Fuck Depression

This is what depression does

It strips you bare until life becomes

Just too much to contemplate.

So you lie there alone

Isolated at home

And accept what you feel is fate.

Meanwhile everyone else

Is worried about you.

Totally clueless

As to how to help you.

Ultimately nobody wins.

So fuck depression,

And all that it brings.

In My Eyes

No one
sees
me as
anything
more

Than a
sad and
lonely
depressed
old bore

A pathetic
waste of
space for
sure

Just
another
nuisance
to ignore

(Originally Posted 14.11.2019)

13

So Much To Give

There I was

Worried you would leave

But I’ve been granted

A reprieve

I shouldn’t ever have doubted

Your ability

To be broken hearted

And yet still love me

No Matter What?

How
long
will
you

Be
here
for
me

When
your
own
tradegy
strikes

What
will
happen

To
our
love

When
your
reality
bites?

(Originally Posted 13.11.2020)

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Lucid Dreaming

I guess I hadn’t realised

Others would dream about their dead

That it’s not just me

At the mercy

Of the thoughts inside their head

What I never expected, however,

Is their dreams seem to be quite pleasant

Not like mine

Where he’s still dying

And fear is ever-present

Now I’m wondering how they do it

And if I could control my dreams

As to see him smile

Just for a while

May well reduce my screams

‘You Don’t Know What You’ve Got ‘Til It’s Gone ‘

It’s
only
now
I dream
of
you

Now
that
you
are
dead

If
only
you
were
still
here

And
not
just
inside
my
head

Xxx

(Originally Posted 12.11.2020)

13

Monogamy

After all is said and done

With battles lost and wars won

I’m starting to think differently

And relationships now are not for me

Expired

If you no longer love each other

Then what’s the fucking point

Just staying together to destroy each other

Noses always out of joint

Why not just call it quits

As it’s clear neither of you tries

That has to be better than being miserable

Until one of the two of you dies

(Originally Posted 12.11.2021)

2

Random #255

“The darkened space of The King’s Head downstairs room. Tuesday nights are set aside for poetry.

Every week they discussed the purpose of poetry in modern society, and every week they came to the same conclusion.

That poetry is enlightenment.

It’s questioning the norm, to try to find an understanding, to push forward ideas, to discover half truths, to open a forum for debate, to bring people together.”

– Sean Hughes

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No Hard Feelings

It wasn’t our time

Nor was it the place

But I’ll never forget

Your sweet embrace

The Reference

When it is

I see

Her next

I’ll be sure

To let

Her know

How you’re

Passionate,

Funny

And kind

And how

It hurts

To let

You go

(Originally Posted 11.11.2021)

2

“The Inexorable March Of Time”

That day

Still comes

Every year

Despite

My avoidance

As it

Draws near

One Year Ago

If I
just
don’t
think
about
it

Then
maybe
that
day
won’t
come

I’m
just
not
sure
I can
face it

When
all
is
said
and
done

(Originally Posted 11.11.2019)

4

Of Biblical Proportions

You will reap

What you sow

Isn’t that what they say?

Well if that’s true

Then I promise you

There’s a fucking whirlwind

On the way

Penance

You’ll probably never see me again

And I’m quite happy with that

As it’s the very least you deserve

For being such an obnoxious twat

(Originally Posted 10.11.2019)

4

Puppy Love

Well I know exactly

What I think of you

All blotchy and balding

At forty two

Now I’m glad we split

At our old school gates

Back when I was seven

And you were eight

High School Reunions

I
wonder
what

You’d
think
of me
now

Fat,
forty
and
fucked

Would
you
still
love me
forever

Want
to be
together
whatever

Or be
thankful
for the
life
you
ducked

(Originally Posted 10.11.2020)

13

Self Improvement Isn’t Always Progress

I’ve really tried hard

These last few years

To become more authentic

But I fear in trying

To come out of hiding

I just look even more eccentric

‘Getting Away With It’

I’m
pretty
good
at it
now

Hiding
all
my
flaws

Thank
God
you
don’t
see

The
real
me

The
one
that’s
such a
fraud

(Originally Posted 09.11.2020)

8

No God Will Save You Then

Whatever will they think of you

All your fans and acolytes

Because they will find out

All about

What you would do to us at night

Enjoy My Silence

I’ll
say
it was
my
fault

I’ll
take
all
the
blame

Just to
protect
you
and
yours

From
feeling
this
terrible
shame

But
don’t
think
it’ll
last

As
I won’t
stay
quiet
forever

One day
I will
tell
the
truth

And
all ties
they
will
sever

(Originally Posted 09.11.2019)

19

(Un) Polished

If you want to know

My state of mind

On any given day

Just look at my nails

As they’ll tell the tale

Of how I’m feeling straight away

A Messy Job

Why oh why
did I try
to paint
my nails
on a train?

Never will
I attempt
such a
ridiculous
thing again!

