Opening Up

I just don’t think I can

She said

Because of what happened

To me

We don’t have to do anything

He said

Other than sit here

And breathe

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Getting Older

Isn’t this the part

He said

Where we sing, dance,

And make merry?

I’m not really sure

She said

That fun isn’t just

A red herring

0

Back To Work Again

I’ve already reverted

Back to type

The switch

Has now

Been flicked

Normal business

Is, once more,

Asserted

With all

The boxes

Ticked

0

Backstabbed

I thought

That out

Of everyone

You at least

Would have

My back

And yet

It seems

When you get

The means

You go

All-out attack

4

Left On Read

I missed you

So much today

It really

Fucking hurt

I wish

I could call

To say sorry

For it all

And that it would actually

Fucking work

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Staying Put

Life seems so simple here

I wish that I could stay

Breathe fresh air

Without a care

As my anxiety floats away

And yet, I know,

To reality

I must very soon return

Leaving behind

My peace of mind

In exchange

For misery and concern

0

An Unfamiliar Shell

It doesn’t look

Like my body

It doesn’t feel

Like my skin

Beauty may come

From somewhere

But it’s certainly not

From within

4

Never In A Million Years

I know

You think

I’m better

She said

That I’ve spent

All these years

Healing

But just because

I don’t

Say his name

She said

Doesn’t mean

I’ve forgotten

A thing

0

Hearing Things

I spoke

To you

This morning

And I swear

I heard you

Respond

But then

It hit me

There’s no way

It could be

When you’ve

Been gone

So long

Xxx

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Easy Really

Who knew

That after waiting

For all

This fucking time

All it

Would take

Was just one embrace

For happiness

To be mine

2

Still Standing

I haven’t

Really done much

In my forty six years

On Earth

There’s nothing of note

To really show off

That has any value

Or worth

But one thing

I am proud of

If you can excuse

My indulgence

Is I’ve survived the days

When, deep in a haze,

I really thought

I fucking wouldn’t

8

Canto 38

You may say

It’s better

To have loved

And lost

Than never to

Have loved

At all

But if what happened 

To me

Happened

To you

You wouldn’t have

The fucking gall

2

Easy Meat

My brain

Will not stop circling

Like a vulture

Overhead

I can feel it

Fucking worsening

So I may as well

Just play dead

0

Rewinding The Film

I don’t know

If I lost you

Or if

You were never

Really mine

Either way

You’re gone

So I’ll keep

Moving on

And maybe 

Figure it out

In time

0

The Helpline Shift

If only

I could help you

I’d be there

In a minute

But since he’s gone

My reserves are done

And my heart

Is no longer in it

0

With The Fishes

Grief

Is like

An ocean

All vast,

And dark,

And deep

It ebbs

And flows

In waves

Through

Dark nights

And days

Never truly

Going

To sleep

4

Just For Fun

Why don’t we

Just hit rewind

Go back to another

Place and time

Relive the day

That we first met

And when we didn’t

Hate each other yet

0

The Parish Notice

Whatever

You’re running

Away from

There is no

Salvation

Here

All you will find

Is what you left

Behind

Still comes through

Loud

And clear

0

A More Accurate Verse

What happened to

“I’ll make you happy baby,

Just wait and see”

It’s been more like

“Give me an inch baby,

And I’ll take fucking three”

2

The Sum Of All Parts

I know

That I was lucky

To get

The prettiest

Of heads

But I would’ve

Preferred

To have been

A nerd

And been born

With brains

Instead

9

Bitter Clarity

Searching

For the answers

Trying to make it

All make sense

But there’s no peace

Of mind

When all you

Can find

Is the lack

Of recompense

5

Don’t Come Crying To Me

I’m sorry

To have to say it

But I don’t think

About you

Anymore

And if that sounds

Unkind

I can, once again,

Outline

How it was you

Who closed

That door

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