“Oh, how I’ve missed this”
She said
Running her hands
Through his hair
That he wasn’t the first
Of the day for her
Was neither here
Nor there
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
“Oh, how I’ve missed this”
She said
Running her hands
Through his hair
That he wasn’t the first
Of the day for her
Was neither here
Nor there
I gave you every
Piece of me
Acted like
A woman posessed
And yet
You squandered
Everything
Until there
Was nothing left
Sometimes I wonder
If you were asked
What it is
You’d say
About me
Would you describe
All that time
We spent
Together
As happy?
You always beg me
Not to go
Whenever
I try to leave
But if I stay
You’re quiet anyway
Then I’m the one
Feeling peeved
And so
It’s farewell
On the longest
Night ever
For we must
Now part ways
At this break
In the weather
And although
Seeing you
Truly was
A pleasure
I know not
To repeat
Such a foolish
Endeavour
It doesn’t matter
Who was right
Or who
Was fucking wrong
We both did
The worst
And equally
Got hurt
By stringing
Each other along
You could try
A little harder
He said
And not be afraid
To commit
Why would I
Even bother
She said
When your heart’s
Not even in it
If you get
A chance
Of happiness
You should grab it
With both hands
Take it from one
Whose time
Has gone
And so completely
Understands
This should’ve been
About convenience
And not a true
Affair of the heart
But when you tell me lies
To my total surprise
It completely
Tears me apart
As I sit here
Nursing a beer
Facing up
To the cold light of day
It is crystal clear
To me now, dear
You never loved me
Anyway
You can pull
Out all the stops
Call on every ploy
And device
But whatever the spiel
They will never feel
Exactly the same way,
Twice
Now you’ve upped
And left me
Breaking my heart
Again
I wish you nothing
But cruelty,
Emotional torture
And pain
I actually believed it
When you said
“I love you”
But little
Did I realise
I was at the back
Of the queue
It’s not me you want
It’s her, over there
With the sparkly eyes
And the perfect hair
But I’ll play along
And my feelings, ignore
After all I’ve done it
Plenty times before
I don’t know
If all that’s true
But it’s nice to hear
Your point of view
It’s nice to see
How you are with me
Is in no way chauvinistic
But as for your chance
When it comes to romance
I wouldn’t be too optimistic
If only times
Were different
Then our lives
Could truly flourish
But as it is
This life is shit
With love like ours
Not encouraged
I must not
Have learned
From my last mistake
As I gave him
My heart
On a plate
Come back
Tomorrow
And try again
For I need
A lover
Not just a friend
It’s only now
On this
Winters night
That I wish
You were here
By my side
If what you say
Proves to be true
Then I will give
Myself to you
But if what you say
Proves to be false
Then I’ll rip you apart
Without remorse
You must have
Thought me stupid
Standing there,
Aghast
It’s just
I’d never thought
Of a ménage
Let alone à trois
It wasn’t
That I
Am frigid
Or disinterested
In scoring
But your attempts
To flirt
Were insipid
And your chat,
Pretty boring
I know you think
Your little ditty
Conveys sincerity
And depth
But your face
Is far too
To have
The desired effect
Of all
The things
I've known
To be true
I'd say one
Is the spark
Between me
And you
Not here
She said
Let’s do this
In private
We can’t count,
After all,
On the dead
Staying quiet
Like eager young lovers
We were star-crossed
In paradise, it seemed
But at what cost?
As I lie here
Watching
Him snore
I can’t help
But feel
I’ve been here
Before
I can see
You look
At my beer
So put down
Your book
And get
Over here
Eyes wide
Head turned
Tongue sharp
Fingers burnt
I wanted
Your hands
To feel
Like his
To have one
More night
Of unbridled
Bliss
But as soon
As we touched
Let alone
Kissed
I knew
From now on
It would feel
Like this
There’s no need
For anything fancy
Or to reinvent
The wheel
Because it won’t be
What you say to me
But how
You make me feel
As I sit here
And nurse
My beer
Full of sorrow
And regret
I realise
I’ve never
Loved anyone
As much as
The man
I’ve never met
I hope you don’t mind me asking
He said
But do you think of me
At all?
I’ll remember that night forever
She said
But the rest
I can’t recall
After all
The effort
I put in
You’d think
I’d learn
To enjoy it
But I know
Before long
I’ll start
To feel wronged
And then
I’ll just fucking
Destroy it
Give me a pen
And I will trace
The exact outline
Of his face
Without
Even
Looking
Reflecting on
Our last
Little
Tête-à-tête
I feel like
I’ve won,
Finally
As this time
I cared
Far less
About you
Than you
Have ever
Cared about me
I didn’t believe in love
She said
Until my head
Was turned
Then I realised
How right I was
When I got
My fingers burned
Knowing
We’ll never
Meet again
Isn’t even
The worst
It’s more the fact
You never called back
That really
Fucking hurts
Rest assured
Our assignation
Leaves you with
No obligation
I often think
Of that night
And how events
Proceeded
Because being seduced
Was the confidence boost
That I so sorely
I needed
Even if
You love me now
There’s no way
That it can last
For I know my luck
And I’ll fuck it up
Losing all
That we have amassed
Nothing
Of what
We had
Remains
As our
Memories
Dance
Between
The flames
If I could love anyone
She said
Then it would be you
But what’s inside me now
Is broken
And there is nothing
I can do
I’ll sleep with you
When I’m good and ready
So don’t come around here
All hot and heavy
Thinking your patter
Will trick me to bed
You see all that talk
I’ve heard before
And believe you me
I know the score
So never again
Can I be misled
I need time
To think it through
She said
It’s not that cut
And dried
Well you need
To hurry up
He said
As time’s not on
Our side
I wrote to you
The other day
As I find the words
Too hard to say
So I thought a note
The best way to approach it
That is, of course,
If I ever post it
When I see you love
So lazily
It makes me think
There’s hope for me
To steal him away
Soon
As another sun sets
On our argument
My stomach
Is still in bits
Because of all the things
We could’ve been
I never thought
That we’d be this
I never said
You weren’t thoughtful
Not conscientious or kind
It’s just that when I said
I wish you were dead
I had other things
On my mind
If I was a little more forward
And not just so uptight
Then I’d stop being so awkward
And sleep with you tonight
But as it is I’m a coward
With no confidence at all
So the only thing I’ll see tonight
Are the cracks in my bedroom wall
You convince yourself
It’s not that bad
When it’s the only love
You’ve ever had
How many times more likely
Would it be if you asked politely
I mean I’d let you do
Whatever you wanted to
If you just spoke to me nicely
If you gave me the chance
He said
I’d have you seeing stars in minutes
Well, you’re free to explore my body
She said
But my mind is strictly off limits
It doesn’t matter
What you do
Or how many fantasies
You suggest
As nothing can beat
The reality
That plays
Inside my head
I really shouldn’t
Call you
And from your delights,
Refrain
As I’d probably be better
Off alone
Than to sleep with you
Again
I know I don’t
Tell you enough
Preferring to make
Remarks off the cuff
But I do love you,
You know
I’m really looking forward to it
She said
I think we’ll have a good night
I think it’ll all depend
He said
On any home truths coming to light
I didn’t mean
For you to leave
All I needed
Was a break
And now you’ve gone
All I do is dwell on
My unintentional
Mistake
I see you hold her
In your arms
And wonder if she’ll succunb
To your boyish charms
Because if it was me
That you cradled so tight
I’d want to stay there
All day and all night
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