(Originally Posted 09.11.2019)

2

Gaslit

This is what can happen

When you go into these things blind

Not only do they

Abuse your body

But they also fuck with your mind

Obviously Oblivious

Just
look
what
you’ve
done

She
said

You’ve
gone
and
broken
my
heart

Don’t
pretend
you
didn’t
know

He
said

That
this
would
happen
from
the
start

(Originally Posted 08.11.2019)

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Unhappily Ever After

I’ll never look on the bright side

Or see that glass half full

As my penchant for misery

Has now come to be

Very much dyed in the wool

‘Jealous Guy’

Some
days
I am
acutely
aware

That
you
have
much
more
fun
than
me

I
suppose
it’s
not
that
hard
to
believe

Given
my
penchant
for
misery

(Originally Posted 08.11.2020)

4

‘Rainy Days And Mondays’

I should really take

My own advice

And instead of all this droning

Pull myself together

Whatever the weather

And just stop fucking moaning

Worry Less

And
just
get
on
with
it

It’s
not
like
everyone
else

Isn’t
also
wading
through
shit

(Originally Posted 07.11.2020)

2

I Wouldn’t Have Bothered

After all those years

Of loving you

And trying my best

To understand

If only I knew

It would be you

Who’d be the one

To drop my hand

Me & You

Watch
me
and
you’ll
sense
it

Touch
me
and
you’ll
know

Tell
me
and
you’ll
feel
it

Hold
me
and
don’t
let go

(Originally Posted 07.11.2019)

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I’m Not Ashamed

That is how

It was back then

When I had no choice

But to rely on pills

One to find a way

To get through each day

And several more

To help me rebuild

Happy Pills

I think
we’ll
increase
your dose,

She
said,

To stop
you
feeling so
morose.

I’ll
easily
give it
a try,

I
said,

But I’m
pretty sure
the end
is nigh.

(Originally Posted 07.11.2019)

0

Changing The Scenery

The car is booked

My bags are packed

But I’m not yet sure

If I’m coming back

The Ends Of The Earth

I really
cannot
wait to
drive

All
along
that
rugged
coast

To
settle
in those
mountains

And
mourn
who
I miss
the most

Xxx

(Originally Posted 06.11.2020)

0

My Day In Court

You will do it

Again one day

Hurt someone else

In the same way

And when you do

I’ll be there to say

You deserve to hang

Without delay

Criminal

We all
do bad
things
sometimes

Yet not
everyone
is made
to pay

But while
you will
never
admit your
crimes

Just know
the truth
will out
one day

(Originally Posted 06.11.2019)

2

Terminated

Here I am stuck

In this carriage again

Honestly,

I could scream

I’m forever trying

To reach the end

Yet I always run out

Of steam

‘Forever Delayed’

Brought
to a
standstill

By leaves
on the
line ahead

Yet
another
signal
point
failure

Oh how
I wish
I’d stayed
in bed

(Originally Posted 05.11.2019)

2

Too Late Now

I don’t know how it’s happened

And I can’t even tell you why

But, it seems, I’ve grown old

In love with the wrong fucking guy

Set In Stone

Neither of
us knows

If the life
we chose

Will work out
for the best

(Originally Posted 05.11.2019)

0

Random #253

“What you really want is someone you can hang around with on a Sunday afternoon and watch a TV show with, and do nothing, and feel like it’s the most fun ever.”

– Aziz Ansari

2

Old Movies (2)

“Of all the gin joints
In all the world…
She walks into mine”

“I hope he doesn’t think
I came here for him
As I just fancied
A soda and lime”

Old Movies (1)

Come
death
come,
as fast
as you
can

As
frankly
my dear,
I don’t
give
a damn

(Originally Posted 04.11.2019)

6

Vanilla

After all

That playful promise

It is time for me

To be brutally honest

I’m glad we tried it

In the sack

But I’m leaving now

And I won’t be back

Closing Time

If a
nod

Is as
good

As a
wink

Then
me
and
you

Should
get
that
drink

And
finally
put

This
flirtatious
thing

Between
us
both

To
bed

(Originally Posted 04.11.2020)

3

An Unscalable Fence

After all that you

Put me through

You think a sorry will suffice

You’ve got no clue

Of what you’d need to do

For me to even think about playing nice

There’s No Excuse

It
didn’t
mean
a thing
back
then

And
it
certainly
doesn’t
now

So
you can
shove
your
apology

Up
your
arse

You
spiteful
little
cow

(Originally Posted 03/11/2020)

2

The Split

This is what, ultimately,

Was the cause of it all

When he’d reached the end

And I needed a friend

It wasn’t her I wanted to call

Not Everybody Hurts The Same

Privacy
is not
allowed,
it seems

When
you’re
trying
to grieve

People
get pissed
off,
it seems

If you don’t
wear your
heart on
your sleeve

(Originally Posted 03.11.2019)

4

Artificial Intelligence

If only we

Were like machines

Coded in black and white

We would be

Safe in our routines

And sleep far better at night

Outbid

Don’t
give
up,

The
email
reads,

You can
still get
what you
want.

Only an
automated
response,

I
believe,

Could
be so
nonchalant

(Originally Posted 02.11.2019)

2

Imploded

Concerning affairs

Of the heart

I was once a master

But when he died

I lost my mind

And now I’m a complete disaster

Ready To Implode

It
isn’t
you

That
I don’t
trust

Honestly,
it’s
me

My
mind
is

No
longer
robust
enough

To
deal
with

Such
trickery

(Originally Posted 02.11.2019)

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