I write a bit
Now you know
Nothing special
Or much to show
But just enough
To get me though
And show how much
I still miss you
Our Spot
You took my hand
As we crossed the sand
And I knew then
What I still know now
That’s why I come back here
Every year
To talk to you again
Out loud
Getting On With The Job
Why should they rememeber
He said
Every year
When you never even talk
About him here
Well, it’s not like they cared
She said
In the first fucking place
Back when the pain was still written
All over my face
Conversations With The Devil
I don’t care if it’s now
I don’t care if it’s later
Because now I know
Which way you’ll go
On the day you meet your maker
The Reckoning
If you
can’t
bear
to see
the hurt
you’ve
caused
Then
feel
free
to
look
away
For
I know
that
guilt
will
fuck
you up
And
you’ll
face
the
truth
one day
(Originally Posted 28.02.2020)
Lighter (Bonus Post)
Well thank fuck for that
She said
As she walked away
With her empty head
Fair And Square
One
thousand
poems
And I am
finally
done
This
battle is
now over
And my
war has
been won
(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)
Irreparable
Yet after all
That pushing
And shoving
Saying sorry
Actually
Changes nothing
‘All Apologies’
One down,
A thousand to go.
This shit is harder
Than it looks,
You know.
(Originally Posted 28.02.2020)
The Powder Keg (Bonus Post)
Neither of us
Can speak the truth
As both of us have
Too much to lose
In(sin)cerity
You claim
that
you
have
got it
rough
Well
on that
I call
bullshit
As I’m
the one
who’s
doing
it tough
You
fucking
hypocrite
(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)
Thinking Out Loud (Bonus Post)
I watch you from
Across the room
And see your face fill
With dread
If only you
Could see what I do
And quiet that voice
Inside your head
Internal Monologue
What the fuck
is wrong with you?
Just cheer up,
you miserable cunt
Your wallowing
is excruciating
And your self
pity an affront
(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)
Glee
It wasn’t really
What you did
That was so cold hearted
And ruthless
It was the look of pride
In your eyes
That I always found
The cruellest
E(strange)d
You can say
what you want
But you’re
still a cunt
Your actions
I cannot forgive
For I’ll bear
the brunt
Of your
audacious stunt
For as long as
we both shall live
(Originally Posted 28.02.2020)
In Retrospect
That’s the problem
With the past
As humans,
We tend to rose tint it
When in actual fact
If we really look back
It wasn’t quite like
How we wished it
Misrepresentation
The old days
Weren’t that good
Trust me,
I remember
(Originally Posted 27.02.2020)
“The Last Cowboy”
They say that art
Mirrors life
And my case
That was true
I decided
To stay with him
When I should
Have chosen you
Somewhere In Madison County
With one
hand
pressed
against
the door
I try
to work
out who
I love
more
And in
that split
second
I decide
to stay
I
throw
my chance
of happiness
away
(Originally Posted 27.02.2020)
Unhealthy Pursuits
Perhaps I should climb
A mountain
Or sail off
On a round the cruise
Anything to relieve
This having to grieve
After all,
What have I got to lose?
‘I Could Be Wrong / I Could Be Right…’
The
pressure
is on
to find
meaning
In
this so
called
life of
mine
But
I just
can’t
help but
feeling
That
it’s a
total
waste
of time
(Originally Posted 27.02.2020)
Easy Prey
It’s not
That you have
The audacity
To wear
My doorbell thin
It’s more
The fact
That I’m powerless
To act
And can’t help
But let you in
‘… Such Sweet Sorrow’
Every
time
we
say
goodbye
I wish
that
you
would
stay
For
another
part
of my
soul is
crushed
Each
time
you
walk
away
(Originally Posted 27.02.2020)
A Lost Cause
I know you think
You can change me
That your kindness
Will be enough
But trust me when I say
There’s been too much decay
For my heart to be capable
Of love
Bad Seed
I
wish
there
was a
way
To
make
you
see
That
good
boys
like
you
Aren’t
for
bad
girls
like me
(Originally Posted 26.02.2020)
Animal Wrongs
Fuck knows why
I picked a zoo
I couldn’t think
Of anything worse
Starting something
Amid such abuse
Could only prove
To be a curse
Swipe Right
How’s
about
it
Just
us
two
Fancy
a
walk
Visit
the
zoo
Get
a
beer
Eat
some
food
Spend
the
night
Being
terribly
rude
(Originally Posted 25.02.2020)
Stark
Sometimes,
As a writer,
All that you can do
Is to drop
The flowery language
And just tell
The fucking truth
In Memoriam
There is nothing
Left to do
There isn’t anything
Else to say
I just really
Fucking miss him
Every single day
Xxx
(Originally Posted 25.02.2022)
Lying In Wait
The rope
Is in
The bin
For now
Having given
That monster
A swerve
But it’s safe
To assume
I can’t give him
Any room
As he’ll have
Kept some back
In reserve
Try Harder Next Time
The monster who lives
