A Temporary Salve

It all

Felt better

For a while

You made

Me laugh

You made

Me smile

But now

It’s over

And

You’re gone

So again,

I’m left

All alone

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On A Limb

You have

To ask him

She said

Otherwise,

You’ll never know

But I think

I’d just die

She said

When he says

Inevitably, no

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You Never Listen Anyway

I’m starting to think

It’s time

For someone else

To help you instead

You’re far too reliant

And much too incompliant

For me

To sort out your head

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Not Even In Death

Whenever I think

It might be time

To call

And apologise first

I remember how

You watched me struggle

And decided

To make it worse

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Too Big A Jump

Why don’t you just start small

He said

Take baby step, or two

Because to act like I’m over him

She said

Couldn’t be further from the truth

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One Step At A Time

I don’t think I can do it

She said

I’m just too fucking scared

It’s the only way I can see

He said

For your heart to be repaired

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The Blind Date

Only halfway

Through your story

And you’re already

Beginning to bore me

Sometime later

When your story ends

I know for sure

We’ll just be friends

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Entering The Stream

A simple girl

With simple needs

Willing to wander

Through the weeds

Searching for something

True to find

While leaving all

Her doubts behind

5

Over The Hill

You think

A diet,

Hair dye,

And dentistry

Will help you

Find a mate

But, my dear,

Alas, I fear,

You’ve left it

Far too late

4

Mouthy

You think

You’re so clever

You think

You know it all

Well let’s see

How smart you are

With your back

Against the wall

2

Late To The Party

If only you

Would ask me now

Instead

Of way back when

Because I’d say yes

And strongly suggest

That we stay anything

But friends

2

Self-Stimulation

I’m not here

For your pleasure

I don’t exist

To be your toy

As from now,

Myself,

I have reclaimed

For me alone

To enjoy

9

You Were Warned

I don’t know who

You think you are

Walking around

All giddy

And bright

It’s as if you think

A cheeky wink

Will make it

All alright

Well I’m here to say

It’s not ok

And for your sins

You must pay

So sometime soon

This recent boon

Will end much

To your dismay

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Butterflies

I can’t wait

To see you next

And hear you

Say my name

To feel

Your touch

To say

Too much

And to fall in love

Again

4

See You Again Soon

Thank you

For being

Nice to me

Thank you

For being

So kind

I’ll keep

What you said

Inside

My head

And leave

All the shit

Behind

6

Pure Gallus

You may think

Your cheeky wink

Was both charming

And flirtatious

Yet your inane smile

And attempt to beguile

Tested nothing

But my patience

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Did You Miss Me?

It’s hard

To know

What to say

Let alone

What to post

In fact

Never before

Have I been 

So sure

About giving

Up the ghost

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Emergency Exits

Thinking back

To that night

A split decision

And your plane

Took flight

If I’d known then

What I do now

I’d have grabbed

Your hand

And never

Let go

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Netflix and (Actually) Chill

Please don’t think

That I’m not keen

Being intentionally rude

Or deliberately mean

I’m just not in the mood

To give you head

And I’d rather we watch

This box set instead

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“Coping By Not Having To Cope”

When he died

And you’d nothing left

How did you deal

With the emptiness?

I filled it up

With pills and gin

In the vainest of hopes

I could forget him

And did you find

That it worked

They helped wash away

The pain and hurt

Some days did feel

Like less of a chore

But, in the end, the grief

Got too big to ignore

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Baby Steps

Why don’t

We leave now

He said

Let’s get a bus,

Taxi or walk

We won’t

Be having sex

She said

But I’d love it

If we could talk

2

And I’d Know

You think yourself

Some fucking big shot

But really,

Is that all you’ve got?

‘Cause if what you’re giving

Is truly your best

Then you’re no bigger

Than all the rest

4

Back At The Fintry Inn

I’m not that girl

You used to know

I killed her off

Many moons ago

Now close your mouth

And dry your eyes

As life isn’t all beer

And scampi fries

6

Moving

I remember the day

We got the keys

Thinking the rest

Would be a breeze

But now I sit and rot

All alone

In what should have been

Our forever home

6

A Knife’s Edge

It rears it’s head

This time of year

The feeling of wishing

That I wasn’t here

I’ll try to push through

As best as I can

But I’d be lying to say

It wasn’t still a plan

9

Wreckage

As the thunder claps

And the heavens open

I search through the scraps

Of what you have broken

0

That’s Life

Wearing away

My heart and soul

Destroying me was

Your only goal

So with your daggers

You proceeded

Until I was broken

And you’d succeeded

2

I Didn’t Believe You Anyway

Remember

When you told me

I’d never get hurt again

That it didn’t matter

How my heart was shattered

As there wouldn’t be

Any more pain

Well, you lied

This is worse

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It Still Hurts

I know

That you’re

In love

With her

But please spare

A thought

For me

I know we

Were bereft

And that’s why

You left

But you were once

Everything

To me

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The Gradual Loss

It seems

The inevitable

Has happened

And I have finally

Gone mad

As I’m starting

To forget

The good things

Instead

Of just the bad

12

Those Left Behind

I’m relieved to read

Your memories

Have now started

To blend

As heaven knows

With enough guilt

I already

Must contend

2

The Thief Of Joy

I wonder

Where

You are

Tonight

And if

You ever

Think of me

Or do you

Just

Lay there

Her hands in

Your hair

As you sigh

Contentedly

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Just A Glimpse

When I saw him

Again today

All of that pain

Was washed away

Until I realised

It wasn’t him

And my heart, once more,

Cracked

From within

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