Don’t Touch Me

How the
fuck am
I going
to get
through
today
when I
can’t even
open my
eyes?

Why the
fuck am
I even
bothering
today
when
my life
is just
a myriad
of lies?

30/07/2019 6

Guilty

I got lost
in his eyes
when he spoke to me
and, for a moment,
I wondered what
it would be like
to hold his hand.

I’m sorry.

30/07/2019 2

No Way Back

To carry
on living
is proving
too hard

With my mind
and my body
so irrevocably
scarred

29/07/2019 0

Creaky Floorboards

Tonight is
the first time
I’ve felt real fear

Being
home alone
without you here

What if someone
breaks in during
the night?

Will I survive
now you’re not
here to fight?

29/07/2019 4

The Jumble Sale

I rummage around inside my head as I search for what to say

But the silence means all you hear is that I don’t want you to stay

I rummage around inside my head as I look down to the floor

But the silence means all you hear is that I don’t love you anymore

What is painfully sad for both of us is that neither of these things are true

But this jumble sale of words in my head prevents me from being honest with you

28/07/2019 18

A Long Forty Eight Hours

If you stare
at the same four walls
for long enough,
a fifth can start
to appear.

Perhaps it’s then
you’re supposed to
realise that
the end is near.

If you stare
at the same four walls
for long enough,
your mind can
start to bend.

Perhaps it’s then
you’re supposed to
know it’s the
beginning of the end.

28/07/2019 9

Life as a Relic

It’s like
I’m now
a museum
exhibit

Everyone
is welcome
to stop
and stare

But there
is no
touching
allowed

27/07/2019 9

Another Day, Another Hangover

I really
should
get out
of bed

And do
something
less boring
instead

27/07/2019 2

Our Waltz

My joy
is in your
weakness.

Your solace
is in my
pain.

Both
forever
destined,

To dance
together
in the rain.

27/07/2019 2

Seven Pints In…

Drunk
Happy

Drunk
Sad

Fridays
are a
bitch

26/07/2019 4

The Tempest

I don’t care for sun
I don’t care for rain
What I need is thunder
So that I can breathe again

26/07/2019 4

The Drudgery

Another
day spent
trudging
through
the
sludge
of life
still
refusing
to budge
forever
trying to
avoid the
judgement
of those
who secretly
hold a
grudge
against me

26/07/2019 2

Pretty Sure

I’ll look again,
if you like,
but I’m pretty
sure there’s none.

Fun, happiness,
joy, laughter,
I’m pretty sure
they’ve gone.

25/07/2019 0

Careless

Waking up to find that,
once again,
I’ve lost my mind
at some point
during the night…

25/07/2019 0

The Back of the Wardrobe

I foolishly
made a
mistake
today

I opened
the box
I’d hidden
away

Where the
memories of
my life
are kept

Along with
all the silent
tears I’ve
wept

25/07/2019 0

No Air

It’s too hot to think
as I sit here on the brink
of yet another nervous breakdown…

25/07/2019 4

Connections

It’s easier to connect with other artists these days than it is to any of my friends.

It’s because we understand how shit things are, I think, when the madness descends.

24/07/2019 2

Not Today

No-one can shield me,
from this pain within.

Nothing can soothe me,
now the rot has set in.

24/07/2019 4

Week 34

You all think
I’ve forgotten,
but you
have no idea.

I could never
be that tasteless,
or so fucking
insincere.

23/07/2019 6

The Trip

I’m done
with
this shithole
today

I’m packing
up and
running
away

Far
from where
the sun
can catch me

And to where
the pleasure
of pain
distracts me

22/07/2019 0

Rose Tinted Glasses

Sometimes a
wander down
memory lane
is no bad
thing

So long
as you can
remember
your way
back

22/07/2019 9

The Knight

You would come charging in on your white horse

Thinking you’re going to save the world, of course

But you’ve got nothing to offer underneath all of that armour

You don’t fool me, you know, you little charmer

21/07/2019 0