I woke up alone again today
Going over the words we spoke
Another day without you here
Really is a fucking joke
Xxx
One Way Conversations
I already miss you
She said
And you haven’t even left
Xxx
Tickles
Try as I may
It’s never enough
Nothing
Can replace your touch
Xxx
Fate
I wish I’d never met you.
Life would be easier then.
If I’d never met you
I wouldn’t have to forget you.
And I would be happier then.
(Originally Posted 09.03.2019)
Bottled Memories
I’m glad
I kept
your aftershave,
so that I
can wear
it too.It’s the
only thing
that I
have left,
that keeps
me close
to you.(Originally Posted 14.06.2019)
Sometimes
Sometimes it's easy to think about you.
Our memories overwhelm me,
I feel the touch of your hand in mine,
and my eyes sparkle with joyous delight.
Sometimes I can't think about you at all.
My brain shuts off the pathway to the pain,
My lungs stop taking in air,
and my heart, momentarily, stops beating.
Sometimes it's easy to talk about you.
Words fall from my mouth,
stories flow like vintage wine,
and my smile is as wide as the horizon.
Sometimes I can't talk about you at all.
Sentences fail to form in my head,
my voice dries up like a parched riverbed,
and my mouth is clamped like a vice.
(Originally Posted 22.03.2019)
Best Fri(end)
I
never
thought
This
would
be
How
all
this
would
end
Me
living
here
alone
Without
my
best
friend
(Originally Posted 21.06.2019)
A Life Together
There were times when I would tire of it all,
But I don’t have a single regret.
I never once got bored of it all,
Our inescapable duet.
(Originally Posted 06.05.2019)
Jigsaws
You should be here with us.
Reciting these stories,
Reminding us of the facts,
Pointing out the details,
Bringing these memories to life.
We didn't realise, back then,
We'd need to remember it all.
As one day you wouldn't be here,
To connect the dots...
(Originally Posted 13.03.2019)
‘Blue Sign’
I was doing really well today you know.
I got out of bed at a reasonable time.
I sang to myself in the shower.
I put on different clothes.
I remembered to fed the cat.
I cleaned the bathroom.
I threw out the stale food from the fridge.
I washed the bed sheets.
I took the rubbish out.
I went for a swim.
I started listening to a new podcast.
I went shopping in the afternoon.
I even flirted with the man who served me.
And then I drove past the blue sign.
And the sky fell in.
And I remembered everything.
And my heart shattered all over again.
(Originally Posted 11.03.2019)
Imprint
I roll over to your side of the bed.
My limbs search for yours,
My lungs for your scent,
My mouth for your kiss.
But all that’s left is your imprint.
So my tears fall into your pillow,
Once again.
(Originally Posted 23.03.2019)
An Honour
I’ve never met anyone else
Who could spin a tale like you
Who tied people in knots with laughter
Who turned the air so cheekily blue
You were a master of your trade
The likes of which there’ll only ever be one
I’ll never forget your stories
Even now you’re gone
You’ll always be my hero
And a treasure to many more
I hope one day we’ll meet again
My Glaswegian raconteur
Xxx
Recurring
The tears I cried
When you died
Will never fully dry
For with each day
Dawns a new array
Of pain I can’t deny
Xxx
The Beach
I'm
glad
I spoke
to you
today
Even
though
it was
only
the
wind
That
could
reply
Xxx
Still
Thunder rolls
Lightning strikes
As grief still cuts me
Like a knife
Xxx
I Wish
I wish that I had asked you more
I wish I’d kissed you each day
I wish that I had really made sure
I wish I’d begged you to stay
Xxx
Moments
This is why
I’m still alive
To be here
In moments like this
When all the pieces
Fit together
For these few seconds of bliss
Xxx
Hallmark Verse
Rest in power
Rest in peace
For at least now
Your pain has ceased
Xxx
Tu Me Manques
I just wish you were still here.
That’s it.
No flowery language.
No poetic licence.
I just wish you hadn’t died.
Simple.
Xxx.
Ontology
Who am I now?
What should I do?
Why am I still here?
When I could be with you?
Xxx
Ping
Your final post
Flashed up today, as a memory
And although just a notification
It meant so much more to me
Xxx
