Just keep calm
Don’t let them see
They’ll leave you alone
If you just agree
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Just keep calm
Don’t let them see
They’ll leave you alone
If you just agree
I am so tired
I want to go home
To sit in the quiet
All on my own
For I’ve had enough
Of this battle of wills
I just need some silence
To cure my ills
We can
never
let
ourselves
forget
She
said
That
the
worst
is often
yet to
come
For
crying
out
loud
He
said
How
fucking
long
Are
you
going
to
bang
this
drum?
Although the walls
Are closing in
I’ve no desire
To leave
I don’t understand
Why you find that
So fucking hard
To believe
Why should I bother
Going to bed
When there's nothing
To wake up for
Why should I bother
Waking up
When I enjoy sleeping
So much more
If only
I could
wrap my
thoughts
As
neatly
as my
presents
But
paper,
string and
glitter
bows
Don't
provide
an adequate
defence
Never more than when
I’m in a room full of people
Do I feel most alone
All I want to do is beat
A slow, silent, steady retreat
And find my sanctuary at home
The beast has crept back in again
She’s beaten down my door
And there was me
Thinking foolishly
I wouldn’t need pills anymore
Lying
here
in
this
strange
bed
Wondering
what
was
going on
inside
my head
Trying
to
ignore
this
feeling
of dread
Wishing
I had
chosen
to stay
at home
instead
As my life passes me by
I lose the will to even try
So I raise my hands to the sky
And scream why me, you arsehole, why?
With no idea what this shit means
I’ve fallen apart at the seams
Hidden behind these opaque screens
I only exist now in my dreams
I really am sorry
I cannot take your weight
For my arms are too broken
From carrying my own
Shout
as much
as you
want
Loudly
bang
your
drum
For I
won’t be
joining
in
I’m
far too
fucking
numb
I’m
pretty
good
at it
nowHiding
all
my
flawsThank
God
you
don’t
seeThe
real
meThe
one
that’s
such a
fraud
Some
days
I am
acutely
awareThat
you
have
much
more
fun
than
meI
suppose
it’s
not
that
hard
to
believeGiven
my
penchant
for
misery
And
just
get
on
with
itIt’s
not
like
everyone
elseIsn’t
also
wading
through
shit
I can
feel it
coming
onThat
darkness,
my old
friendI’ve not
got out
of bed
in daysAnd
don’t
know if
I will
again
So
it’s
been
a yearOf
your
latest
treatmentYet
I still
don’t
feelAny
fucking
different
Finally
dropping
into
bedKnowing
I couldn’t
have done
any moreThere’s
no point
setting
an alarmAs
there’s
nothing
to wake
up for
Wandered
around
again
todayWith
an all
consuming
sighNot
knowing
how to
liveYet
too
afraid
to die
Well
far
be it
for
little
old me
To
distract
you
from
your
reverie
But
I really
need
to make
you see
Before
I’ve
drowned
in my
misery