Writing The Book On Grief

Now it’s just over

Four years for me

And although

I’ve learned a lot

I still couldn’t claim

I know enough to explain

Or even to give it

A decent shot


Bereavement

Just
when
I think
I’ve got
no tears
left

They
fall
down
my
face
again

Why
the fuck
didn’t
someone
tell
me

How
to
prepare
for all
this
pain

(Originally Posted 19.02.2020)

Trust Me

Hold your partner

Close today

Show them your love

In every way

Because when all this

Is said and done

You’ll fucking miss them

When they’re gone

Xxx


‘Wishing I Was Lucky’

Forever
destined
to be
cold
and
lonely

As
I have
lost
my
one
and
only

Xxx

(Originally Posted 14.02.2020)

‘Rainy Days And Mondays’

I should really take

My own advice

And instead of all this droning

Pull myself together

Whatever the weather

And just stop fucking moaning


Worry Less

And
just
get
on
with
it

It’s
not
like
everyone
else

Isn’t
also
wading
through
shit

(Originally Posted 07.11.2020)

Premium Rate Advice

I can only hope

I find some worth in it

Given that you charge

50p a minute


Helpline

On the
day I
summon
the courage
to call

I know
you’ll be
there to
break
my fall

(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)

Take It From One Who Knows

You really have to stop hoping

She said

That all of this will end

To think you’ll ever be free

She said

Really is madness my friend


Sunrise

I woke
up crying
again today

So much so
I struggled
to breathe

How much
longer must
I endure this?

When is
there an end
to this grief

(Originally Posted 18.09.2019)

I Tried To Warn You

She never did see it

And now you’re apart

You have been left

With wounds that smart

If only you’d listened

To my remark

You could’ve saved yourself

The broken heart


You Deserve More

I wish you
could see
yourself with a
different view

And know
there are so
many things to
love about you

My only hope
is that she
will see it
again soon too

Then perhaps
you could both
just stop
making do

(Originally Posted 17.09.2019)

A Digital Death

You should be given a manual

For when your loved one dies

Not just on how to cope with grief

But practical advice

There’s so many things you have to do

When you’re under all that pressure

It’s no wonder some things are forgotten

And then they’re lost, forever


I Should Have Done It Back Then

The last link

Has been ripped away

Our final tether

Is severed

And all I can hear

Is your voice

Telling me

That I really should’ve done better

Xxx

My Unhappy Place

Not only is my bed

Still a blessed sanctuary

But back then,

Believe you me,

It was entirely fucking necessary


Fear

I’m
going
back
to bed

It’s
not
worth
staying
awake

From
these
thoughts
in my
head

I need a
fucking
break

(Originally Posted 04.04.2020)

I Know Now

And here I lie

My heart still broken

Knowing this to be

The truest word I’ve spoken


Who Knew

I’d never realised
the word heartbreak
was meant literally,
until now

(Originally Posted 04.04.2019)

Arid

I remember people telling me

My emotions would return

That the numbness I felt

Would resolve itself

And I shouldn’t

Be too concerned

But I knew

Right from the off

That it was the end for me

My well had run dry

And I’d said goodbye

To who I used to be

So although now

I may joke

To those same people

About how

I am ‘dead inside’

I’ve never been more certain

Of its truth

And from that

There’s nowhere to hide


Tributary

The love
I once
had to
give

Ran so
deep
and
wide

But now,
it seems,
the river
is dry

As I’m
all but
dead
inside

(Originally Posted 03.04.2020)

Don’t Ask Me

What would you do

If it was you

Would you risk it

Even though

You could lose

I have no idea

What I’d do here

So thank fuck

I don’t

Have to choose

The Plea That Went Unheard

They do not like me Jesus

He said

What am I supposed to do

If you teach me one of your tricks

Perhaps some friends might then ensue

I cannot help you friend

He said

For those tricks are mine alone

You must find your own way

Even if it means a lifetime alone

Well Meaning

I was thinking

Earlier on today

How it really

Would be nice

To go at least

One day

Without

Your bullshit advice

Hard To Believe

When you find

It’s a struggle to cope

When it feels

Like you’ve lost all hope

Remember and try

To just hold on

For there will be

Better days to come

Like Looking In A Mirror

It’s sad that you have to endure

The same shit that I did

Remarks about your skin colour hurt

Especially when you’re a kid

Just know that you’re amazing

As you’re growing day by day

You’ll always be the better person

No matter what they say

One Tap Away (Friends)

If ever you need someone

You don’t have to worry

As I’ll be there

Like a shot

Please never question

If you can call me

As I’d rather listen to you

Than not

Bloodbath

I didn’t ask for your opinion

In fact you’ve got a cheek

Now kindly piss off

You supercilious toff

Or I’ll knock you into next week

My Advice

Do as I say 
Not as I do

I wouldn't
want this pain

Inflicted
on you

(Originally Posted 10.03.2019)

 

Paranoia

It’s heartfelt
praise, but
I know
your ways.

How uncomfortable
you are
to see,
just how
miserable I
can be.

I’m sorry
I no
longer make
you smile.

For that
you’ll need
to wait
a while.

Until then,
just keep
telling me
I’ll make
it through.

And I’ll
keep on
whispering
fuck you.

(Originally Posted 10.05.2019)

No Matter What?

How
long
will
you

Be
here
for
me

When
your
own
tradegy
strikes

What
will
happen

To
our
love

When
your
reality
bites?

Real Talk

It
hurts
my
heart

To
hear
you
cry

And
watch
you
break

Like
this

As
your
life

Falls
apart

And
you
stare

Into
the
abyss

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