The Helpline Shift

If only

I could help you

I’d be there

In a minute

But since he’s gone

My reserves are done

And my heart

Is no longer in it

Everything After

Life does go on,

You know

But you’re never

Really

The same

You just

Get good

At doing what

You should

So you can keep on

Playing

The game

Death Changes Everything

This is still my answer

To most questions nowadays

All since that day

He went away

And I inherently changed


Passive

Who knows

And, quite frankly,

Who cares

(Originally Posted 27.11.2020)

It’s Different Now

Though it took a while

For me to smile

Still, it is artificial

Any feeling of mirth

For what it’s worth

Is purely superficial


Emotional Flux

The guilt
I feel
when
I smile

Consumes
my day
and night

Perhaps I
should
just wait
a while

Before
thinking
it’s alright

(Originally Posted 13.10.2019)

Charred Remains

All those things you said to me

Will always and forever be

The straws that broke my back

The absolute audacity

To not choose your words carefully

Is what turned my heart black

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