To Be Implored

Come once more

Into the darkness

Where we fellow heathens dwell

We’ll speak of our ills

And contemplate our thrills

As we cast out our spell

End Credits

Is that
it now

She
said

Can we
go back?

As I want
nothing more

Than to fade
to black

(Originally Posted 26.04.2020)

5

Cones

But there comes

A point

When enough

Is enough

Circles

Enough of you
is
too much

Too much of you
is
never enough

(Originally Posted 25.04.2019)

11

It’s Not Rocket Science

You should start a diary

He said

And we can talk it through next week

I’ve been keeping one for years

She said

If you’d like to sneak a peek

‘What’s Good For The Goose…’

Just write it down

He said

How hard can it be

But he had never encountered

Someone as fucked up as me

(Originally Posted 25.04.2020)

2

I Am Now

I do not look

Over my shoulder

For I am brave

I am bolder

You will not beat me

Any longer

Because I am better

I am stronger

Yearning

Time passes

Like a dream

In my mind

As I remember

Everything

I’ve left behind

(Originally Posted 25.04.2020)

6

Her Spiritual Home

She went to Glasgow

On Friday there

And was amazed at how much

She remembered

She intrinsically knew

She would live there again

Just as they had both intended

Head Over Heels

She
once
asked

Have
you
got a
light?

Then
never
went
home

After
that
night

(Originally Posted 24.04.2020)

7

tEXting

Why bother saying in person

When you can say in a text

You don’t want to get

Back together

It’s just that you want sex

You’ll Need To Do Better Than That

Don’t
get me
wrong or
anything

It was
nice
to hear
from
you

But
you’ve
done
nothing
at all
to make
me believe

That
your
intentions
are true

(Originally Posted 24.04.2020)

2

In The Next Life

My only wish

Is to see you again

As I really do miss you,

My friend

Maybe One Day

My body
decays
and

My mind
forgets
but

My heart
desires
and

My soul
awakens

(Originally Posted 23.04.2019)

4

Divorce

I know you don’t
Want to live with me
But I hope one day
You can forgive me
For all that I
Have done and said
Since the day we met
And after we wed

Love Or Hate

It’s
hard
to
know
which
is
which

When
you
can
be
such
a
bitch

(Originally Posted 23.04.2020)

2

Random #191

“The biggest musical influence on me was my mum. We were both enraptured by music.”

– Johnny Marr

2

Fantasy Land

Why can’t it be
Like it is on TV
Where everyone lives happily

Ever after

Slap And Tickle

I
have
tried to
move on

My
feelings
for you
to shelve

But
it seems
when push
comes to
shove

I just
can’t
help
myself

(Originally Posted 22.04.2020)

4

Plastic Forks

No more fish and chips for you

Or a macaroni pie for me

It’s not the same

On my own

Sitting here by the sea

Bank Holidays

Days off
are always
difficult.

There’s
so much more
time to fill,
without you.

So many
memories
of what we
used to do.

At least
at work, I
get paid
to be
miserable.

(Originally Posted 22.04.2019)

8

‘Suffer The Children’

Forever

She replied

You deserve eternal damnation

For what you have tried to hide

Upon The Cross

How long

Must I wait

For salvation?

(Originally Posted 21.04.2020)

6

Overrated

Please do not look upon me

With your pity and dismay

For this last few years

Have taught me

Feelings aren’t shit anyway

Blackout

I
don’t
want
to feel
better

I
don’t
want
to feel
at all

(Originally Posted 21.04.2020)

3

Best Laid Plans

Life will never be linear

He said

The path won’t always be straight

The trick is to just hold on

He said

And try your best to navigate

Trauma

But
you
were
doing
so well

He
said

I
don’t
quite
understand

Coming
back
from
hell

She
said

Doesn’t
always
go to
plan

(Originally Posted 20.04.2020)

5

Should’ve Used Housebricks

You lived to see another day

He said

Why aren’t you happy about that

Because I had made my choice

She said

And in the end my plan fell flat

Lifeline

The rubber ring
floats
towards me.

Thank you
for throwing
it down.

But I have
no desire
to grab it.

The rocks
in my pocket
are all
I need.

(Originally Posted 20.04.2019)

14

Saying So Myself

Perhaps

I’m not so bad

At this poetry lark

After all

Interlude

Time has dragged on today

Even more than most

It started off quite well too

Sitting down with tea and toast

But then the clock seemed to stop

At some point this afternoon

When opening up my laptop

Did nothing to lift the gloom

And as the evening drew itself in

I have sat here all alone

Thouroughly bored in my own skin

Barely stifling a groan

So now I guess I’ll go to bed

And lie there on my own

Until the clock stops in my head

And I dream in monochrome

(Originally Posted 20.04.2020)

11

‘How You Doin’?’

