I remember the inspiration
For this one
It was based on
A session I’d had
With a particularly
Shitty therapist
Back when I
Was clinically mad
He said my struggles
Were my own fault
And to get better
I ‘must try harder’
Yet I was the one
Who apologised to him
Like I was forced to
With my father
I’ve realised since
That I’d been conditioned
To seek out
The approval of men
To say sorry
For my shortcomings
To promise never
To do it again
But I
Am getting older now
And I can feel
The strength in myself
So all those men
Who have fucked me over
Can go and rot
In hell
Must Try Harder
You must try harder, he says
Harder to smile
Harder to laugh
Harder to forgive
Harder to forget
Harder to live again
Harder to love again
You must try harder, he says
I can’t, she whispers
I’m sorry
(Originally Posted 24.03.2019)
I feel this one so deeply-the amount of times I said sorry my life! I’m in my 40s now and I don’t apologize anymore unless it’s deserved.
The try harder statements-ugh! When I was in a deep depression I heard these exact words from many well-meaning people.
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It takes some of us a long time to come to that conclusion it seems – and I’m so glad you have now too my friend 👍🖤
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Being a therapist sounds like an easy job. Seems even an idiot can do it 🤣💚
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Indeed!! 🤣
And ‘idiot’ is kinder than that fucking prick deserves 👍🖤
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What a crap therapist. You must try harder to stop apologising! 😂🖤
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Ah, I can smile about it now… 🤣😉🖤
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Good! 🙂🖤
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You went to a therapist when you can get all the therapy you could hope for on here?
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Very true my friend, very true 😉🖤
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Haha, you speak truth, a reluctant and unfortunate truth.
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👍🖤
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Amen
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👍🖤
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No shortage of people out there ready to prey on people at their lowest 😓😓. Ironically because of people like that through their efforts to shrug us off we can feel FORCED to try to go it alone as they are effectively telling us to. Which is fucked. 💙
I have a particular distrust of men in these situations unfortunately.
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Couldn’t agree more my friend, sadly 🖤🖤
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That’s heartbreaking. What kind of bully is he?
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One I don’t have to be around anymore, thankfully 🖤🖤
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Thank f**king God
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🖤🖤
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Sorry.
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No need to apologise my friend, not aimed at all men 👍🖤
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