It may very well
Be spooky season
But for evil thoughts
I don’t need a reason
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
It may very well
Be spooky season
But for evil thoughts
I don’t need a reason
Waving goodbye
To my childhood dreams
As I now know nothing
Is what it seems
It feels like
The good times
Have passed me by
Due to booze,
Boredom,
And some pretty
Bad guys
I’m not that girl
You used to know
I killed her off
Many moons ago
Now close your mouth
And dry your eyes
As life isn’t all beer
And scampi fries
Through
The stink
Of stale beer
And smoke
I close
My eyes
And try not
To choke
It’s all too easy
To fall in love
With the brilliance
Of your music
Yet for such a charming,
Handsome man
It seems you were
A bit of a prick
I’m relieved to read
Your memories
Have now started
To blend
As heaven knows
With enough guilt
I already
Must contend
I know
I only
Just got here
But now
I can’t wait
To leave
I know
It’s been
About a year
But from you
I still need
A reprieve
I hear you
Snoring
Through the wall
And wonder if
I’ll ever sleep
At all
Such an intriguing web
Of tales you spin
All to hide
From what lurks within
Scream
And shout
All you like
But it
Won’t change
A thing
Because if
This bluster
Is all you
Can muster
Then there’s
No chance
You
Will win
Thank you
So much
For your
Concern
But I
Am doing
Just fine
I don’t feel
I need to
Be healed
So your offer
I must decline
What is life
He said
Without a little risk?
There’s testing the limit
She said
And then taking the piss
Win or lose
You’ll never prove
You’re a better man
Than him
Now I know
Why you left
Time
And time again
It wasn’t because
I wasn’t enough
You just couldn’t
Stand the pain
Yes
We should all
Go out
And vote
But really,
What’s the point?
When those in power
The depths
Do scour
And criminals
Forever appoint
Yet another
Young life
Gone too soon
More candles lit
And flowers
Now strewn
Lest we forget
What an impact
It has
When the world
Watches on
But ignores red flags
Never again
Will I give you
The benefit
Of the doubt
Not now your lies
Have been uncovered
And the truth
Is finally out
Is there another way
She asked
To cure my ills?
I’d have no problem
Taking the pills
If there was something
He said
To advise, I would
But no pill out there
Would do you any good
What are you saying
She asked
I’m devoid of hope?
All that’s left
Is to sit around and mope?
What I mean
He said
Is given your pain
The only way forward
Is to rewire your brain
I remember precisely
Where I was
Along with the time
And date
When I knew
To just stop trying
And resign myself
To fate
If the sun
And the moon
Cannot agree
Then fuck knows why
You’d ever ask me
Don’t
Ask me
Because
I don’t care
I’ve got better things
To do
Than my thoughts
To share
Twinkle Twinkle
Little star
How utterly insignificant
Us fuckwits really are
Thank fuck
She said
I’m getting away
I couldn’t take it
Another day
I’m so happy
He said
You’re visiting me
As I’ll help you forget,
Easily
Are you sure
You had
“The time
Of your life”
Because,
Believe me,
Your face
Said otherwise
Waking up
This morning
To his
Promises
Of change
Yet unable
To shake
The feeling
That he’ll
Fuck it up
Again
Stay where
You are
And hold
Them tight
For there
Be creatures
That stalk
The night
The decision
Was harder
When I thought
People cared
Now I know
They’re indifferent
I’m not
Even scared
My bags are packed
I’m ready to go
Now all I need
Is for you to show
Me where I can get
One for the road
As we have found
Where your body has lain
We hope it heals
Your family’s pain
And though they’ll struggle
To see past the rain
Now you can be
Together again
You keep saying
That it’s sorted
And everything’s
Under control
Yet all I can see
Is anxiety
As you fall deeper
Down the hole
Do as I say
Not as I do
Words I really
Should have tattooed
Have you done this before
He said
As you’re really rather good
Some things wouldn’t be right to share
She said
Even if I could
The older I get
She said
I’ve realised
That the timing
Will never be right
You’ve just got to go for it
She said
And to not
Be so uptight
I hear you shout
Through the wall
And realise you don’t
Love her at all
Then I see you fight
From my bed
And know you won’t stop
Until she’s dead
If I was to meet my father
When he was a younger man
I would ask him some questions
To help me to understand
Like did he ever really love her
That’s what I’d like to know
Why did he defy his parents
If it was all just for show?
Why when he had his own kids
Did he revert back to what he knew
Why treat us the way he had been
What was he trying to do?
But most of all I’d tell him
Of the mistakes he was going to make
And convince him to do things differently
For our relationships sake
As she wound her way
To the dancefloor
With a drink held tight
In each hand
I knew there and then
That we’d be friends
In ways no-one else
Would understand
You’d think I’d know
This route by now
As I’ve travelled it
So many times
Yet I always see
Something new to me
As I traverse
These railway lines
I felt sorry for him
The boy on the train
Said he’d ran away
From school again
Told me his parents
Just didn’t care
There was nothing,
But misery,
For him there
We want to thank you
For all you do
When you stand up
For what is right
When we hear you speak
And give your critique
We can feel
Our passion ignite
If only you
Were here to ask
To make up for the brains
I sorely lack
Then I’d still be here
Your avid learner
Taking it all in
Without a murmur
I can’t take it
She said
It doesn’t feel right
I’m really not proud
Of what I did
That night
You’ve no need to feel bad
He said
Or have any regrets
Just enjoy your freedom
As you’ve paid off
Your debts
If it’s
So fucking easy
Then go out
And get your own
You be all bright
And breezy
And see what kindness
You’re shown
You cannot hide it
Or simply deny it
Because even if you try it
I’ll most certainly find it
Watching the greatest
Of all time
A sporting legend
In their prime
And although, to madness,
They are inclined
To witness their genius
Is still sublime
At least I came
And I tried
“Let’s do this again”
She totally lied
It may be the season
To be jolly
But for this heathen
There is no such folly
What I’ve got for you depends
He said
On if you’ve been bad or good
I couldn’t give a fuck
She said
And haven’t since childhood
Do you know what I have learned
She said
In all my time here on this earth
Forget about the bridges you’ve burned
She said
And value your own self worth
What a ridiculous way
To spend a day
Let alone
A lifetime
It’s not that I don’t trust
The fortuitous hands of fate
But I would just prefer it
If I didn’t have to wait
With my head left reeling
I can’t help but feeling
It’s not worth it,
Anymore
Now it’s back
To the city
Surrounded
By smog
And so this
Little ditty
Ends
Our travelogue
That’s really amazing news
She said
I’m so very pleased for you
Now let’s just leave it there
She said
As you wouldn’t want the truth
We must catch up sometime
She said
I miss spending time with you
If that was all I had at home
She said
Then I would miss me too
Something of a hero
In your teens
The subject of many
Young girls dreams
Yet here you are now
Bloated and aging
With that yellowing skin
And cholesterol raging
So it’s hard to see you
As you once were
When that rakish charm
Caused quite the stir
Yet it’s not really you
That I feel sorry for
It’s all those young girls
Who don’t dream anymore
The world is now
In disrepair
Our humanity
In tatters
Yet all you can say
Is “how dare they”
Like being right
Is all that matters
I really am
Very sorry
I did not mean
To offend
But to look
Interested
In what you
Had suggested
I couldn’t be bothered
To pretend
I commend
Your curiosity
I absolutely do
The fact
That I’m not
Remotely arsed
Says far more
About me
Than you
They say you
Should never
Go home again
As you’ll only
Be disappointed
But it’s being back
On the road again
That makes me feel
Disjointed
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