"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Now you come
Begging for love
Cap in outstretched hand
But I know better
And I will never
Erase my line in the sand
Incomprehensible
It’s all
just so
fucking
bizarre
How the
tables
have
turned
With
things
now as
they are
And
what we
both have
learned
(Originally Posted 26.02.2020)
I don’t often achieve perfection
But I think this is pretty much it
A healthy dose
Of what I feel the most
With just a little rapier-like wit
The Queen Bee
Oh, I’ll point many a finger
In order to right these wrongs
But for her I’ll reserve
The most passion and verve
And the sharpest of razor like tongues
(Originally Posted 26.01.2021)
I did everything
To please you
All I could
To win you round
Including
It seems
Ruining
My dreams
And running myself
Into the ground
Preferable
I’d
rather
sit
And
tear
out my
hair
Than
waste
another
minute
Hoping
you’d
care
(Originally Posted 26.01.2020)
You know
As well as me
This will only end
One way
To release
The pressure
We’ll sleep
Together
Then we’ll both
Be made to pay
Moonlighting
All this back and forth
Between us both
Has certainly served a purpose
But now we know
That our virtues show
Merely on the surface
(Originally Posted 25.01.2021)
And when you’ve had
Your own itch scratched
I’ll be left there alone
Lying in the wet patch
Lies Men Tell
Just
close
your
eyes
and
count
to ten
I’ll
take
you to
heaven
and
back
again
(Originally Posted 25.01.2020)
Washing your hands
Checking the locks
Labelling your cans
Sorting your socks
You call them all
Your ‘OCD’
But you’ve got no idea
What it really means
All The 8’s
And so it begins
The incessant counting
The overthinking
The fear mounting
That impending doom
Will certainly strike
If I do not get
This pattern right
(Originally Posted 25.01.2021)
Most days the process is simple
Words flow as easy as the pain
But I feel so numb at times
That when it comes to rhymes
I doubt they will ever flow again
The Writer’s Anguish
I don’t
think
I have
anything
to say
Today
Perhaps
there
will be
more
sorrow
Tomorrow
So
I will
wait to
pick up
my pen
Then
For
I fear
I wouldn’t
even
know how
Now
(Originally Posted 25.01.2020)
I know when I
Use the word ‘cunt’
To some people it’s
An awful affront
So I’d never use it
As a simple diss
Instead I reserve it
For those who it fits
Leopards
Just
because
now
You
taunt
me from
afar
You’re
still
a cunt
And you
know
you are
(Originally Posted 24.01.2020)
I know you’re angry with me
I know I made a mistake
I know you’ll struggle to forgive me
But don’t throw this away
Please
The Replacement
I only ever wanted you
But then he arrived instead
Now there’s no chance
In any circumstance
Of you sleeping in my bed
(Originally Posted 24.01.2021)
So much changes
When your partner dies
Infinitely more
Than you would ever realise
Soul Bar(e)ing
I mourn
the loss
of us
Even more
than the
loss of
you
(Originally Posted 23.01.2020)
I know you don’t want to hear it
But you can’t run before you can walk
There is no way to beat it
So it’s best to just sit down and talk
Cheats Never Prosper
If there is one thing
I have learned
It’s that you cannot skip
The stages
Even if that means
Moving forward
Feels like it’s taking
Fucking ages
If you jump
Too far forward
You’ll only fall
Further back
And all you’re doing
Is storing your pain
For further
Down the track
(Originally Posted 23.01.2021)
It’s only when
The meds kick in
That you realise
The truth
The only person
On that ward
Being fooled
Was you
Psych Ward 101
Just keep calm
Don’t let them see
They’ll leave you alone
If you just agree
(Originally Posted 22.01.2021)
I can get through
Most days now
Without crying
Over you
But sometimes it hits
Like a ton of bricks
And there is nothing
I can do
Recurring
The tears I cried
When you died
Will never fully dry
For with each day
Dawns a new array
Of pain I can’t deny
Xxx
(Originally Posted 22.01.2021)
Those oceans feel
A little calmer now
As those days
Have passed me by
So from here
I’ll just tread water
Hoping for help
Before I die
The Drowning Girl
Tears
run into
oceans
Hours
bleed into
days
As I go
through
the motions
Trapped
between
the waves
(Originally Posted 21.01.2021)
It’s hard at times
For me to explain
As I want to protect you
From feeling my pain
And it’s never your fault
When I’m triggered like this
But when you hold my hand
It reminds me of his
‘Hand In Glove’
Some days
your hand
fits
perfectly
in mine
Our love
flows freely
and
sparkles
like wine
Some days
I can’t
bear
to hold
your hand
For
reasons
you
couldn’t
understand
(Originally Posted 21.01.2020)
It’s hard to consider
Giving much more
When your mind is weak
And your heart is sore
Cardiac Arrest
My heart
has been
aching
all day
Nothing
has made
the pain
go away
Perhaps
this will
finally be
the end
And I’ll
no longer
have to
pretend
(Originally Posted 21.01.2020)
“You know I’m tied to you
Like the buttons on your blouse”
“Watering down your pain so others feel less guilty is not being the ‘bigger person’.
