Stuck

I know it comes evey year

Yet I’m still no more prepared

As much as I try

I’m still left high and dry

With any chance to move on impaired

That Day

I’m scared
of what
that day
will bring,

As I
know it’s
approaching
fast.

Even if
it’s the
start of
my future,

There’s no
way of
forgetting
my past.

(Originally Posted 05.09.2019)

05/09/2022 0

What Should Have Been

Twenty two years

Just me and you

Sitting on the sofa

With wine and food

But it’s not to be

As you’re three years gone

So any romance today

Just feels wrong

Xxx

14/02/2022 12

Random #146

‘I’ve fallen down another rung of the ladder, and I know I’ve got a fight on my hands‘

– Sean Hughes

03/12/2021 7

Random #145

“I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery – air, mountains, trees, people. I thought: “This is what it is to be happy.”

― Sylvia Plath

02/12/2021 6

Letting You Go

I really did love you, you know

I wish I’d told you so before

And now you’re gone

Nothing can be done

But to regret it

Forevermore

Xxx

02/12/2021 10

Random #144

‘I get along without you very well,
Of course I do.
Except perhaps in spring.
But I should never think of spring,
For that would surely break my heart in two’

01/12/2021 7

Random #143

‘The Young Man came to the Old Man seeking counsel.

I broke something, Old Man.

How badly is it broken?

It’s in a million little pieces.

I’m afraid I can’t help you.

Why?

There’s nothing you can do.

Why?

It can’t be fixed.

Why?

It’s broken beyond repair. It’s in a million little pieces.’

– James Frey

01/12/2021 0

Six Years Ago

Walk down the aisle with me?

She said

The bakery aisle, that is

I thought you were being serious

He said

And my heart just skipped a beat

Xxx

01/12/2021 16

The Death Of Me

Nearly twenty years together

And what do I have to show

Just a blackened heart

Now we’re three years apart

And sadness the status quo

Xxx

01/12/2021 9

Not A Material Girl

I wouldn’t thank you

For diamonds

And I don’t care

About pearls

I couldn’t give

Less of a shit

For all the stars

In the world

I just want you

Back here with me

If only

For a minute

For my life

Has lost it’s sparkle

Without you

Still in it

Xxx

01/12/2021 7

‘Dreams Are Just Dreams’

I always thought

We’d empty the bucket

Before you actually

Kicked it

Xxx

01/12/2021 19

Queen Of The Damned

I guess I should be better now

Is that what you’re trying to say

I should be all sweetness and light

Having locked the darkness away

Well I’m sorry to disappoint you

But that’s not how this shit works

Time doesn’t heal all wounds

In fact it makes it worse

See whilst the world moves itself on

I fall further and further behind

For the pain of his loss is lifelong

And to that I am resigned

Xxx

19/11/2021 9

#16 The Friend

Today is going to be hard,

I know,

But that is why I’m here.

To eat, drink and smoke

With you

And wipe away your tears.

Xxx

07/09/2021 17

#15 The Lighthouse Keeper

It’s better that I’m alone

With only the sound of the sea

Living up here is, after all,

Where I was always meant to be

Xxx

07/09/2021 21

The Claret Box

I know what this date means

Even if very few other people do

That’s why I’ll find a way

At some point today

To sit and remember you

Xxx

17/06/2021 23

Ain’t Life Grand

We 
only
really 
reached 
halfway 

When
you
went 
and
died 
on me

Now
what 
was
once
bright 
is grey

As 
I deal 
with 
life's
debris

02/12/2020 6

Moments

This is why

I’m still alive

To be here

In moments like this

When all the pieces

Fit together

For these few seconds of bliss

Xxx

01/12/2020 12

Ping

Your final post

Flashed up today, as a memory

And although just a notification

It meant so much more to me

Xxx

20/11/2020 16

The Ends Of The Earth

I really
cannot
wait to
drive

All
along
that
rugged
coast

To
settle
in those
mountains

And
mourn
who
I miss
the most

Xxx

06/11/2020 10

All That Once Was

It
was so
much
better

When
you
were
here

Holding
you
close

Pulling
you
near

Now
all
that
once
was

Has
gone
away

I’m
left
here
alone

And
that’s
not
OK

Xxx