Random #263

“Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world’s more full of
weeping than you can
understand.”

– W. B Yeats

2

As Meek As Mice

It’s always the quiet ones

You need to watch

As they’re the ones

Who never get caught

Treachery

This cannot be
What you want

Surely,
It’s a joke

For I am not
That kind of woman

And you’re not
That kind of bloke

(Originally Posted 16.12.2020)

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Qualms

An allegory for so much

This one

Love, life and death

Trying to capture that feeling

When you need to stop

And pause for breath

Keep The Engine Running

Shall
we go
ahead
and jump

He
asked

Now that
we’ve
come
this far?

I’m not
so sure,
anymore,

She
said

Let’s just
get back
in the
car

(Originally Posted 16.12.2019)

2

Feet First

In for a penny

In for a pound

Isn’t that what they say?

Well all I know is

If there are no strings

Then I’ll be there without delay

Cocktails At Dawn

Come over here

Let’s have a taste

As it would be a shame

If this went to waste

(Originally Posted 16.12.2020)

4

Super Human

The extent of your brilliance

They never could see

But you were always more

Than just a man to me

Xxx

Afterlife

You still
save me
in so
many ways

Even
from
beyond
the grave

(Originally Posted 15.12.2019)

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Trauma Breeds Trauma

It started off

Innocently enough

But the problem was

It worked

The desire then grew

And deep down I knew

How I’d forever quench

My thirst

‘Slash & Burn’

Skin somewhat healing

And yet I’m still reeling

As my heart slowly withers

Is there a more appealing

Way to cope with this feeling

Other than with a pair of scissors?

(Originally Posted 15.12.2020)

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Clocking In

Never

Do I feel this more

Than each time I walk

Through that door

Sown Up

I don’t feel better.

I haven’t forgotten.

I’ve just stopped telling you,

How I feel.

(Originally Posted 15.12.2020)

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Survival

This
ain’t
my first
rodeo

And it
won’t
be my
last

As
there’s
always a
change

I
can
undergo

To
keep
myself
intact

‘And The Academy Award Goes To…’

You’re
no fun
anymore

He
said

What
happened
to you
my friend?

I was
never
fun
before

She
said

All of
that
was
just
pretend

(Originally Posted 14.12.2020)

5

“Feeling Good As Hell”

You may think

That I’m left whimpering

But I can promise you

I am not

For I no longer need suffer

Your simpering

Which was worth

Every inch we fought

The High Road

You can just

Fuck off now

As I

Have had enough

I no longer

Give a shit

About all this

Selfish stuff

But you should know

Just one thing

And yes,

I will be blunt

Maybe I wasn’t

Always right

But you

Were always a cunt

(Originally Posted 14.12.2020)

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The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing

I don’t think

I meant this

As me being

Hard done by

I think it

Was more

To show

At my core

That I’m actually

Not a good guy

Unfair

I never
get what
I want

Let alone
what I
deserve

(Originally Posted 14.12.2019)

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Gun Laws

It may well be known

As the land of the free

But that’s not always how

It looks to me

Clarity

In the time it took

To load the gun

He realised how

His demons had won

(Originally Posted 13.12.2020)

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Submitted

With a mindset shifted

And a choice insisted

An opportunity gifted

And a weight now lifted

Epitaph

Do you
ever wish
you could
just give
up?

Say
right,
that’s it,
I’ve had
enough!

I’m
done
with
all this
fucking
shit

I’m
finally
going
through
with it!

Well
I think
these
things
every
day

Those
words
to easy
for me
to say

And
so, it
seems,
my
demons
have won

For
I can
say now
I am
officially
done

(Originally Posted 13.12.2019)

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In My Little Corner Of The Internet

Even when

I’m dead and gone

I know now my words

Will always live on

Indelible

The words
I write
may well
be stark

For they
are made
to leave
their mark

Upon your
weak and
thready
heart

Forever

(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)

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Fine Dining

Never again

Will I be forced

To visit someone else’s home

Even if that means

Living off chips and beans

And forever eating alone

Dinnertime

I’ll never
go back
there
again

They
can all
just get
to fuck

I’ve no
desire
to talk
to them

As with
my heart
they’ve
ran amuck

(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)

6

Perfunctory

Sometimes I wonder

If I made it out alive

Or if I’m actually still dead

I mean I know

I put on a good show

But I’d rather just feel it instead

But Still Alive

Mired in madness

Subsumed in sadness

Buried here forever

Lost in blackness

(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)

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‘Reality Bites’

In a way it’s easier

To still see you every day

For as we get both older

My heart grows colder

And doesn’t hurt in the same way

Taken

I can bear most things in life

But it kills me every time

To know no matter what I do

You will never again be mine

(Originally Posted 11.12.2020)

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Only The Half Of It

Reading this one back again

I feel so sorry for her

Clearly she lost more,

When he died,

Than her words could ever infer

I Can’t Bring You Back Though, Can I?