It’s suppression. And it’s wrong.”
– Anon
Introspection
Only works
If you can see it through
And as we both know
You’ve done fuck all to show
Any desire in wanting to
Introspection Anyone?
Maybe if you
Could just look
Look inside your heart
For a minute
You would see
What you did to me
Was a heinous crime
To commit
(Originally Posted 29.01.2021)
It would be really helpful
She said
If you took it down a notch
It’s not like I’m asking for approval
She said
Or for you to fucking watch
Lack Of Understanding
You can’t
keep
hurting
yourself
He
said
For
I can’t
bear to
see it
The
only
problem
is
She
said
It’s
not
about you,
is it?
(Originally Posted 20.01.2020)
Well we sat at the kitchen table
Nervously eating toast
Feeling a little unstable
But both thouroughly engrossed
Until Someone Loses An Eye
What
happens
when the
laughter
stops
When
that
penny
finally
drops
When we
wake up
tomorrow
with a
raging
hangover
And that
stomach
churning
guilt
takes us
both over
(Originally Posted 20.01.2020)
It doesn’t matter
What I say
It makes no difference
What I do
You will always believe
Your own bullshit
Despite it obviously
Being untrue
Exhausting
There
must be
a way
to make
you see
You’re
lying to
yourself
as much
as me
(Originally Posted 19.01.2020)
“Raindrops keep falling on my head”
As that old sentimentalist croons
Well for me,
It’s not just raindrops
It’s a slew of fucking monsoons
Left Guessing
Time moves on
Yet I’m stood still
Fading away
Losing the will
As each second
Passes me by
I can’t seem to forget
Or stop asking why
(Originally Posted 19.01.2021)
I feel I should
Apologise again
For burdening you
Last night
I understand
It’s not your problem
And I know
It’s not your fight
Nice Try
Thank
you
for the
offer
But I
really
must
say no
There is
no need
for you
to listen
To any
more of
my tales
of woe
(Originally Posted 19.01.2020)
I really am sorry my friend
He said
But I can’t do much with that
The only thing I could recommend
He said
Is that you start wearing a hat
The Barber’s Secrets
Feeling
the
tension
In
the
air
He
dare not
mention
Your
thinning
hair
(Originally Posted 18.01.2020)
It’s such a shame to see
He said
They just never stood a chance
It’s their own fucking fault
He said
For ever believing in romance
In Loving Memory
The girl you knew is gone
She said
Killed by love itself
You don’t need to tell me
He said
For I dug her grave myself
(Originally Posted 18.01.2022)
It may have been me
Who was the one
That was strong enough
For two
But the person I was
The most proud of
In the end
Was you
Xxx
With Me
Your
words
tattooed
on my
brain
Forever
A reminder
of facing
that
pain
Together
(Originally Posted 18.01.2020)
A face you wouldn’t tire
Of thumping
With such a countenance
You’ve been cursed
But such a thing
Would be unbecoming
So instead
I’ll use my words
Pulling No Punches
Come for me again
My friend
And events will turn apace
Your head will spin
As that shit eating grin
Is wiped right off your face
(Originally Posted 18.01.2021)
She who was once vivacious
Grew ever weary from the pain
And though she remained flirtatious
She never truly loved again
As Time Goes By
From
happy
souls
the
lifeblood
drains
Until
nothing
but
the
darkness
remains
🖤
(Originally Posted 17.01.2020)
I’m a little surprised
I wrote this
As it’s quite lyrical
For me
That is, of course,
If you ignore
The creepy imagery
How Long Has It Been Now?
