I know
That I can’t
Use booze
To cope
As I crawl
To throw up
My last vestige
Of hope
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I know
That I can’t
Use booze
To cope
As I crawl
To throw up
My last vestige
Of hope
I don’t know
If all that’s true
But it’s nice to hear
Your point of view
It wasn’t written
In the stars
Or foretold through
Your wanky cards
It was just by chance
We met that day
And I wouldn’t have had it
Any other way
Xxx
After everything
Was said and done
And all those years
Had passed
I knew
I wasn’t
Your first love
But I was proud
To be your last
Xxx
I'm feeling down
And full of dread
I can't come in
I'm staying in bed
There’s no way
I could know
The depths of your hell
But I’ve known
My own
All too fucking well
Although you’ve talked
For a while
I’m not sure where
You’re going with this
But if you’re prepared
To take a shot
You’d better make sure
You don’t miss
It’s nice to see
How you are with me
Is in no way chauvinistic
But as for your chance
When it comes to romance
I wouldn’t be too optimistic
If only times
Were different
Then our lives
Could truly flourish
But as it is
This life is shit
With love like ours
Not encouraged
If the sun
And the moon
Cannot agree
Then fuck knows why
You’d ever ask me
As the punches roll
Time takes it’s toll
And I lose more
And more
Each day
I can’t be wrong
Thinking
It won’t be long
Before I fully
Fade away
Don’t
Ask me
Because
I don’t care
I’ve got better things
To do
Than my thoughts
To share
I must not
Have learned
From my last mistake
As I gave him
My heart
On a plate
Come back
Tomorrow
And try again
For I need
A lover
Not just a friend
It’s only now
On this
Winters night
That I wish
You were here
By my side
Keep your friends
Around
And your family
Close
As you never
Know when
You'll be left
Alone
Twinkle Twinkle
Little star
How utterly insignificant
Us fuckwits really are
If what you say
Proves to be true
Then I will give
Myself to you
But if what you say
Proves to be false
Then I’ll rip you apart
Without remorse
Thank fuck
She said
I’m getting away
I couldn’t take it
Another day
I’m so happy
He said
You’re visiting me
As I’ll help you forget,
Easily
There's no need
For you
To feel bad
To worry,
Or to fret
It's not like
You're "reminding me"
Because I
Could never forget
You say
That I intrigue you
As I’m pale
And interesting
Yet what I see
Is the reality
And that ain’t worth
A thing
Why can’t we let
Sleeping dogs lie
I don’t want to scream
Or start a fight
We should just agree
To disagree
And end this shit
Respectfully
You must have
Thought me stupid
Standing there,
Aghast
It’s just
I’d never thought
Of a ménage
Let alone à trois
I’ll never forget
You sat with me
When I was as sad
As sad could be
And even though
You didn’t agree
You just let me talk
And made me tea
If
One day
You should
Read this
Just know
Each minute
With you
Was bliss
Xxx
Trudging on, acceptingly
Wading through life’s shit
I realise, objectively
That I’m worth more than this
Slowly
I walk
Along
The bridge
Resisting
The urge
To jump
But
I feel
The ringing
In my ears
And my heart
Begin
To thump
Now
I have felt
This way
Before
And
I recognise
The slump
So I go
In search
Somewhere
Else
For these
Feelings
To dump
As life
Moves on
And time
Goes by
It gnaws
At my soul
Whilst bleeding
Me dry
All that
Effort
All that
Stress
And still
You looked
Like a hot
Fucking mess
But whether
They noticed
Your distress
Or even
Cared
Is anyone’s
Guess
It really does
Beggar belief
How much
There is
To learn
About grief
It is
As if
After all
This time
You have
Forgotten
What's
Rightfully
Mine
When all around me
Is falling to shit
I let my stomach hurt
And my sides split
Because I know whatever
Is in my path
Is best to be greeted
With a fucking laugh
To be honest
Most folks
Are doing
What you do
Just trying
Their best
To make
It through
So please
Don’t believe
All that
Bullshit’s true
Because, trust me,
It’s not all
About you
I remember,
Once,
He asked me
How I cope
With all these trials
I just use the darkest
Of humours,
I said,
Along with
The wryest of smiles
I know
We all
Like
To moan
But you need
To give it
A rest
Some of us
Are out here
Saving lives
And not
Just PDF’s
Are you sure
You had
“The time
Of your life”
Because,
Believe me,
Your face
Said otherwise
As for your bid
To outdo me
I could not care
One jot
And if you think
I’m green with envy
I can assure you
I am not
You need to try
He said
And find
Some peace
I’ll only get that
She said
When I am
Deceased
It wasn’t
That I
Am frigid
Or disinterested
In scoring
But your attempts
To flirt
Were insipid
And your chat,
Pretty boring
Waking up
This morning
To his
Promises
Of change
Yet unable
To shake
The feeling
That he’ll
Fuck it up
Again
I know you think
Your little ditty
Conveys sincerity
And depth
But your face
Is far too
To have
The desired effect
All that
Worry
And constant
Stress
Never made
Me love you
Any less
Xxx
Of all
The things
I've known
To be true
I'd say one
Is the spark
Between me
And you
Stay where
You are
And hold
Them tight
For there
Be creatures
That stalk
The night
Not here
She said
Let’s do this
In private
We can’t count,
After all,
On the dead
Staying quiet
Like eager young lovers
We were star-crossed
In paradise, it seemed
But at what cost?
As I lie here
Watching
Him snore
I can’t help
But feel
I’ve been here
Before
As the juice
Runs down
My fingers
Those feelings
Diffuse
Yet the malady
Lingers
I knew as soon
As we touched
All wasn’t
What it seemed
Yet it still hurt
My heart
When I woke
With a start
To realise
It was a dream
I can see
You look
At my beer
So put down
Your book
And get
Over here
Eyes wide
Head turned
Tongue sharp
Fingers burnt
Do you think
It helps
He said
Writing these wry
Little observations
Well, I would
Rather that
She said
Than suffer
Endless conversations
The decision
Was harder
When I thought
People cared
Now I know
They’re indifferent
I’m not
Even scared
I wanted
Your hands
To feel
Like his
To have one
More night
Of unbridled
Bliss
But as soon
As we touched
Let alone
Kissed
I knew
From now on
It would feel
Like this
There’s no need
For anything fancy
Or to reinvent
The wheel
Because it won’t be
What you say to me
But how
You make me feel
I’m glad that I
Went out tonight
And had myself
A jolly old time
I know it didn’t
Set alight
Your social life
But it certainly
Fired up mine
You said it was summer
He said
But all I’ve seen
Is rain
Welcome to the North East
She said
Where two days
Are never the same
I know
That we
Have
Hardly
Spoken
But my
Insides
Are now
Broken
And what
Is left
Merely
A token
Of the
Woman
I used to be
As I sit here
And nurse
My beer
Full of sorrow
And regret
I realise
I’ve never
Loved anyone
As much as
The man
I’ve never met
From the rankest bottom
Of my deepest recess
I hope and I pray
For your utter distress
As there is no way
You could ever contest
Your actions don’t lie
At the heart of this mess
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