Making Do

I remember this

Only too well

Wandering around

In a daze

Living life

On autopilot

Trying to navigate

The maze

That conflict inside me

Never stopped

I still feel it

To this day

It’s just easier now

To do what I can

And to push the cannot

Away

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I Can / I Cannot

I can forever buy token things,

But I cannot answer my phone if it rings.

I can try to plug the cavernous gap,

But I cannot avoid that same old trap.

I can seek out frames for your daft wee photos,

But I cannot keep all of your old clothes.

I can find different ways to while away the hours,

But I cannot keep watering those dead flowers.

I can pray today will be warm and sunny,

But I cannot walk around and pretend to be funny.

I can look for answers in the cold grey sky,

But I cannot continue to painfully cry.

I can avoid scenes of actual violence,

But I cannot ensure my wilful silence.

I can try with all I have to get myself through,

But I cannot ever stop myself from loving you.

(Originally Posted 10.3.2019)