A line once stolen

From a show on TV

Reworked and rewritten

Now belongs to me

Transgressions

In the beginning

I would always try

To be as honest as I could be

But in the end I fell

So far from the truth

That the line was a dot to me

(Originally Posted 19.04.2021)

11

Reading Out Loud

Although there is

A lot to be said

For these stream of consciousness pieces

There is a case to be made

For punctuation

As the ability to breathe decreases

Haste Ye Back

Something tells me this won’t be our last as you realise you want me and return so fast to where my arms do so openly await as we slowly allow that twist of fate to keep us ensconced together forever come hell or high water whatever the weather as the love we make is all we need for our hearts to open and minds to be freed

(Originally Posted 19.04.2020)

12

The Watershed

OK, perhaps not quite meaningless

But certainly everything changed

And though life now may be

Somewhat better for me

That numbness has definitely remained

All Surface, No Meaning

When you died,
My world stopped turning.

When you took your last breath,
My life became meaningless.

As the ongoing battle towards my own death continues,
I’m numb to everything and everyone.

I trudge along…

Feigning my interest,
Forging my desire,
Faking my love.

(Originally Posted 18.04.2019)

13

Sickly Sweet

Oh isn’t young love a dream

Isn’t it so fucking cute

Like a cat who got all the cream

Reading this, I want to puke

Favourites

Tell me your favourite song
And I’ll play it.

Show me your favourite book
And I’ll read it.

Tell me your favourite film
And I’ll watch it.

Show me your favourite shirt
And I’ll wear it.

Tell me I’m your favourite
And I’ll love you.

Forever.

(Originally Posted 18.04.2019)

20

‘Life Is Unfair’

It hurts almost as much

To see how sad I was

As it does

To remember you

Reminders

It’s when it comes from nowhere,
that’s the worst.

The hysterical sobs that hit without warning.

When I’m driving and our song comes on the radio.
When a letter arrives and it’s addressed to you.
When I find a pair of your socks in my drawer.

My throat constricts,
as my lungs compress.

My stomach lurches,
as my heart laments.

And my eyes burn as I drown, slowly, in my own tears.

(Originally Posted 18.04.2019)

6

My Saviour

Thank God you came over

She said

I was starting to get bored

Now the real fun begins

He said

Of that you can rest assured

With A Twist

Is
it
too
early
to start
drinking

She
asked

As
this
is
too
much
to bear

That’s
exactly
what
I was
thinking

He
said

As
he
pulled
up a
chair

(Originally Posted 17.04.2020)

3

‘Modern Life Is Rubbish’

Now

I am just

Still

Every Day

Still hoping,
Still waiting,
Still holding,
Still wanting.

Still thinking,
Still grieving,
Still trying,
Still giving.

Still caring,
Still feeling,
Still crying,
Still fighting.

Still breathing,
Still living,
Still believing,
Still loving.

(Originally Posted 17.04.2019)

9

The Firing Line

Dodging bullets

Since 1980

And showing no signs of stopping

The Loaded Gun

Time marches on
As I come undone
And my memories fade further away.

I try to hold on,
To ignore the gun
And trudge through yet another day.

(Originally Posted 16.04.2019)

4

‘Some Kind Of Bliss’

So now we’ve disappeared

He said

What do you propose we do next

Absolutely fuck all

She said

Let’s just enjoy the rest

Off Grid

So
what
is your
plan

He
asked

Where
do we
go from
here?

I
haven’t
got a
clue

She
said

Shall
we
just
disappear?

(Originally Posted 16.04.2020)

2

More Secrets

I’ve been trying so hard

To be honest with you

To believe what I say

And mean what I do

But as I have struggled

This I know to be true

I must always and forever

Fake it with you

For You

I’ll smile today, for you.
But I won’t mean it.

I’ll laugh today, for you.
But I won’t feel it.

I’ll fake it every day, for you.
But you’ll never know it.

(Originally Posted 16.04.2019)

8

Random #190

‘You know I’m born to lose
And gambling’s for fools
But that’s the way I like it baby
I don’t wanna live for ever!’

5

Random #189

“Life becomes a habit. You get up, dress, eat, go tae work, clock in etcetera etcetera automatically, and think about nothing but the pay packet on Friday and the booze-up last Saturday. Life’s easy when you’re a robot.”

– Alasdair Gray

3

The Edge Of The World

It’s been a while

Since I’ve been up there

And for that I am glad

As I know next time

I climb those steps

I won’t ever be coming back

Indecision

It’s a long way to the bottom
from all the way up here.

As I stand and shiver
I can’t help but think…

What happens if I change my mind
halfway down?

(Originally Posted 15.04.2019)

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