Under my bed
Whispers again
Why aren’t you dead
Berating me
For writing instead
And putting the rope
Back in the shed
(Originally Posted 24.02.2021)
The Lady Killer
Don’t think you can come
Crawling back now
Acting all innocent
And holier than thou
You and I both know
What you did back then
And why, in effect,
I’d wring your neck
Time and time again
Let It Burn
I have killed us
Once before
And I will happily
Do it again
For I am
No longer
In love with you
In fact we’re
Not even friends
(Originally Posted 24.02.2022)
Sea Legs
Now I can take
Longer strokes
And can draw
Bigger breaths
Perhaps one day
I’ll swim away
And escape
These murky depths
(Compass)ion
It must
be so easy
for you
Loving
your life
as you do
But spare a
thought for
the likes of me
Who drown
in a sea of
melancholy
(Originally Posted 23.02.2020)
Relocation
It wasn’t that
After our spat
I just put up
The ‘no vacancies’ sign
But I sold the whole
B & B
And left all your bullshit
Behind
No Vacancies
I don’t
want you
to visit
When all
you bring
is pain
I’d rather
stay home
alone
And break
this toxic
chain
(Originally Posted 23.02.2020)
Wednesdays Aren’t Much Better
I eat
I drink
I sleep
I breathe
But with
Very little else
Inbetween
I Fucking Hate Tuesdays
Trudging through this half a life
Really just subsisting
Knowing I’d be
Better off dead
Than merely just existing
(Originally Posted 22.02.2022)
Broken Promises
The fool and her heart
Were very soon parted
As he couldn’t finish
What he started
Unkept
You said
To me
You’d always
Be true
Yet it’s clear
That forever
Meant fuck all
To you
(Originally Posted 22.02.2021)
Now Made Of Stone
To think I was ever
This pathetic
Leaves me
Open mouthed
And aghast
It certainly took
Some toughening up
But at least now
That nonsense
Has passed
My Dark Heart
Although
my descent
into
madness
Has
torn
my soul
apart
Underneath
all of
this
sadness
I’m still
a romantic
at heart
(Originally Posted 22.02.2020)
Having My Way
I can try
To distract myself
Go to bed
And turn off the light
But I know full well
There’s no chance in hell
I won’t be calling him
Tonight
‘You Spin Me (Right Round)’
With
your
smile so
appealing
And
your
humility
endearing
I cannot
help
but get
feeling
You
won’t
be
home
alone
This
evening
(Originally Posted 21.02.2020)
Re-traumatisation Is Re-al
You can stop
Telling me
That it helps
To talk about
This shit
As you have
No notion
Of why
I’ve chosen
To keep
A lid on it
The Shrink
The
pain
is
buried
so
deep
She
said
I
don’t
think
it’ll
ever
re-surface
Then
we
should
leave
it
where
it is
He
said
Breaking
your
heart
(again)
isn’t
worth
it
(Originally Posted 21.02.2020)
The Smoking Shelter
It’s amazing
The people
You can meet
When you’re standing
Outside
On the street
They make you
Instantly
Lose control
As, with ease,
They stare
Into your soul
Cutting Through The Bullshit
I’m
not
really
crying
She
said
Honestly
things
are
fine
You
can’t
kid a
kidder
He
said
Now,
please,
come
back
to mine
(Originally Posted 20.02.2020)
Your Alloted Time Slot
You must start moving on
My friend
As it won’t be long
Until the end
And when you look back
You’ll rue the day
That you gave all
Of your time away
Overheard
All
you
do is
bitch
and
moan
And
I listen,
with
a sigh
For you
can’t
seem
to see
what
I do
That’s
your
life,
passing
you by
(Originally Posted 20.02.2020)
Writing The Book On Grief
Now it’s just over
Four years for me
And although
I’ve learned a lot
I still couldn’t claim
I know enough to explain
Or even to give it
A decent shot
Bereavement
Just
when
I think
I’ve got
no tears
left
They
fall
down
my
face
again
Why
the fuck
didn’t
someone
tell
me
How
to
prepare
for all
this
pain
(Originally Posted 19.02.2020)
All You Need To Know
I know I’d suggested
Greeting cards
But as I see the humour in this
Perhaps I’d be more suited
To writing less convoluted
Patient information leaflets
The Human Rattle
Take
these
pills
To
cure
your
ills
And
mend
your
broken
heart
They’ll
give
you
chills
And
delay
your
thrills
But at
least
it’ll
be a
start
(Originally Posted 18.02.2020)
Believing
How I remember
Feeling this way
That nothing again
Would be OK
But now I’ve got
Some feeling back
I see a glimmer of hope
Through the crack
Grieving
Are you
sure it’s
gone
He
said
What
about
love
Compassion?
Make
no
mistake
She
said
I’ve
lost
it all
Her
face,
as it was,
ashen
(Originally Posted 18.02.2020)
Premature
I know your heart’s
In the right place
And that deep down
You mean well
But your good intentions
Mean nothing
While I’m trapped
In this hell
Two Cents Worth
It will get better with time
They lied
Before my tears
Had even dried
(Originally Posted 18.02.2020)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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