"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I did everything
To please you
All I could
To win you round
Including
It seems
Ruining
My dreams
And running myself
Into the ground
Preferable
I’d
rather
sit
And
tear
out my
hair
Than
waste
another
minute
Hoping
you’d
care
(Originally Posted 26.01.2020)
You know
As well as me
This will only end
One way
To release
The pressure
We’ll sleep
Together
Then we’ll both
Be made to pay
Moonlighting
All this back and forth
Between us both
Has certainly served a purpose
But now we know
That our virtues show
Merely on the surface
(Originally Posted 25.01.2021)
And when you’ve had
Your own itch scratched
I’ll be left there alone
Lying in the wet patch
Lies Men Tell
Just
close
your
eyes
and
count
to ten
I’ll
take
you to
heaven
and
back
again
(Originally Posted 25.01.2020)
Washing your hands
Checking the locks
Labelling your cans
Sorting your socks
You call them all
Your ‘OCD’
But you’ve got no idea
What it really means
All The 8’s
And so it begins
The incessant counting
The overthinking
The fear mounting
That impending doom
Will certainly strike
If I do not get
This pattern right
(Originally Posted 25.01.2021)
Most days the process is simple
Words flow as easy as the pain
But I feel so numb at times
That when it comes to rhymes
I doubt they will ever flow again
The Writer’s Anguish
I don’t
think
I have
anything
to say
Today
Perhaps
there
will be
more
sorrow
Tomorrow
So
I will
wait to
pick up
my pen
Then
For
I fear
I wouldn’t
even
know how
Now
(Originally Posted 25.01.2020)
I know when I
Use the word ‘cunt’
To some people it’s
An awful affront
So I’d never use it
As a simple diss
Instead I reserve it
For those who it fits
Leopards
Just
because
now
You
taunt
me from
afar
You’re
still
a cunt
And you
know
you are
(Originally Posted 24.01.2020)
I know you’re angry with me
I know I made a mistake
I know you’ll struggle to forgive me
But don’t throw this away
Please
The Replacement
I only ever wanted you
But then he arrived instead
Now there’s no chance
In any circumstance
Of you sleeping in my bed
(Originally Posted 24.01.2021)
So much changes
When your partner dies
Infinitely more
Than you would ever realise
Soul Bar(e)ing
I mourn
the loss
of us
Even more
than the
loss of
you
(Originally Posted 23.01.2020)
I know you don’t want to hear it
But you can’t run before you can walk
There is no way to beat it
So it’s best to just sit down and talk
Cheats Never Prosper
If there is one thing
I have learned
It’s that you cannot skip
The stages
Even if that means
Moving forward
Feels like it’s taking
Fucking ages
If you jump
Too far forward
You’ll only fall
Further back
And all you’re doing
Is storing your pain
For further
Down the track
(Originally Posted 23.01.2021)
It’s only when
The meds kick in
That you realise
The truth
The only person
On that ward
Being fooled
Was you
Psych Ward 101
Just keep calm
Don’t let them see
They’ll leave you alone
If you just agree
(Originally Posted 22.01.2021)
I can get through
Most days now
Without crying
Over you
But sometimes it hits
Like a ton of bricks
And there is nothing
I can do
Recurring
The tears I cried
When you died
Will never fully dry
For with each day
Dawns a new array
Of pain I can’t deny
Xxx
(Originally Posted 22.01.2021)
Those oceans feel
A little calmer now
As those days
Have passed me by
So from here
I’ll just tread water
Hoping for help
Before I die
The Drowning Girl
Tears
run into
oceans
Hours
bleed into
days
As I go
through
the motions
Trapped
between
the waves
(Originally Posted 21.01.2021)
It’s hard at times
For me to explain
As I want to protect you
From feeling my pain
And it’s never your fault
When I’m triggered like this
But when you hold my hand
It reminds me of his
‘Hand In Glove’
Some days
your hand
fits
perfectly
in mine
Our love
flows freely
and
sparkles
like wine
Some days
I can’t
bear
to hold
your hand
For
reasons
you
couldn’t
understand
(Originally Posted 21.01.2020)
It’s hard to consider
Giving much more
When your mind is weak
And your heart is sore
Cardiac Arrest
My heart
has been
aching
all day
Nothing
has made
the pain
go away
Perhaps
this will
finally be
the end
And I’ll
no longer
have to
pretend
(Originally Posted 21.01.2020)
“You know I’m tied to you
Like the buttons on your blouse”
“Watering down your pain so others feel less guilty is not being the ‘bigger person’.
