At
first
light
in the
morning
Just
as a
new
day is
dawning
The
birds
issue
their
final
warning
And
the
tears
from
my eyes
start
pouring
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
At
first
light
in the
morning
Just
as a
new
day is
dawning
The
birds
issue
their
final
warning
And
the
tears
from
my eyes
start
pouring
Hearing
how
sad
you
would
be
Doesn’t
make
me
change
my
mind
All
it
does
is
remind
me
to
choose
A
method
that
is
kind
The
packet
cracks
As
the
tablet
snaps
And I
glug it
down
with
water
My
whole
body
contracts
As
I face
the
facts
That
I am my
mother’s
daughter
How you
used to
make me
laugh
Is
etched
on my
soul
like a
lithograph
That
comes
alive
only
in my
dreams
But
leaves me
falling
apart
at the
seams
Upon
waking
Xxx
You
don’t
have
to be
here
For
me to
know
you
care
You
don’t
have
to be
near
For
me to
know
you’re
there
Xxx
Such
a broken
heartened
man
In a
broken
hearted
land
If
only
I could
see you
I
would
squeeze
your
hand
And
never
let it
go
What an
embarrassing
position
it is
In
which
we have
been put
To
live
our
lives
For
this
fucking
long
Without
a haircut
You
must
never
leave
me
She
said
For
I
would
fall
apart
I’ll
stay
with
you
forever
He
said
I’d
never
break
your
heart
Dance,
you
fools,
dance
away
from
me
I’ve
seen
all
the
romance
I need
to
see
I
know
only
too
well
how
this
shit
ends
Give
it a
year
and
you
won’t
even be
friends
There’s
nothing
more
disheartening
That
brings
such
misery
and
strife
To
find
I’m
much
more
captivating
On
the
page
Than
in
real
life
I
listen
to all
the words
you say
And my
pain
slowly
ebbs
away
Give it to me hard
Give it to me rough
I honestly won’t mind
If you act a little tough
Squeeze me a little too tightly
Pinch me a little too hard
I just want to feel something
That doesn’t leave me scarred
Whoever
told
me to
forgive
you was
wrong
There’s
no way
we can
ever
get
along
For
you
are
just a
loathsome
swine
Who’s
not worth
another
second
of my
time
Full
of
holes
As
it
rocks
Against
the
shoals
Always
left
yearning
For
something
more
Now
it’s
all
over
You’ll
hear
me
roar
You
win
I
lose
Ain’t
that
The
fucking
truth
Are
we
here
now
She
said
Away
from
all
that
shit?
I’m
not
sure
He
said
Let’s
make
a run
for it
Give
me a
thumbs
up
And
I’ll
give
you
two
All
whilst
silently
Whispering
fuck
you
So
this
is
it
Lying
in bed
all day
again
Wine
and
cigarettes
my only
friend
I’m so
bored
of this
shit
I
could
make
myself
sick
I
really
am
nothing
But a
nauseating
prick
Bad thoughts creep
As I’m without sleep
For yet another night
Fears won’t keep
Whilst I lie and weep
Losing the will to fight
They
say
time
fliesWhen
you’re
having
funIt’s a
shame
our
timeHas
not
yet
begun