You Deserve Each Other

She has long been

The target

For all of my insults

And slurs

But your fakery

Fucking disgusts me

Almost as much

As hers


Celebrity Suicide Breeds Public Dishonesty

So you can
empathise
with her

Someone
you only
saw on TV?

But when
my shit hit
the fan

You couldn’t
sympathise
with me?

Well fuck your
social media
petition

And your
boycott of
that rag

Why not look
a little closer
to home?

You
disingenuous
old hag

(Originally Posted 16.02.2020)

“Winner… By A Knockout”

How funny it was to read this

It’s almost prophetic in a way

As I hadn’t actually bumped into her

When I wrote this back in the day

This was actually what I hoped I’d do

If such a meeting ever arose

How I wouldn’t even acknowledge her

If we were to be up close

I had no real way of knowing

If I was capable of such a thing

As I might’ve just ran and hid

From the sight of her shit eating grin

But as it is I needn’t have worried

As I saw her just last week

In the most utterly random encounter

That you could ever wish seek

And I did, indeed, just saunter by

Leaving her mealy mouth struck dumb

Whereas I walked away both victorious

And comfortably numb


Getting Better At Caring Less

I walked
past you
today

And didn’t
even turn
my head

I just
quietly
sauntered
by

And felt
nothing
for you
instead

(Originally Posted 17.12.2019)

I’m Loving Life

I hope you’re feeling

The cold up there

On what you think

Is the moral high ground

Sad, lonely

And freezing to death

While I’m down here

Safe and sound


Toy Soldiers

Did it ever occur to you

That I didn’t want you to know

What would you have done anyway

Other than used it as ammo

In this ridiculous war against me

That you felt the need to wage

Well I’m glad I never said a word

And from your battle, just disengaged

(Originally Posted 17.12.2020)

The Long Way Down

I remember

When I heard this

Oh how I laughed

And laughed

To know that finally,

And rightfully,

You have fallen on your ass


Music To My Ears

So I’ve heard that you

Are starting to feel

Like you’re reaping

What you sowed

Well all I can say

Is poor, poor you

I hope your pain

Has overflowed

As I, for one,

Cannot express

Just how happy

I am to know

That perhaps now you

Can comprehend

How it feels

To be alone

(Originally Posted 08.12.2020)

Dead To Me

It was definitely you

I saw tonight

And I’ll admit

I took great delight

In walking by

Without a care

Just a smug little smile

And my nose in the air

Arm in arm

With my actual friends

As they’re all I need

In the end


At A Glance

If it
was you
I saw
in that
doorway
tonight

I hope
my presence
gave
you a
fright

And you
realise
now
that
I’m
happy

And
that it’s
just you
I don’t
want
to see

(Originally Posted 16.11.2019)

Of Biblical Proportions

You will reap

What you sow

Isn’t that what they say?

Well if that’s true

Then I promise you

There’s a fucking whirlwind

On the way


Penance

You’ll probably never see me again

And I’m quite happy with that

As it’s the very least you deserve

For being such an obnoxious twat

(Originally Posted 10.11.2019)

An Unscalable Fence

After all that you

Put me through

You think a sorry will suffice

You’ve got no clue

Of what you’d need to do

For me to even think about playing nice


There’s No Excuse

It
didn’t
mean
a thing
back
then

And
it
certainly
doesn’t
now

So
you can
shove
your
apology

Up
your
arse

You
spiteful
little
cow

(Originally Posted 03/11/2020)

The Split

This is what, ultimately,

Was the cause of it all

When he’d reached the end

And I needed a friend

It wasn’t her I wanted to call


Not Everybody Hurts The Same

Privacy
is not
allowed,
it seems

When
you’re
trying
to grieve

People
get pissed
off,
it seems

If you don’t
wear your
heart on
your sleeve

(Originally Posted 03.11.2019)

Toxic Bitch

She’s still out there

Or so I’ve heard

Badmouthing me

To her adoring herd

Never recounting her part

In what happened with us

Preferring, as ever, to throw me

Under the bus


Bitter

Tell all
the lies
about me
you like

Spin your
twisted
tales
of spite

But half
truths won’t
make people
like you

And they
certainly
don’t make
you right

(Originally Posted 18.10.2019)

