You weren’t
The first
You won’t be
The last
But you certainly were
My everything
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
You weren’t
The first
You won’t be
The last
But you certainly were
My everything
It’s good to see
You’re moving on
It’s just a shame
That it’s with her
I wish you well
Although time will tell
If you will get
What you deserve
Apart from
Fixing the fuse box
Or putting up
The odd shelf
There is nothing
You can do for me
That I cannot do
Myself
If I’ve learned one thing
After all these years
It’s that being kind to yourself
Doesn’t end in tears
And something else I’ve learned
From surviving the worst
Is that loving yourself
Never fucking hurts
Now that it’s all
Said and done
There’s still
One answer
I lack:
Why the fuck
Did you let me
Love you
If you didn’t want
To love me back?
It was really nice
To see you today
Now time has seen
Most memories away
Yet when I said
Goodbye, my friend
Both of us knew
This is the end
You claim
You want
To know
The truth
But the truth
Is you couldn’t
Care less
All you want
Is someone
To taunt
And to leave
After making
A mess
Thinking back
To that night
A split decision
And your plane
Took flight
If I’d known then
What I do now
I’d have grabbed
Your hand
And never
Let go
Do you ever
Think of me
When you’re lying
In her bed?
Because I don’t ever
Think of you
Happy she’s stuck with you
Instead
I just thought
I’d call
He said
To check
That you’re ok
You are
So very kind
She said
To care for me
That way
I’ll also ask
While I’m on
He said
If there’s anything
I can do?
I’m sure
I’ll be fine
She said
To me this
Is nothing new
If only you
Could feel my pain
You’d never speak
To him again
If we take away
The anger
The frustration
And the pain
It’s pretty clear
Neither one of us
Has anything
To gain
After all
Is said
And done
I think
It’s time
We both
Move on
I’d just about
Come to terms
With losing
Everything
But then I saw you
With your new tattoo
And the size
Of her fucking ring
I hope that you
Are happy now
And you go to sleep
With a smile
But for me to hope
That she doesn’t choke
Is going to take
A while
I gave you every
Piece of me
Acted like
A woman posessed
And yet
You squandered
Everything
Until there
Was nothing left
Reflecting on
Our last
Little
Tête-à-tête
I feel like
I’ve won,
Finally
As this time
I cared
Far less
About you
Than you
Have ever
Cared about me
I am honestly
Not interested
In whatever
You’ve got to say
It’s not like
It’ll make a difference
To how I feel
Anyway
For I have
Already decided
This relationship
Has died a death
So you may as well
Just leave me alone
And save
Your fucking breath
As another sun sets
On our argument
My stomach
Is still in bits
Because of all the things
We could’ve been
I never thought
That we’d be this
I know we’re not together
He said
And we never will be again
But I still care for you
He said
And want us to be friends
I wish we could go back
She said
To before you went away
But I can’t just forgive or forget
She said
You hurt me too much that day
So what is it
You’re saying?
He said
You want to pack up
And get rid?
It’s not that I don’t
Love you now
She said
It’s that I’m not sure
I ever did
Please don’t say it’s over
He said
I won’t believe it
If you do
It’s exactly that lack of backbone
She said
That I hate most
About you
I’m glad
It all
Was good
For you
And that
It worked
Out well
Now I
Will just
Stay here
Alone
Languishing
In hell
You say that I am crazy
And always take things
To extremes
But I know full well
That you lie to me
Even in my dreams
When I whispered
In your ear
Perhaps it wasn’t
Very clear
I never said
Let’s meet again
In fact I said
Let’s just be friends
What do you do
When times get tough
And the love you have
Just isn’t enough
When you can’t see a way
Through all this stuff
And you’re both now stranded
In the rough
Having realised that
When all’s said and done
There is no such thing
As a hole in one
When I asked how long
You’d wait for me
“Until the end of the world”
You said
Yet it only took seconds
When her lips beckoned
For you to fuck her
Instead
When it came
To us
Breaking up
She said
You weren’t
The only
Determinant
Our love
She said
Was temporary
But my grief
Is permanent
Don’t think you can come
Crawling back now
Acting all innocent
And holier than thou
You and I both know
What you did back then
And why, in effect,
I’d wring your neck
Time and time again
Let It Burn
I have killed us
Once before
And I will happily
Do it again
For I am
No longer
In love with you
In fact we’re
Not even friends
(Originally Posted 24.02.2022)
I know you’re angry with me
I know I made a mistake
I know you’ll struggle to forgive me
But don’t throw this away
Please
The Replacement
I only ever wanted you
But then he arrived instead
Now there’s no chance
In any circumstance
Of you sleeping in my bed
(Originally Posted 24.01.2021)
I kept true to my promise
Just like I said I would
Now let’s both be honest
You fucking hate spinsterhood
Once And For All
Tell me you don’t want me
And I’ll walk away if I must
But just make sure
Your heart can endure
As you won’t see me again
For dust
(Originally Posted 15.01.2021)
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