Neither of us
Can speak the truth
As both of us have
Too much to lose
In(sin)cerity
You claim
that
you
have
got it
rough
Well
on that
I call
bullshit
As I’m
the one
who’s
doing
it tough
You
fucking
hypocrite
(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Neither of us
Can speak the truth
As both of us have
Too much to lose
In(sin)cerity
You claim
that
you
have
got it
rough
Well
on that
I call
bullshit
As I’m
the one
who’s
doing
it tough
You
fucking
hypocrite
(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)
I don’t think
I’m entirely blameless
I’m not that
Self absorbed
Or shameless
But it wasn’t my doing
Nor was it my fault
That things came to such
To an abrupt halt
I said some things
That were unkind
But in my defence
I had lost my mind
Whereas her behaviour
Had no justification
She practically revelled
In my flagellation
So when it comes
To my ‘tirades’
At least it’s with words
And not razor blades
The Tirade
Don’t stop me now
I’m on a roll
Saying my piece
Letting this shit go
It was you who did this to us
You see
You’re the arsehole here
Not me
(Originally Posted 08.02.2022)
All these years
I’ve been writing
Calling you each
And every name
But perhaps I’ve been mean
Because it’s actually been
My attempt
To shift the blame
Who Gives A Shit
Have
I done
The
wrong
thing
again?
I
suppose
only
time
Will
tell
Until
then
I’ll try
To keep
myself
sane
While
I prepare
To
burn
in hell
(Originally Posted 04.01.2020)
The worst part
About what happened
Is that your role
Is still unexamined
Capitulation
I’m
now
ready
to walk
away
As you’ve
made it
impossible
for me
to stay
All I
hope
is
that
one day
You
are as
unhappy
as I am
today
(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)
I shout and swear
About how you don’t care
And you just presume that I’m strong
Yet if you actually asked
It’s a one hundred percent fact
That I’d lie to you all day long
The Self Pity Party
So many nights I’ve cried,
Feeling dead inside,
Whilst wrestling with my neurosis.
Now I can’t help but discern,
Despite your care and concern,
That you haven’t even noticed.
(Originally Posted 05.10.2019)
You should never go to bed
On an argument
That is what they say
But what do you do
When he always blames you
And you argue every day
‘Turn Away On Your Side…’
Was
I always
wrong
Or was
I sometimes
right
Not that
it matters
anyway
Now I’m
alone at
night
(Originally Posted 10.09.2020)
It was you
Who kicked
This hornet’s nest
So don’t cry
Now you’ve
Got stung
Radio Silence
It’s
not
that I’ll
never
call
you my
friend
It’s
just
that I’ll
never
call
you
again
(Originally Posted 31.08.2019)
If our case was
To be heard again
In any court of law
You know it would end
With your actions condemned
And you locked behind this door
At Her Majesty’s Pleasure
You were keen to kidnap my kindness.
Happy to hijack hope from my heart.
You smiled whilst you stole my soul,
and laughed as you looted the love from my life.
So why am I the one who is sentenced to this life of solitude,
And you are strolling around out there scot-free?
(Originally Posted 07.07.2019)
Four years ago
You left my side
And I still feel fucking sick
Even though I know
Death is inevitable
I still blame you, you prick
Xxx
It was you who made things difficult
It was you who made things worse
You who added injury to insult
It was you who left me cursed
It was you who made me doubt myself
It was you who made me cry
You who just pleased yourself
It was you who never asked why
But as for all that has followed
All that has now came to be
Every pill that I have swallowed
That’s on no one else but me
You were responsible
For your actions
Just like I was
For mine
It’s just a shame
You tried shifting the blame
And couldn’t play nicely
At the time
That was the difference
Between me and you
I was willing to forgive
But you just turned the screw
I considered everyone
While you only cared for yourself
That’s why I’ve got everyone
And you have nothing left
I’m sorry I didn’t listen
He said
But I thought I knew it all
Now I’ll watch from the sidelines
She said
And cheer on your downfall
When you tell them
How you met me
Remember to mention
How you forgot me too
At some point you have to see
He said
It was you who wouldn’t commit
I wasn’t the one who gave up
She said
I just ended it
All that time
I blamed myself
When you were the one who lied
You have no idea
How much I wish
It wasn’t him, but you, who died
You were the light
To my shade
The sunshine
To my rain
That is why
I can’t forgive you
For causing me
All this pain
You’ve been on my mind a lot more
Lately
Which really does trouble me
Greatly
You see my memories are at best
Hazy
So trying to remember drives me
Crazy
Oh, I’ll point many a finger
In order to right these wrongs
But for her I’ll reserve
The most passion and verve
And the sharpest of razor like tongues
Why
should
I apologise
to you
When
you
lashed
out
at me?
I’m
just
glad
to have
realised
You’re
no
longer my
responsibility
We’ll
both
carry
the
guilt,
of courseThat’s
just
life
now
I guessIt’s
just
a shameAs
we’re
not to
blameFor
causing
this
fucking
mess
Those
words
you
spoke
so softly
are etched
upon my
brainA
permanent
reminder
that I
fucked
things
up
again
Sometimes
I wonderIs everything
my fault?And then
I rememberI actually don’t
give a fuck
I suppose
I should
have
askedIf you
really
were
okBefore
I put our
friendship
on blastAnd
again as
I walked
away
It’s
not
your
fault
He
said
Honestly,
it’s
mine
It
doesn’t
matter
anyway
She
said
As we
can’t
go back
in time
Nothing
will
ever be
resolved
Until from
all blame
I am
absolved
I’ll
say
it was
my
faultI’ll
take
all
the
blameJust to
protect
you
and
yoursFrom
feeling
this
terrible
shameBut
don’t
think
it’ll
lastI
won’t
stay
quiet
foreverOne day
I’ll
tell
the
truthAnd
all
ties we
will
sever