It’s Not Help, It’s An Ego Trip

You say I only call you

When I am feeling depressed

But from my point of view

What is actually true

Is you just don’t care about the rest


‘Call Me Anytime’

When
I need
you

You’re
never
there

It
hurts,
you
know

That
you
don’t
care

(Originally Posted 10.10.2020)

You Reap What You Sow

It was you

Who kicked

This hornet’s nest

So don’t cry

Now you’ve

Got stung


Radio Silence

It’s
not
that I’ll
never
call
you my
friend

It’s
just
that I’ll
never
call
you
again

(Originally Posted 31.08.2019)

It Wasn’t Fun For Me

I will never answer

To you again

As what you called banter

I call pain


Sylvia’s Sister

Maybe I’ll drink until I’m sick

Maybe I’ll dance like a prick

Maybe I’ll smoke ten to the dozen

Maybe I’ll put my head in the oven

Either way one thing is true

It has got fuck all to do with you

(Originally Posted 14.08.2020)

A Day Reclaimed

When asked to describe

The best day of your life

I’m sure you’ve got many replies

When you got married,

The birth of your kids

Or some such equally befitting prize

Well I know that for me

It was when I chose to be free

And told those fuckers I’d never be back

And ever since that time

I’ve been on cloud nine

With no fear of that panic attack


Family Dinners

Can I be arsed with this?

No.

Do I still have to go?

Yes.

Fuck.

(Originally Posted 14.07.2019)

The Concequences Of Your Actions

It wouldn’t matter if you said sorry

Or tried hard to make amends

For we may always be

Family

But we’ll never again be friends


The Call That Never Comes (Not That I’d Answer If It Did)

I’m
sorry
for
what
I did

I’m
sorry
for
what
I said

I’ve
been
an
utter
arsehole

Given
that
he
is
dead

(Originally Posted 27.06.2020)

Just Enough Justification

That day you decided

To take it all from me

Yet all you actually provided

Was the route to set me free


You Know Nothing

I do not want your pity

Your sympathy is of no use

I care nothing for your tears

As your grief is just an excuse

(Originally Posted 29.05.2019)

Learning The Hard Way

I remember the inspiration

For this one

It was based on

A session I’d had

With a particularly

Shitty therapist

Back when I

Was clinically mad

He said my struggles

Were my own fault

And to get better

I ‘must try harder’

Yet I was the one

Who apologised to him

Like I was forced to

With my father

I’ve realised since

That I’d been conditioned

To seek out

The approval of men

To say sorry

For my shortcomings

To promise never

To do it again

But I

Am getting older now

And I can feel

The strength in myself

So all those men

Who have fucked me over

Can go and rot

In hell


Must Try Harder

You must try harder, he says

Harder to smile

Harder to laugh

Harder to forgive

Harder to forget

Harder to live again

Harder to love again

You must try harder, he says

I can’t, she whispers

I’m sorry

(Originally Posted 24.03.2019)

‘Take All That Away, And What’s Left?’

I never did thank you

For teaching me

How to respond

To insincerity

I have never been happier

Than the day I realised

That sealing up

Your crypt for good

Meant you would die inside


Grief Vampire

Paltry, trite sentiment
Faux hurt and pain
Superficial, artificial compassion
Feigned sadness and tears

You’ve got no fucking idea 
How this really feels
Just piss off back to your crypt
And leave me in peace

(Originally Posted 15.03.2019)

A Selfish Cunt

Call yourself a friend

When you left me here alone

When you couldn’t even be bothered

To visit or lift the phone

Call yourself a friend

When you all you did was make me frown

When you were only happy

If you were putting me down

Call yourself a friend

When you never gave me any advice

Well I know what I’d call you

And it isn’t very nice

John 20:23

Forgive and forget

That’s what they say

Be the bigger person

Just walk away

Well I must be cut

From a different cloth

For I’ll never tire

Of unleashing my wroth

Grave Stones

You were just pissed off

That he never wanted a place

You never really understood

What he was trying to embrace

That’s why you weren’t involved

And the reason we no longer speak

I’m just glad he wasn’t around

To see the damage you would wreak

Fuck You Death

Fuck you death

She said

You really don’t scare me

That’s what you all say

He said

But through your lies I see

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