Season’s Beatings

I fucking hate Christmas

Just like Christmas hates me

Walking on eggshells all day

Faking smiles around a tree

I learned when I was five

Santa doesn’t deliver for free

That he prefers ‘good little girls’

And the one he favoured that year was me

As an adult I’ve tried to make it better

To erase him from my memory

But I still fucking hate Christmas

Just like Christmas hates me

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  3. This made me cry because it is the same for me. I fucking hate Christmas with a vengeance as well and today I am suffering horribly and at least on your thread I can say that. I have opened a thread on my own blog for people who suffer on Christmas Day and I think people who think it is fucking fantastic should start thinking about those who have terrible terrible memories and extreme loneliness. Thank you for posting this it’s made my day

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    1. I’m glad it resonated with you my friend.

      I have to say I felt a pang of guilt when I posted this one as I wouldn’t want to bring anyone down who is actually enjoying this time of year.

      However, I reasoned that I have to stay true to myself here (that’s the the ethos of my blog after all) and if folks didn’t want to be ‘upset’ by it then they could just scroll by.

      It means a lot to me that it meant something to you and that it may have provided just a minute of comfort on what is such a difficult day for many of us 🖤🖤🖤

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  11. I was really glad to read this LC. It’s the best thing I’ve read all day because for once it was something true to my own experience and I am sick of having to go with the general flow. Suddenly, I didn’t feel so alone, though I am sad that you had to go through this as well LC and that you too deel as bad as me. My family such as they are (brother and sister) rejected me totally after my mother doed and she wasxa bloody abuser too. So this day is utterly horrible. We should form a club LC. Thankyou for writing and posting this. Steangely, it made me feel bettwr. Not so alone. Hugs to you ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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      1. I know we are and it’s fucking sad but it’s true. Some people need to realise that Christmas is hell for some people! But sending you love and hugs.❤️❤️❤️

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  14. I love your poem…for you being authentic & true to yourself…I don’t love or hate Christmas or any other similar occasions…I just don’t believe anymore in label…we’ve labelled everything…this day & that day…what’s the point mate….

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