It’s suppression. And it’s wrong.”
– Anon
Introspection
Only works
If you can see it through
And as we both know
You’ve done fuck all to show
Any desire in wanting to
Introspection Anyone?
Maybe if you
Could just look
Look inside your heart
For a minute
You would see
What you did to me
Was a heinous crime
To commit
(Originally Posted 29.01.2021)
It would be really helpful
She said
If you took it down a notch
It’s not like I’m asking for approval
She said
Or for you to fucking watch
Lack Of Understanding
You can’t
keep
hurting
yourself
He
said
For
I can’t
bear to
see it
The
only
problem
is
She
said
It’s
not
about you,
is it?
(Originally Posted 20.01.2020)
Well we sat at the kitchen table
Nervously eating toast
Feeling a little unstable
But both thouroughly engrossed
Until Someone Loses An Eye
What
happens
when the
laughter
stops
When
that
penny
finally
drops
When we
wake up
tomorrow
with a
raging
hangover
And that
stomach
churning
guilt
takes us
both over
(Originally Posted 20.01.2020)
It doesn’t matter
What I say
It makes no difference
What I do
You will always believe
Your own bullshit
Despite it obviously
Being untrue
Exhausting
There
must be
a way
to make
you see
You’re
lying to
yourself
as much
as me
(Originally Posted 19.01.2020)
“Raindrops keep falling on my head”
As that old sentimentalist croons
Well for me,
It’s not just raindrops
It’s a slew of fucking monsoons
Left Guessing
Time moves on
Yet I’m stood still
Fading away
Losing the will
As each second
Passes me by
I can’t seem to forget
Or stop asking why
(Originally Posted 19.01.2021)
I feel I should
Apologise again
For burdening you
Last night
I understand
It’s not your problem
And I know
It’s not your fight
Nice Try
Thank
you
for the
offer
But I
really
must
say no
There is
no need
for you
to listen
To any
more of
my tales
of woe
(Originally Posted 19.01.2020)
I really am sorry my friend
He said
But I can’t do much with that
The only thing I could recommend
He said
Is that you start wearing a hat
The Barber’s Secrets
Feeling
the
tension
In
the
air
He
dare not
mention
Your
thinning
hair
(Originally Posted 18.01.2020)
It’s such a shame to see
He said
They just never stood a chance
It’s their own fucking fault
He said
For ever believing in romance
In Loving Memory
The girl you knew is gone
She said
Killed by love itself
You don’t need to tell me
He said
For I dug her grave myself
(Originally Posted 18.01.2022)
It may have been me
Who was the one
That was strong enough
For two
But the person I was
The most proud of
In the end
Was you
Xxx
With Me
Your
words
tattooed
on my
brain
Forever
A reminder
of facing
that
pain
Together
(Originally Posted 18.01.2020)
A face you wouldn’t tire
Of thumping
With such a countenance
You’ve been cursed
But such a thing
Would be unbecoming
So instead
I’ll use my words
Pulling No Punches
Come for me again
My friend
And events will turn apace
Your head will spin
As that shit eating grin
Is wiped right off your face
(Originally Posted 18.01.2021)
She who was once vivacious
Grew ever weary from the pain
And though she remained flirtatious
She never truly loved again
As Time Goes By
From
happy
souls
the
lifeblood
drains
Until
nothing
but
the
darkness
remains
🖤
(Originally Posted 17.01.2020)
I’m a little surprised
I wrote this
As it’s quite lyrical
For me
That is, of course,
If you ignore
The creepy imagery
How Long Has It Been Now?
From this cold embittered heart
I just cannot be prised apart
Like a leech feasting on a wound
Oh, is there any hope for me
From the past to be set free
And to love again become more attuned?
🖤
(Originally Posted 17.01.2021)
Having mulled this idea over
To a ridiculous degree
I have decided I will
A book of poetry fill
In twenty twenty three
To Publish Or Not To Publish…
You really are quite brilliant
They said
Perhaps you should write a book
I doubt anyone would buy it
She said
Knowing my fucking luck
(Originally Posted 16.01.2021)
You have to accept
When you eat your friends
That they’re pretty adept
At taking revenge
The Dodgy Prawn
Sweating again
And feeling sick
All because of you
You little prick
(Originally Posted 16.01.2020)
I kept true to my promise
Just like I said I would
Now let’s both be honest
You fucking hate spinsterhood
Once And For All
Tell me you don’t want me
And I’ll walk away if I must
But just make sure
Your heart can endure
As you won’t see me again
For dust
(Originally Posted 15.01.2021)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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