From this cold embittered heart
I just cannot be prised apart
Like a leech feasting on a wound
Oh, is there any hope for me
From the past to be set free
And to love again become more attuned?
🖤
(Originally Posted 17.01.2021)
Having mulled this idea over
To a ridiculous degree
I have decided I will
A book of poetry fill
In twenty twenty three
To Publish Or Not To Publish…
You really are quite brilliant
They said
Perhaps you should write a book
I doubt anyone would buy it
She said
Knowing my fucking luck
(Originally Posted 16.01.2021)
You have to accept
When you eat your friends
That they’re pretty adept
At taking revenge
The Dodgy Prawn
Sweating again
And feeling sick
All because of you
You little prick
(Originally Posted 16.01.2020)
I kept true to my promise
Just like I said I would
Now let’s both be honest
You fucking hate spinsterhood
Once And For All
Tell me you don’t want me
And I’ll walk away if I must
But just make sure
Your heart can endure
As you won’t see me again
For dust
(Originally Posted 15.01.2021)
Obviously I’m speaking
Metaphorically, of course
I wouldn’t want to hurt you
With any kind of violent force
But I don’t want to come to your party
I’ve no interest in being your friend
I just hoped you’d realise
That you’re so thouroughly despised
I never want to see you again
RSV P(iss Off)
What are you
inviting me for?
After all
this time
I was sure you
had eradicated me
From the
family line
Well, let me save
you the bother
I wouldn’t even
want to come
Not unless I’d
get two free shots
With a fucking
sawn off shot gun
(Originally Posted 15.01.2020)
I know that you
Will understand
When the play button
You press
As the songs I’ve picked
My love for you depict
In ways I
Could ever express
Mix Tapes
You could just say how you feel
He said
Instead of sending me a song
But these folks are professionals
She said
And I’d only get it wrong
(Originally Posted 14.01.2021)
‘Oh, how can I forget you?
When there is always something there to remind me…’
“An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet regardless of time, place or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle but it will never break.”
– Chinese Mythology
The Red String Of Fate
It’s what
keeps us
together
Forever
(Originally Posted 13.01.2020)
To this day
He finds a way
To let me know
He’s near
True to his word
He makes sure
He’s heard
And his presence
Crystal clear
Xxx
Comforting
I don’t know what I’ll do
She said
When it’s time for you to go
You may never see me again
He said
But when I’m next to you
You’ll know
(Originally Posted 13.01.2021)
There’s no point explaining
What this one means
As I’d never get it right
But suffice it to say
I was blown away
By how I felt that night
Xxx
Big Star
The coincidence
Inexplicable
The evidence
Inadmissible
But I know it’s you
Xxx
(Originally Posted 13.01.2022)
Not even twelve hours
Between night shifts
I don’t get paid
Enough for this shit
Running On Empty
I am so tired
I want to go home
To sit in the quiet
All on my own
For I’ve had enough
Of this battle of wills
I just need some silence
To cure my ills
(Originally Posted 12.01.2021)
I’d rather just sit
In the corner and brood
As for your ‘humour’
I’m not in the mood
No Laughing Matter
I swear to you right now
On all that is good and holy
Your jokes rarely do anything
But kill me fucking slowly
(Originally Posted 12.01.2021)
Does the milk go in
First or last
And does it
Really matter
It tastes the same anyway
At the end of the day
But for me,
It’s always the latter
‘Two Lumps Please’
To
help me
through
this
misery
Perhaps
I’ll
make
a drink
That
is what
they
say,
isn’t it?
A cup
of tea
solves
everything?
(Originally Posted 11.01.2020)
Has it ever occured to you
He said
That the source of your discord
Is your inability
To end the hostility
By changing the fucking record?
‘My Only Friend, The End…’
We
mustn’t
ever
forget
She
said
That
the
worst
is yet
to come
How
bloody
long
exactly
He
said
Do you
plan to
bang
that
drum?
