The Shield

It doesn’t matter

What you say

Because however much

You try

Nothing will ever

Hurt me now

As I am dead

Inside

Dead Inside

I know

That depression

Is cyclical

Yet I’m still taken

By surprise

Whenever

It hits

And I feel

Like shit

As the light fades

From behind my eyes


Sprung

The beast has crept back in again

She’s beaten down my door

And there was me,

Foolishly,

Thinking I wouldn’t need pills anymore

(Originally Posted 09.12.2020)

An Official Declaration

I guess I don’t feel

Like this anymore

But in that I can take no pride

As the only reason

I feel any different

Is because I’m now dead inside


What’s The Point?

It
feels
like
I will
never
laugh
again

As my
life
is so
full of
sorrow
and pain

Like
I will
no
longer
be able
to smile

And
that
nothing
I do will
ever be
worthwhile

(Originally Posted 01.11.2019)

Q&A (cont)

Then you asked

If I got it back

Never

I replied

That was the day

When it all

Went black

And I was forever

Left dead inside


Q&A

You ask

What

I left

Behind

Nothing

I answer

Just

My mind

(Originally Posted 24.08.2020)

Arid

I remember people telling me

My emotions would return

That the numbness I felt

Would resolve itself

And I shouldn’t

Be too concerned

But I knew

Right from the off

That it was the end for me

My well had run dry

And I’d said goodbye

To who I used to be

So although now

I may joke

To those same people

About how

I am ‘dead inside’

I’ve never been more certain

Of its truth

And from that

There’s nowhere to hide


Tributary

The love
I once
had to
give

Ran so
deep
and
wide

But now,
it seems,
the river
is dry

As I’m
all but
dead
inside

(Originally Posted 03.04.2020)

Sensitive Skin

How about this

He said

For an interesting notion

Perhaps you’re not

Dead inside

But just allergic to emotion

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