So much the same
Between me and you
But it’s okay
I’ve buried it too
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
So much the same
Between me and you
But it’s okay
I’ve buried it too
I’ll go out with you
Again tonight
But don’t expect
I’ll be too much fun
I mean, I’ll be okay
But will slip away
When my social battery
Is done
There was a time
I’d humour you
But that has long
Since passed
It’s not like I ever
Wanted to know
That’s why I
Never asked
This isn’t the most painful
She said
Or the worst hardship
I’ve endured
My armour’s doing fine
She said
Though I’m not too sure
About yours
Where will it end
She said
When will it all
Just stop
I’ve got no fucking idea
He said
But I know we’re both
For the chop
I thought that you
Were telling the truth
When you said
You were here to help
Yet despite my decline
I realised in time
You were only ever out
For yourself
If I could learn
To love myself
I know how happy
I could be
But the effort required
Would be superhuman
And I don’t have that much
In me
I’ll get up to eat
Some food today
As opposed to staying
In bed
Maybe then I’ll find
Ways to busy my mind
Instead of laying there
Like I’m dead
There was once a time
When I could go home
Shower
And wash myself clean
But now there’s no let up
No matter how hard I scrub
From the pain
My body has seen
It felt good
To have a clear out
To get rid
Of all that junk
And maybe now I’m nearer
To the path being clearer
I’ll find my way
Out of this funk
Why even try
In the end
Why bother
To believe
There’s just
Disappointment
And a lack
Of enjoyment
No matter what
We try to achieve
You should just relax
They say
And take it
All in your stride
But those people
Have no idea
How anxiety
Eats your insides
I look back now
On that day and laugh
As I picture me cutting
Myself in half
Trying to please
You and your friends
Desperate, somehow
To make amends
But now I know
It wasn’t down to me
And I’ve got myself better
Mentally
So I think of that time
With a grin
Knowing it’s your turn to feel
That beast within
Please stop talking
Or I’m out the door
I cannot listen
To you any more
It’s brilliant that you came
She said
Now just relax
And enjoy yourself
Oh, I’ll certainly try
She said
Knowing she’d be out of there
By twelve
The problem
With hiding
Is finding
Myself
If I tell you
That I’m through
Then you don’t need to protect me
But if I say
That I’m ok
Then you really do need to worry
After all
Is said and done
I’m still devastated
That you’re gone
Xxx
Anyone else
Sick of this shit
Just miserable and irked?
I don’t know about you
But feeling like I do
I’d rather be back at work
I really tried
Hard today
But nothing ever
Goes my way
Even when I pretend
I’m okay
Things fall to shit
Anyway
It’s never as bad
As you think it’ll be
All sitting around
The Christmas tree
As long as you have
A beer, or two
To dull the pain
And see you through
What would you like
For Christmas he asked
His smile
A million miles wide
I just need the strength
To carry on
She wholeheartedly replied
How did it come to be
He said
That you no longer care
Because I chose to live carefree
She said
And turned my back on despair
Hold on to your baubles
He said
Santa’s coming to town!
Well, let’s hope he fucking dawdles
She said
Because all I can do is frown
As another day fills
Me with dread
Intrusive thoughts
Inside my head
I wish that I
Could stay in bed
And sleep
For a thousand years instead
With my head left reeling
I can’t help but feeling
It’s not worth it,
Anymore
It strikes me as you speak
She said
Just how unhappy you are
And I haven’t even been
He said
That forthcoming so far
Join me
He said
By the fire
It’s cold outside
And the rain, dire
Thank you
She said
But I’d better not
As you wouldn’t want
What I have got
I’ll always be like this
She said
Of that I have no doubt
Because there isn’t enough goodness
She said
To drive the badness out
I realise I fucked up
He said
When I wasn’t there for you
But I promise I’ll be here now
He said
And will help to see you through
All that shit is pointless
She said
We can’t go back in time
Just prioritise your own health
She said
And I’ll take care of mine
Things can only get better
He said
If you keep up this attitude
It’ll be gone within the day
She said
Along with my good mood
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