Back
In the beginning
There was
So much
To adore
And yet
I still ended
Up crying
On the bathroom
Floor
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Back
In the beginning
There was
So much
To adore
And yet
I still ended
Up crying
On the bathroom
Floor
As the thunder claps
And the heavens open
I search through the scraps
Of what you have broken
I know
That you’re
In love
With her
But please spare
A thought
For me
I know we
Were bereft
And that’s why
You left
But you were once
Everything
To me
I wonder
Where
You are
Tonight
And if
You ever
Think of me
Or do you
Just
Lay there
Her hands in
Your hair
As you sigh
Contentedly
When I see you love
So lazily
It makes me think
There’s hope for me
To steal him away
Soon
I didn’t mean
For you to leave
All I needed
Was a break
And now you’ve gone
All I do is dwell on
My unintentional
Mistake
When you asked me
If I loved you
How I wish
That I’d said no
Then my being exploited
Could’ve been avoided
And this pain
I’d never have known
Just for that one
Moment in time
I thought, perhaps,
That I had won
But then I saw you
Holding her hand
And I knew then
That we were done
Across The Table
I love how you know,
To hold my hand,
Just by the croak in my voice.
I am so grateful,
That you understand,
Just how much I need that choice.
Feeling that you’re there,
And how much you care,
Means everything you see.
But not forcing me to speak,
When you sense I’m weak,
Is why you’re the one for me.
(Originally Posted 04.03.2020)
I have killed us
Once before
And I will happily
Do it again
For I am
No longer
In love with you
In fact
We’re not even friends
While everyone else enjoys
Their happily ever after
I sit here alone
And wait for mine
Though I’m no longer sure
If my heart is as pure
As it was once
Upon a time
I don’t want to just be friends
I don’t want to let this go
You may be able to walk away
But this is all I know
Can we go back
To a simpler time
When I was yours
And you were mine?
If
it’s
not you
And
it’s
not me
Then who
the fuck
else
Is it
supposed
to be?
I just
want
you to
know
He
said
That
I don’t
like you
anymore
Please
join
the
queue
She
said
After
all, I’ve
been here
before
Please
can
you
come
back
She
begged
I’ll
get
down
on my
knees
But
you
told
me
you
didn’t
want me
He
said
So I
thought
you
would be
pleased
What do
you want
me to sayThat I’ll
eventually
be okay?What is it
you want
me to doFall
desperately
out of love
with you?Well
neither
of these
are possibleFor
meBecause
I am nowhere
near as
methodicalAs
you
I rummage around inside my head as I search for what to say
But the silence means all you hear is that I don’t want you to stay
I rummage around inside my head as I look down to the floor
But the silence means all you hear is that I don’t love you anymore
What is painfully sad for both of us is that neither of these things are true
But this jumble sale of words in my head prevents me from being honest with you
Love me
or
loathe me
you’ll
never
escape me
so why
would you
even try?
Kiss me
or
kill me
you’ll
always
want me
so there’s
no use
in saying
goodbye.