Month: Jan 2023

Calculating

If I were to take

One as prescribed

No doubt I’d feel

The same inside

If I were to take

Two or three

I could cope

Quite easily

If I were to take

Four or five

I’d most likely still

Make it out alive

If I were to take

Six or seven

I’d start knocking on

The door of heaven

If I were to take

Eight or nine

I’d be pretty close

To the finish line

But if I were

To take ten

I’d make sure you never

Saw me again

Dosage Instructions

Please
give me
another
pill to
swallow

For I
don’t
want to
wake up
tomorrow

(Originally Posted 31.01.2020)

4

Sincerity

If we speak to them

With smiles on our faces

There’s no chance we’ll get back

Into their good graces

We need to show them

Our regrets are huge

Even if that’s only

Half of the truth

Remorse

As we
return
to face
the music

Remember,
this is
no time
for hubris

(Originally Posted 31.01.2020)

2

No Oil Painting

You need to get out more

She said

Get yourself back on the market

There’s no point in either

She said

As I doubt I’d be anyone’s target

Overlooked

What do you think

It would it take

For you

To notice me

Should I wear

A skimpy dress

Paint my lips

So readily?

Well all I have

Is my words

So I guess

That counts me out

As there’s nothing at all

About them

That suggests

I’d like to hangout

(Originally Posted 30.01.2021)

2

Happy As Larry

I envy those people

Who are not deep thinkers

Who never peek out

From behind their blinkers

They all must live

Such carefree lives

Whilst I toil away

Hiding the knives

Stood At The Urinal

Do you
ever
think
there’s
more to
life
than
this?

Fuck
knows
mate,
to be
honest,
I only
came in
for a piss

(Originally Posted 30.01.2020)

11

The Sabattical Leave Request

Most days I do

Enjoy my work

And I welcome

The distraction

But as time goes by

It’s getting harder to try

And fake a positive reaction

(Anti) Social Work

I
think
I would
be

So
much
more
forgiving

If
I didn’t
have

To
work
for a
living

(Originally Posted 30.01.2020)

11

Whispers

Don’t try to sweet talk me

She said

I’ve met your type before

Just come a little closer

He said

And we’ll see who’s the bore

Once Bitten

I’ve dreamt of you before

She said

And I didn’t fall for you then

Well I’m here in real life now

He said

So let me try again

(Originally Posted 29.01.2021)

5

The Price

If only I’d have listened

To people back in the day

Everyone who told me

This would end in disarray

Then I wouldn’t ever have known

Such misery and dismay

But I’d never have felt love either

And for that I was willing to pay

Mum Knows Best

Why
didn’t
you
follow
your
dreams?

She
said

Using
your
good
humour
and wit

Now
you’ve
got no
choice

She
said

But
to put
up with
his
bullshit

(Originally Posted 29.01.2020)

4

Blowing My Cover

You’ve thought about a book

He said

For quite a number of years

You’ve got to find a way

He said

To let go of your fears

I feel more confident now

She said

That it is something I could do

But really what still bothers me

She said

Is which name I should use

Self Help

Why
do you
write
these
poems

He
said

If
you’re
not
going
to show
everyone?

Because
these
words
are
my life

She
said

They
are
not
for
just
anyone

(Originally Posted 29.01.2020)

6

Regardless

I don’t know why

I was spared that day

And he was taken

Instead

But my life

Is hell without him

So I’d still

Be better off dead

Hindsight

If I
could
go back
to that
night

Knowing
what
I now
know

I would
hold you
in my
arms so
tight

And
never
let
you
go

Xxx

(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)

2

Awkwardness

We don’t have to do it all

He said

We can meet up another day

I need to do it now

She said

Just to get it out of the way

The Trial

You don’t
have to
prove
anything

He said

Least
of all
to me

But I
need to
prove it
to myself

She said

Otherwise
I’ll never
be free

(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)

4

My Life’s Work

At least you

Can look away

When the misery

Ensues

But these aren’t just

Words to me

They are actually

My issues

Well, You Asked…

Although
I find
your
writing
talent
genuinely
quite
considerable

Reading
your
words
over
again
really
does just
make me
miserable

(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)

2

Random #278

“People say they love you, but what they mean is they love how loving you makes them feel about themselves”

– Eli

10

Care Planning

Suffice it to say

If I had my way

There’d be no fucking risk assessment

I don’t need protecting

Despite your objecting

As in life I have no investment

999

God
knows
why I
didn’t
wake up
dead

Or why
I didn’t
think
to plan
this far
ahead

(Originally Posted 27.01.2020)

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Self Soothing

As much as I love

That you read my words

And you praise them

Like you do

You have to know

As I deliver each blow

That I write more for me

Than you

Hecklers

Has
anyone
ever
told
you to
stop

He
said

With
these
bullshit
rhymes
you
spew

Oh
many,
many
times

She
said

And
I told
them
to piss
off
too

(Originally Posted 27.01.2021)

