

That
thunderbolt
kiss

7

Thick Skin

There’s
that
old
phrase

‘Least
said,
soonest
mended’

Well
please
feel
free

To say
what you
want
to me

I’ll
never
be
offended

6

High School Reunions

I
wonder
what

You’d
think
of me
now

Fat,
forty
and
fucked

Would
you
still
love me
forever

Want
to be
together
whatever

Or be
thankful
for the
bullet
you
ducked

21

The Coup

If
I could
do it
over
again

I
would
change
everything

I’d
be who
I always
wanted
to be

And
I would
be the
king

14

Sweet Nothings

Do
you
say
those
things

To
someone
else

Now
you
don’t
say
them
to me?

Does
it
make
me
pathetic

My
thoughts
so
frenetic

That
these
things
still
bother
me?

4

‘Jealous Guy’

Some
days
I am
acutely
aware

That
you
have
much
more
fun
than
me

I
suppose
it’s
not
that
hard
to
believe

Given
my
penchant
for
misery

18

That

I
wish
that
I could
give
you

What
it is
that
you
want
me to

It’s
not
that
I wouldn’t
like it

But
more
that
I don’t
have
a clue

4

Unhealthy Choices

Sitting
here
with
nothing
to do

And
yet my
mind is
crowded

This
is when
things
go wrong

When my
judgement
becomes
clouded

14

Closing Time

If a
nod

Is as
good

As a
wink

Then
we
should
get

Another
drink

And
finally
put

This
flirtatious
thing

Between
us
both

To
bed

6

There’s Only One Side

How
much
longer

Must
we
wait

To
put
an
end

To
this
debate

Surely
any
human
being
can see

A
racist,
corrupt,
misogynistic
cunt

Never
should a
President
be

16

Across The Pond

Get
off
your
arse
and
vote

And
do it
right
this
time
please

Your
country
has,
for
too
long,

Been
on
its
fucking
knees

27

Wavering

The
internal
debate

Rages on
without
relent

Should
I kiss
you now

‘Til my
hearts
content

Or
should I
hold off

And
think
again

For
I can’t
lose you

My
only
friend

21

Restricted List

It
feels
so
good
to
block
you

Who
knew
how
happy
I’d
be

For
you’ve
had
so
much
of my
life

Now
you
won’t
get
another
piece
of me

12

In My Shoes

Bitter
and
twisted

Yes,
that’s
me

But
live
my
life

For a
minute
or two

And so
would
you
fucking
be

12

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