Tag: expectation

Awkwardness

We don’t have to do it all

He said

We can meet up another day

I need to do it now

She said

Just to get it out of the way

The Trial

You don’t
have to
prove
anything

He said

Least
of all
to me

But I
need to
prove it
to myself

She said

Otherwise
I’ll never
be free

(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)

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Undeserved

I did everything

To please you

All I could

To win you round

Including

It seems

Ruining

My dreams

And running myself

Into the ground

Preferable

I’d
rather
sit

And
tear
out my
hair

Than
waste
another
minute

Hoping
you’d
care

(Originally Posted 26.01.2020)

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Terminal

I’m not sure
Who suffers more
Those who are
Oblivious
Or those who know
What’s in store

Identity Crisis

In
some
ways
losing
myself
has
been
harder
than
losing
you

(Originally Posted 22.12.2019)

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Unlearning

Why do you still deny yourself

He said

You more than deserve some happiness

It’s like I’ll never be free

She said

From the memory of all the nastiness

Forbidden Love

Come
a little
closer,

He
said,

I want
to see
your
face.

Just
you
stay
away,

She
said,

I daren’t
risk
another
embrace.

(Originally Posted 03.12.2019)

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Fit For It

I don’t want a boy

She said

With romantic ideals

I need a man

With balls of steel

The Rescuer

We can
leave
together,

He
said,

I promise
I’ll look
after you.

When
will you
grow up,

She
said,

You poor
misguided
fool.

(Originally Posted 20.11.2019)

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The Dance

Another well meaning question

Asked way too expectantly

Answered without hesitation

Although far too respectfully

Tight Lipped

I am
not
trying
to be
mean

Or to
cause
yet
another
scene

So before
my fuse
is well
and truly
blown

Please
just piss
off and
leave me
alone

(Originally Posted 26.10.2019)

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Better Than Nothing

I used to think

When I was a kid

I can’t wait to live by myself

I will do

Whatever I want

Take my opportunity to rebel

But there’s another side

To living alone

When you no longer have another

To share your home

What I never envisaged

All those years ago

Was that my only company now

Would be the radio

Home Alone

It’s Friday night

And I’m here alone

In this house

We used to call home

There’s nothing left now

Just an empty shell

With only me here

Living through hell

(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)

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In The Aftermath

I don’t
know
what you
expected

You knew
something
inside me
had changed

It wasn’t
just your
advances
I rejected

It was
from
everyone
I abstained

Robotic

Take
that
look
off
your
face

You
can
hardly
be
surprised

You
know
my heart
cannot
race

And
I’m
dead
behind
the
eyes

(Originally Posted 04.08.2020)

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‘I’m Waiting For My Man’

Quite a subtle reference here

To a drug I’ve seen

But never taken

I’ve just always known

Being dependence prone

That beast never to awaken

Need(le)

I
need
you
here

Please
come
and
save
me

I
need
to
feel

The
love
you
gave
me

(Originally Posted 01.07.2020)

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‘Back To Black’

Yet as the sun came out

Last summer

The glue I’d used soon melted

So whatever I felt back then

Didn’t start a trend

Or conclude as well as projected

Out Of The Blue

I woke up with a smile

Today

All the bad feeling

Had gone away

It actually felt

Like it was the start

Of gluing back together

My broken heart

(Originally Posted 30.06.2021)

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Actually, It’s Not Me That’s The Problem

If you lowered your expectations

I reckon we’d be OK

But if you feel it integeral

To keep me on that pedestal

It’ll only end in dismay

‘All The Time…’

If I
could
be

Who
you
want

Me
to
be

Perhaps
then
we

Would
both be
happy

(Originally Posted 21.05.2020)

Virtueless

As I walk

Into the sea

Never quite who

I wanted to be

I know that faith,

Hope and charity

All just proved

Too much for me

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Expectation

If all I had to do

Was tolerate you

Then really

You should’ve just asked

It was when I thought

You wanted more

That I totally

Fucking cracked

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Expectation

It’s a tense, nervous headache

As we kick off with a cheer

Hoping to avoid the heartache

And pain of yesteryear

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Steadfast

I’ll never be
who you want
me to be

So you’ll
just have
to accept it

Please stop
trying to
change me

Or you’ll
just end up
rejected

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That Day

I’m scared
of what
that day
will bring,

As I
know it’s
approaching
fast.

Even if
it’s the
start of
my future,

There’s no
way of
forgetting
my past.

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Sleep Is Futile

What’s the
point in
going to bed

With all
this shit
inside my head

It’s not
like I’ll be
allowed to rest

With this
sickness deep
inside my chest

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