I can look at your photo

I can whisper your name

I can press your shirt

Against my face

But nothing feels the same

(Originally Posted 11.12.2020)

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Coquetry

Alhough we’ve never spoken

It’s still my daily treat

To remember that emotion

As our eyes shyly meet

After All

You
were
here
last
time

I
clearly
remember
your
smile

Perhaps
leaving
the
house
today

Might
yet
prove
to be
worthwhile

(Originally Posted 11.12.2019)

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Move Over, Wednesday

You’re hardly the life and soul

They said

Even with a drink you’re glum

You don’t know the half of it

She said

I didn’t even want to come

Sanctuary

Never more than when

I’m in a room full of people

Do I feel most the alone

All I want to do is beat

A slow and steady retreat

And find my sanctuary at home

(Originally Posted 10.12.2020)

6

The Urgent Sea Of Life

There’s something about

The rush of the waves

Those echoing sounds

From beyond the caves

This feels like home

To me

That sheer expanse

Of glass like water

As I stand here shaking

In awe before her

I know when I wade in

I’ll be free

Happy Place

Take me back

To the sea

For it is where

I need to be

But don’t think because

I’ve emptied my pockets

That will be

Enough to stop it

For in the end

It will just be me

Sinking down

Into the depths of the sea

(Originally Posted 10.12.2020)

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The Lochaber Traverse

I gave away

Your boots today

To a charity shop

For next time I know

I’ll be walking alone

All along that rugged hilltop

Gone For Good

What I have lost

Can’t be replaced

For our footsteps

Can’t be retraced

(Originally Posted 10.12.2019)

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Wasting Time

If only I was sure

He thought

That she feels the same way

I just wish he’d ask

She said

To her friend, later, that day

Admissions

Looking
at you

Looking
at me

When will
we tire

Of this
malarkey

(Originally Posted 10.12.2019)

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Random #261

“Someone once asked me: ‘why do you love music so much?’ I replied: ‘because it’s the only thing that stays when everything and everyone is gone.'”

– Kid Cudi

9

Pulling The Wool

The worst part

About what happened

Is that your role

Is still unexamined

Capitulation

I’m
now
ready
to walk
away

As you’ve
made it
impossible
for me
to stay

All I
hope
is
that
one day

You
are as
unhappy
as I am
today

(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)

2

Dead Inside

I know

That depression

Is cyclical

Yet I’m still taken

By surprise

Whenever

It hits

And I feel

Like shit

As the light fades

From behind my eyes

Sprung

The beast has crept back in again

She’s beaten down my door

And there was me,

Foolishly,

Thinking I wouldn’t need pills anymore

(Originally Posted 09.12.2020)

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Parasite

Although I wrote this

For someone else

It suddenly occurs to me

That a finer analogy

For your behavior

There could never be

Leech

I
don’t
owe
you a
penny

But
you
sure do
owe
me

For
putting
food in
your
belly

And
living
in my
home
rent free

(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)

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Way Too Eager

Well it’s not like I can help it

Said the moth

To the flame

My attraction to you is hard-wired

Well your way of showing it

Said the flame

To the moth

Leaves a lot to be desired

Wings

Fuck
this
shit

Said
the
moth

To
the
flame

It is
never
going
to work

It’s all
your
fault

Said
the
flame

To
the
moth

For
going so
fucking
berserk

(Originally Posted 08.12.2019)

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Gold Dust

Even though

We only

Get one heart

I still

Gave mine

Away

But our love’s

Duet

I will never

Regret

Until

My dying day

Nothing Left

I
loved
you

And
you
loved
me

So now
my
penance

Is
never
to be
free

To
love
again

(Originally Posted 08.12.2019)

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The Long Way Down

I remember

When I heard this

Oh how I laughed

And laughed

To know that finally,

And rightfully,

You have fallen on your ass

Music To My Ears

So I’ve heard that you

Are starting to feel

Like you’re reaping

What you sowed

Well all I can say

Is poor, poor you

I hope your pain

Has overflowed

As I, for one,

Cannot express

Just how happy

I am to know

That perhaps now you

Can comprehend

How it feels

To be alone

(Originally Posted 08.12.2020)

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“I’m OK By Myself”

Someone asked me

Today

Why I prefer to travel

Alone

Because it’s easier

I said

Than listening to other people

Moan

Better Off Dead

Sometimes
I
wonder,

Is
this all
there is?