8

We’ve Come Too Far To Go Back Now

Now you come

Begging for love

Cap in outstretched hand

But I know better

And I will never

Erase my line in the sand

Incomprehensible

It’s all
just so
fucking
bizarre

How the
tables
have
turned

With
things
now as
they are

And
what we
both have
learned

(Originally Posted 26.02.2020)

6

En Garde

I don’t often achieve perfection

But I think this is pretty much it

A healthy dose

Of what I feel the most

With just a little rapier-like wit

The Queen Bee

Oh, I’ll point many a finger

In order to right these wrongs

But for her I’ll reserve

The most passion and verve

And the sharpest of razor like tongues

(Originally Posted 26.01.2021)

7

Undeserved

I did everything

To please you

All I could

To win you round

Including

It seems

Ruining

My dreams

And running myself

Into the ground

Preferable

I’d
rather
sit

And
tear
out my
hair

Than
waste
another
minute

Hoping
you’d
care

(Originally Posted 26.01.2020)

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Riposte

And when you’ve had

Your own itch scratched

I’ll be left there alone

Lying in the wet patch

Lies Men Tell

Just
close
your
eyes
and
count
to ten

I’ll
take
you to
heaven
and
back
again

(Originally Posted 25.01.2020)

2

Devastating

Washing your hands

Checking the locks

Labelling your cans

Sorting your socks

You call them all

Your ‘OCD’

But you’ve got no idea

What it really means

All The 8’s

And so it begins

The incessant counting

The overthinking

The fear mounting

That impending doom

Will certainly strike

If I do not get

This pattern right

(Originally Posted 25.01.2021)

6

The Flow

Most days the process is simple

Words flow as easy as the pain

But I feel so numb at times

That when it comes to rhymes

I doubt they will ever flow again

The Writer’s Anguish

I don’t
think
I have
anything
to say

Today

Perhaps
there
will be
more
sorrow

Tomorrow

So
I will
wait to
pick up
my pen

Then

For
I fear
I wouldn’t
even
know how

Now

(Originally Posted 25.01.2020)

2

Considered

I know when I

Use the word ‘cunt’

To some people it’s

An awful affront

So I’d never use it

As a simple diss

Instead I reserve it

For those who it fits

Leopards

Just
because
now

You
taunt
me from
afar

You’re
still
a cunt

And you
know
you are

(Originally Posted 24.01.2020)

8

On My Knees

I know you’re angry with me

I know I made a mistake

I know you’ll struggle to forgive me

But don’t throw this away

Please

The Replacement

I only ever wanted you

But then he arrived instead

Now there’s no chance

In any circumstance

Of you sleeping in my bed

(Originally Posted 24.01.2021)

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Uproar

So much changes

When your partner dies

Infinitely more

Than you would ever realise

Soul Bar(e)ing

I mourn
the loss
of us

Even more
than the
loss of
you

(Originally Posted 23.01.2020)

0

The Grief Counsellor

I know you don’t want to hear it

But you can’t run before you can walk

There is no way to beat it

So it’s best to just sit down and talk

Cheats Never Prosper

If there is one thing

I have learned

It’s that you cannot skip

The stages

Even if that means

Moving forward

Feels like it’s taking

Fucking ages

If you jump

Too far forward

You’ll only fall

Further back

And all you’re doing

Is storing your pain

For further

Down the track

(Originally Posted 23.01.2021)

0

Mind Games

It’s only when

The meds kick in

That you realise

The truth

The only person

On that ward

Being fooled

Was you

Psych Ward 101

Just keep calm

Don’t let them see

They’ll leave you alone

If you just agree

(Originally Posted 22.01.2021)

2

Rarer

I can get through

Most days now

Without crying

Over you

But sometimes it hits

Like a ton of bricks

And there is nothing

I can do

Recurring

The tears I cried

When you died

Will never fully dry

For with each day

Dawns a new array

Of pain I can’t deny

Xxx

(Originally Posted 22.01.2021)

4

Save Me

Those oceans feel

A little calmer now

As those days

Have passed me by

So from here

I’ll just tread water

Hoping for help

Before I die

The Drowning Girl

Tears
run into
oceans

Hours
bleed into
days

As I go
through
the motions

Trapped
between
the waves

(Originally Posted 21.01.2021)

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The Widow’s Curse

It’s hard at times

For me to explain

As I want to protect you

From feeling my pain

And it’s never your fault

When I’m triggered like this

But when you hold my hand

It reminds me of his

‘Hand In Glove’

Some days
your hand
fits
perfectly
in mine

Our love
flows freely
and
sparkles
like wine

Some days
I can’t
bear
to hold
your hand

For
reasons
you
couldn’t
understand

(Originally Posted 21.01.2020)

2

A Daily Challenge

It’s hard to consider

Giving much more

When your mind is weak

And your heart is sore

Cardiac Arrest

My heart
has been
aching
all day

Nothing
has made
the pain
go away

Perhaps
this will
finally be
the end

And I’ll
no longer
have to
pretend

(Originally Posted 21.01.2020)

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