(Originally Posted 11.01.2021)
Not everyone finds it easy
To go out and be social
Some of us need
A little time to breathe
While considering
Such a proposal
Leave Me Alone
Although the walls
Are closing in
I have no desire
To leave
I don’t understand
Why you find that
So fucking hard
To believe
(Originally Posted 11.01.2021)
I don’t write
About nice things
Love and all that shit
If you want to read
About nice things
You won’t like this one bit
All That Matters
Not much of this is pretty
Very little here is smart
Quite often it is shitty
But it’s always from the heart
(Originally Posted 10.01.2021)
A family now
Torn apart
Proved fertile ground
For my art
Finding Fault
All
you
do
He
said
Is
whine
and
moan
I’m
surprised
anyone
reads
this
pish
Well,
maybe
if you
She
said
Weren’t
such a
prick
My
words
wouldn’t
so easily
flourish
(Originally Posted 10.01.2021)
We hate it
They say
When you act that way
Hurting yourself
Really saddens us
If only
I say
There was another way
As this is hardly
Fucking glamorous
Unsafe Thoughts
Please,
take
away
my
knives
And put
those
razors
in the
bin
For
the
urge
to cut
is rising
To
bleed
out the
pain
within
(Originally Posted 09.01.2020)
How many more lies
Do you think we’ll tell
Before we’re both sent
Straight to hell
No Witnesses
If no one saw
But us two
Then who is to say
It happened
If we promise
Never to tell
Then no one else
Need ever be saddened
(Originally Posted 09.01.2022)
If only there
Was a way
To make the dream
A reality
But any hope of that
Was cruelly dashed
When you upped
And left me
Nocturnal Naughtiness
You
were
in my
dreams
last night
We
kissed
longingly
by the
fire
And
although
I woke
with
contented
delight
It
didn’t
quite
quench
my desire
(Originally Posted 08.01.2020)
There’s no need to instruct me
I have no inclination to wait
Now that I know you trust me
On your pleasure I will fixate
A Bit Of Rough
Throw me onto the bed
Dear boy
Your body on mine impose
For a meeting of minds
Is not required
Let alone
An entwinement of souls
(Originally Posted 08.01.2021)
I guess I’ve always felt
That little bit better
When I’m in amongst
Those words and letters
Safe in my own
Little fantasy world
Where my peace and quiet
Is undisturbed
The Window Seat
There’s
people,
people,
everywhere
Dashing
around
without
a care
Or,
at least,
that’s how
it looks
When I
glance up
from behind
my books
(Originally Posted 08.01.2020)
As I have beaten
My adversary
This will all end
In February
How Long?
How long
can you
go on
writing
When
your only
inspiration
is spite?
And now
you’ve had
to start
forgiving
So that
you can
sleep
at night
(Originally Posted 07.01.2020)
I found a way
In the end
I put them all in the bin
Now I only wince
If I catch a glimpse
Of those that I keep within
I Can’t Wait
I can’t
wait for
the day
When I
no longer
wince
At
every
glimpse
Of
your
photo
(Originally Posted 07.01.2020)
‘Sometimes I forget I’m still awake
I fuck up and say these things out loud…’
‘For the strength of the Pack is the Wolf, and the strength of the Wolf is the Pack’
– Rudyard Kipling
Even if I wanted
To get up
And seize the day
It’s far too cold
For one so old
Outside anyway
Anhedonic
Trying
hard
to
survive
This
thing
called
life
Hoping
to fend
off the
madness
Striving
to find
Some peace
of mind
Underneath
this
duvet of
sadness
(Originally Posted 06.01.2020)
They say I’d maybe get further
If I lowered my tone a bit
But there’s no way of keeping quiet
About all of his bullshit
Screaming
I know that it seems
A little strange
And it’s hard
To confabulate
But please believe me
When I say
It’s how I best
Communicate
(Originally Posted 06.01.2022)
And as you get older
Little by little
You begin to realise
That shit’s cyclical
Wars Of Attrition
Some people stay together
And hate every second of it
But as they’re bound by tradition
They put up with each others shit
They’re worn down day after day
But are far too scared to leave
For of a life full of happiness
They cannot possibly conceive
(Originally Posted 06.01.2021)
Whether it’s from
The scars on my arms
Or from the words
That I have written
I think it may be best
If I take a rest
And go back
To keeping them hidden
Cutting
I scythe these words
Across the page
To allow my pain to flow
I find it leaves
Much less of a scar
Than some other ways I know
(Originally Posted 05.01.2021)
No matter how
I try to improve
Or alter my behaviour
It seems I’m destined
To forever seek
The beauty in my failure
In Vain
Each
time
I try
I always
seem
to fail
Spectacularly
(Originally Posted 05.01.2020)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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