Just
boredom,
emptiness

And your
endless
bullshit?

I couldn’t
think of
anything
nicer,

Than to be
somewhere
else
instead.

Far from
all the
anxiety
and pain,

And your
words
plaguing
my head

(Originally Posted 07.12.2019)

2

Sleeping Alone

I thought having sex with strangers

Would get him out of my head

And though it filled a hole

That wasn’t my goal

So now it’s back to my own bed

Going Too Far

Lying
here
alone

In
this
strange
bed

Wondering
what the
fuck

Was
in my
head

Now I
must
ignore

This
feeling
of dread

And
stop
wishing
that I’d

Stayed
home
instead

(Originally Posted 07.12.2020)

2

The Asylum Called – They Want Their Jacket Back

If only one day

He’d answer back

Instead of just little

Old lunatic me

Shouting into the black

Into The Wind

As my life passes me by

I lose the will to even try

So I raise my hands to the sky

And scream why me, you arsehole, why?

(Originally Posted 07.12.2020)

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Mutually Exclusive

Between your happiness

And mine

I’d pick my freedom

Everytime

Last In Line

If you continue to push this

She said

And I am forced to choose

You really should be prepared

She said

For the fact I won’t pick you

(Originally Posted 06.12.2021)

2

Fucking Fluoxetine

I enjoyed my trip

Up to the heavens

Albeit for just

Those thirty seconds

One Night Only

This bed’s not big enough

For the both of us

So I’ll be the one to leave

We should just be glad

For the time we’ve had

And the little bit of reprieve

(Originally Posted 06.12.2020)

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The Sudden Calmness

They were all hoping

The blues would fade

But they were unaware

My decision was made

Rope

I know
I can’t
do this
anymore

My soul
is heavy
and my
heart
is sore

I feel
the relief
in every
pore

As I walk
along
to the
hardware
store

(Originally Posted 06.12.2019)

4

We Haven’t Got All Day

You’ve had more

Than enough time now

To decide once and for all

What you need to do

Is just tell us now

So we can both prepare for the fall

On Tenterhooks

I really don’t care

If I win or lose

Either way around

I just wish you’d choose

(Originally Posted 05.12.2020)

2

It’ll Need Stitches

I can clean it with antiseptic

He said

And cover it with a plaster

It won’t make any difference

She said

It’s still a fucking disaster

Bleeding

It feels
like I’ve
been
robbed,
she said,

Of the
only
love
in my
life

This
pain
just
runs
so deep,
she sobbed,

As it
cuts
through me
like a
knife

(Originally Posted 05.12.2019)

4

Imperfectly Perfect

All those memories

Good and bad

Making me smile

Driving me mad

Yet lying here

It makes me sad

As we never knew

Quite what we had

The Old Days

Waking along
this empty street

Splashing puddles
with my feet

I remember when
we used to meet

And my broken heart
skips a beat

(Originally Posted 05.12.2019)

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Alt. 670m (2199ft)

Trying

In vain

To feel alive

There’s one more

Mountain

Left to drive

Hometime

As the hurt starts to subside

And the pain begins to fade

I’m never too far

From the reminder

Grief is still the sharpest blade

(Originally Posted 04.12.2020)

6

At The Train Station

You felt it

As I did I

When we locked eyes

That day

Now you know it

As do I

And so,

I walked away

‘Guilt’s A Heavy Load’

Your
mouth
is full
of spite

She said

The
words
you use
are savage

It must
be so
hard for
you

She said

To carry
around
such
baggage

(Originally Posted 03.12.2019)

2

(High)lands Reprise

As I stand here

Taking snaps

Comparing them

To years past

I am struck

By the magnitude

Of how much I now

Love my solitude

(High)lands

Let us
roam
amongst
the
heather

Laugh
out loud 
betwixt
the
blether

Kiss
amidst
this
stormy
weather

Until
we
come
undone
together

(Originally Posted 03.12.2020)

2

Unlearning

Why do you still deny yourself

He said

You more than deserve some happiness

It’s like I’ll never be free

She said

From the memory of all the nastiness

Forbidden Love

Come
a little
closer,

He
said,

I want
to see
your
face.

