With medications
To administer
And all those wounds
To dress
I think I said
Goodbye to you
Before you even left
Xxx
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
With medications
To administer
And all those wounds
To dress
I think I said
Goodbye to you
Before you even left
Xxx
I stand at the window
Waiting to see you get off
But the bus whistles past
Without needing to stop
Because, of course,
You never got on
As I remember, with force,
That you are gone
Xxx
I see you,
You know,
For what you are
A puppeteer
Pulling strings from afar
Thinking your little tricks
I won’t dare to mention
When all you’re doing
Is drawing my attention
To the fact
That you’re a cunt
Although
We’ve spent
The night
Together
We’ll forever be
Apart
For your body
May well
Have given
Me pleasure
But you’ll
Never have
My heart
There’s no use
In contemplation
Or any sense
In looking back
All there is
Is madness
That belongs firmly
In the past
Frozen with fear
In the dead of night
I shed a tear
And hold on tight
As I pray to you
To see me through
Hoping this time
You’ll hear my plight
They say
He made us
In his own likeness
So why the fuck
Didn’t he do
The same
With kindness
The problem with me
Is you
I don’t think
You were hiding
But you just genuinely
Didn’t know
When I would ask
“How are you feeling”
About
The impending blow
I’m back
She cried
With renewed vigour
As they
Looked away
With a comical snigger
We’ve heard it
Before
They all said
As she
Stood there
And shook her head
This time
It’s true
I’ll have
Your guts!
But deep down
She knew
What a fool
She looked
It doesn’t matter
What you say
Because however much
You try
Nothing will ever
Hurt me now
As I am dead
Inside
Life is better
He said
Than it was
Your progress
You can’t deny
That doesn’t mean
She said
I don’t still dream
Of stabbing you
In the eye
It all happened
In a flash
And now
I know
There’s no
Going back
If love was permanent
And grief temporal
Perhaps I’d feel safe
And less conjectoral
Inspired by Cassa Bassa at flickerofthoughts.com
Not only
She said
Do I miss you
But on days
Like this
I miss me too
After all
The heartache
And the pain
You put me through
I don’t just need
To forgive you
But I want to forget you
Too
Why don’t you come along
They said
We’re going for coffee and cake
To force such joy upon me
She said
Would only be a mistake
I always knew
That kissing you
Would be
My biggest regret
The problem I saw
Hours before
Either of us
Got into bed
Don’t be scared
He said
Now you’ve shared
I’ll keep your secret
‘Til the end
If they ever found out
She said
I’m not that devout
I fear chaos
Would descend
I will do
All I can
Every day
To make you smile
For seeing you happy
However sappy
Just makes everything
Worthwhile
It took me a while
To realise it
However, it seems,
I’m built for this shit
Lacking in motivation
Devoid of all desire
Wondering if salvation
Is in the funeral pyre
Some days
I feel ok
And how I present
Is true
But on other days
This deep malaise
Makes faking it
Too hard to do
I just couldn’t say
Sorry back then
Though I’m ready
To say it now
My only wish
Is that you weren’t
Such a bitch
Who will act
All holier-than-thou
Now that all
The talking’s done
And those strategies
Have been deployed
It is time to face
The reality
I’ve tried so hard
To avoid
Sometimes
I regret
What I said
And how often
I showed you
The door
As it never seemed
To matter
How your heart
Was shattered
You’d always
Come back
For more
What do you do
When times get tough
And the love you have
Just isn’t enough
When you can’t see a way
Through all this stuff
And you’re both now stranded
In the rough
Having realised that
When all’s said and done
There is no such thing
As a hole in one
With those beautiful eyes
And winning smile
It should be no surprise
We’ll be here a while
Tongue tied
Dead inside
Lying
On my bed of nails
Forever lonely
Seeing true love only
In films
And fairy tales
We don’t have
To decide tonight
We can talk
Again tomorrow
Let’s not allow
The dying light
To lead us both
Back into sorrow
Paranoia can be
Our best friend
As it often saves us
In the end
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