The Powder Keg (Bonus Post)

Neither of us

Can speak the truth

As both of us have

Too much to lose


In(sin)cerity

You claim
that
you
have
got it
rough

Well
on that
I call
bullshit

As I’m
the one
who’s
doing
it tough

You
fucking
hypocrite

(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)

A Glasgow Smile

I don’t think

I’m entirely blameless

I’m not that

Self absorbed

Or shameless

But it wasn’t my doing

Nor was it my fault

That things came to such

To an abrupt halt

I said some things

That were unkind

But in my defence

I had lost my mind

Whereas her behaviour

Had no justification

She practically revelled

In my flagellation

So when it comes

To my ‘tirades’

At least it’s with words

And not razor blades


The Tirade

Don’t stop me now

I’m on a roll

Saying my piece

Letting this shit go

It was you who did this to us

You see

You’re the arsehole here

Not me

(Originally Posted 08.02.2022)

Viewpoint

All these years

I’ve been writing

Calling you each

And every name

But perhaps I’ve been mean

Because it’s actually been

My attempt

To shift the blame


Who Gives A Shit

Have
I done

The
wrong
thing
again?

I
suppose
only
time

Will
tell

Until
then
I’ll try

To keep
myself
sane

While
I prepare

To
burn
in hell

(Originally Posted 04.01.2020)

Pulling The Wool

The worst part

About what happened

Is that your role

Is still unexamined


Capitulation

I’m
now
ready
to walk
away

As you’ve
made it
impossible
for me
to stay

All I
hope
is
that
one day

You
are as
unhappy
as I am
today

(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)

Now That’s Fucking Ironic

I shout and swear

About how you don’t care

And you just presume that I’m strong

Yet if you actually asked

It’s a one hundred percent fact

That I’d lie to you all day long


The Self Pity Party

So many nights I’ve cried,

Feeling dead inside,

Whilst wrestling with my neurosis.

Now I can’t help but discern,

Despite your care and concern,

That you haven’t even noticed.

(Originally Posted 05.10.2019)

Unresolved

You should never go to bed

On an argument

That is what they say

But what do you do

When he always blames you

And you argue every day


‘Turn Away On Your Side…’

Was
I always
wrong

Or was
I sometimes
right

Not that
it matters
anyway

Now I’m
alone at
night

(Originally Posted 10.09.2020)

You Reap What You Sow

It was you

Who kicked

This hornet’s nest

So don’t cry

Now you’ve

Got stung


Radio Silence

It’s
not
that I’ll
never
call
you my
friend

It’s
just
that I’ll
never
call
you
again

(Originally Posted 31.08.2019)

A Miscarriage Of Justice

If our case was

To be heard again

In any court of law

You know it would end

With your actions condemned

And you locked behind this door


At Her Majesty’s Pleasure

You were keen to kidnap my kindness.

Happy to hijack hope from my heart.

You smiled whilst you stole my soul,
and laughed as you looted the love from my life.

So why am I the one who is sentenced to this life of solitude,

And you are strolling around out there scot-free?

(Originally Posted 07.07.2019)

Accountability

It was you who made things difficult

It was you who made things worse

You who added injury to insult

It was you who left me cursed

It was you who made me doubt myself

It was you who made me cry

You who just pleased yourself

It was you who never asked why

But as for all that has followed

All that has now came to be

Every pill that I have swallowed

That’s on no one else but me

Not Playing Fair

You were responsible

For your actions

Just like I was

For mine

It’s just a shame

You tried shifting the blame

And couldn’t play nicely

At the time

Repercussions

That was the difference

Between me and you

I was willing to forgive

But you just turned the screw

I considered everyone

While you only cared for yourself

That’s why I’ve got everyone

And you have nothing left

Discord

At some point you have to see

He said

It was you who wouldn’t commit

I wasn’t the one who gave up

She said

I just ended it

Uncovered

All that time

I blamed myself

When you were the one who lied

You have no idea

How much I wish

It wasn’t him, but you, who died

Cut To Pieces

You were the light

To my shade

The sunshine

To my rain

That is why

I can’t forgive you

For causing me

All this pain

The Queen Bee

Oh, I’ll point many a finger

In order to right these wrongs

But for her I’ll reserve

The most passion and verve

And the sharpest of razor like tongues

I’m Not Sorry

Why
should
I apologise
to you

When
you
lashed
out
at me?

I’m
just
glad
to have
realised

You’re
no
longer my
responsibility

Purge

We’ll
both
carry
the
guilt,
of course

That’s
just
life
now
I guess

It’s
just
a shame

As
we’re
not to
blame

For
causing
this
fucking
mess

Adjourned

Those
words
you
spoke
so softly
are etched
upon my
brain

A
permanent
reminder
that I
fucked
things
up
again

Selfish

I suppose
I should
have
asked

If you
really
were
ok

Before
I put our
friendship
on blast

And
again as
I walked
away

Enjoy My Silence

I’ll
say
it was
my
fault

I’ll
take
all
the
blame

Just to
protect
you
and
yours

From
feeling
this
terrible
shame

But
don’t
think
it’ll
last

I
won’t
stay
quiet
forever

One day
I’ll
tell
the
truth

And
all
ties we
will
sever

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