Just
you
stay
away,

She
said,

I daren’t
risk
another
embrace.

(Originally Posted 03.12.2019)

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Letting You Go

I really did love you, you know

I wish I’d told you so before

And now you’re gone

Nothing can be done

But to regret it

Forevermore

Xxx

(Originally Posted 02.12.2021)

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Ain’t Life Grand

We
only
really
reached
halfway

When
you
went
and
died
on me

Now
what
was
once
bright
is grey

As
I deal
with
life’s
debris

(Originally Posted 02.12.2020)

4

The View

Waves crash,
As memories smash,
Against the walls of my heart.

That we were once here,
Full of youthful cheer,
Just tears my soul apart.

Xxx

(Originally Posted 02.12.2019)

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Once Upon A Time

Another
day passes

And I
miss you
like mad

As through
rose tinted
glasses

I remember
what we had

Xxx

(Originally Posted 02.12.2019)

4

The Death Of Me

The Death Of Me

Nearly twenty years together

And what do I have to show

Just a blackened heart

Now we’re three years apart

And sadness the status quo

Xxx

(Originally Posted 01.12.2021)

4

Six Years Ago

Walk down the aisle with me?

She said

The bakery aisle, that is

I thought you were being serious

He said

And my heart just skipped a beat

Xxx

(Originally Posted 01.12.2021)

2

Still

Thunder rolls

Lightning strikes

As grief still cuts me

Like a knife

Xxx

(Originally Posted 01.12.2020)

2

Tu Me Manques

I just wish you were still here.

That’s it.

No flowery language.

No poetic licence.

I just wish you hadn’t died.

Simple.

Xxx.

(Originally Posted 01.12.2020)

2

To The Minute

There’s nothing
else to do

There’s nothing
else to say

For my love was
lost to me forever

One year
ago today

Xxx

(Originally Posted 01.12.2019)

2

Your Last Breath

I
remember
like
it
was
yesterday

All
the
doctors
had
walked
away

And
it was
just
me
and
you

Holding
hands
in
that
hospital
room

Xxx

(Originally Posted 01.12.2019)

6

Solace

Where is it you’re going

He asked

To the mountains

She replied

I need the peace and quiet

She said

To get through the day he died

This Next Wee While

If you
notice
that I’ve
gone

There is
no need
to worry

Sometimes
I have
to run
away

From
situations
in a hurry

But
do not
doubt my
return

Please,
fret
ye not

I will
be back
very
soon

To
fully
reclaim
my
spot

(Originally Posted 30.11.2019)

6

Screwed

If we’d had a plan

When all this began

Perhaps we could both advance

But as things are

We’ve gone too far

And now none of us

Stand a chance

Obvious

At a
different
time

In a
different
place

The
answer
would
stare
us

Right
in the
face

(Originally Posted 30.11.2019)

2

Fat Cats

It really isn’t a ‘bargain’

To buy when and what you’re told

It’s just a load of shit

Pushed by capitalists

Who revel in taking your dough

Every Friday Is Black

Fuck off
with your
‘limited’
deals

The endless
offers and
pathetic
sales spiels

Think about
those already
in over
their head

And go hawk
your wares
somewhere
else instead

(Originally Posted 29.12.2019)

18

Lucky My Arse

All I get

If I look up

Into the twilight sky

Is a fucking crick

In the back of my neck

And bird shit in my eye

Somewhere Out There

I’m sure
your star
shines
brightly,

Up
there
in the
sky.

I try
to search
for it
nightly,

Yet it
always
passes
me by.

(Originally Posted 29.11.2019)

5

‘Purple Haze’

It doesn’t hurt as much

To look nowadays

But I’ll admit

That I don’t too often

As some of the things

We got up to back then

Are probably

Best forgotten

Polaroid Memories

I can no
longer
look at
at your
face

My
eyes I
have to
sheathe

For
tears
begin
to flow
at pace

And I
can no
longer
breathe

(Originally Posted 28.11.2019)

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To The Day

Many more moons

Have passed since then

And plenty of suns

Now too

In fact it’s been

1,458 days

That I’ve been here

Without you

Xxx

Many A Moon

As that
day draws
ever closer

The pain
cannot be
avoided

To think
it was just
a year ago

When my
whole world
imploded

(Originally Posted 28.11.2019)

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