What is life
He said
Without a little risk?
There’s testing the limit
She said
And then taking the piss
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
What is life
He said
Without a little risk?
There’s testing the limit
She said
And then taking the piss
Now that all
Is said
And done
I know
That you
Were never
“The one”
Do you ever miss him?
All the time, she said
Each night I cry
Screaming “why?”
As I lay down
In our bed
Do you ever miss him?
Never once, she said
The second he’d gone
I just moved on
To someone else
Instead
You can tell me ’til
You’re blue in the face
But there’s no way
That I’ll hear it
It may sound cliché
But for me to stay
You’ll just have
To let me feel it
Fancy coming up
He said
For a night
Of unbridled bliss?
I shouldn’t think so pal
She said
After all,
I’ve heard you piss!
Are you some kind of freak
He said
When someone pees
You listen in?
It honestly can’t be helped
She said
These walls
Are paper thin!
Sometimes I wonder
If you were asked
What it is
You’d say
About me
Would you describe
All that time
We spent
Together
As happy?
You want advice?
I’m full of it
She exuberantly claimed
On any topic or theme
I can intervene
And so help to ease your mind
I can think of nothing worse
She sighed
Than spilling my guts to you
Because all I’d hear back
Is a load of crap
From your asinine point of view
It doesn’t matter
Who was right
Or who
Was fucking wrong
We both did
The worst
And equally
Got hurt
By stringing
Each other along
That’s it
I’m done
I have had
Enough
There is no
More smooth
To soften
The rough
And I know
That I seem
Pretty hardy
And tough
But trust me
I’m made
Of nothing like
The stuff
You cannot say
You didn’t know
Or that I wasn’t clear
When I said no
The fact that you
Were “just a kid”
Will never justify
What you did
It’s not me you want
It’s her, over there
With the sparkly eyes
And the perfect hair
But I’ll play along
And my feelings, ignore
After all I’ve done it
Plenty times before
It’s nice to see
How you are with me
Is in no way chauvinistic
But as for your chance
When it comes to romance
I wouldn’t be too optimistic
If only times
Were different
Then our lives
Could truly flourish
But as it is
This life is shit
With love like ours
Not encouraged
If what you say
Proves to be true
Then I will give
Myself to you
But if what you say
Proves to be false
Then I’ll rip you apart
Without remorse
Slowly
I walk
Along
The bridge
Resisting
The urge
To jump
But
I feel
The ringing
In my ears
And my heart
Begin
To thump
Now
I have felt
This way
Before
And
I recognise
The slump
So I go
In search
Somewhere
Else
For these
Feelings
To dump
As life
Moves on
And time
Goes by
It gnaws
At my soul
Whilst bleeding
Me dry
It really does
Beggar belief
How much
There is
To learn
About grief
It is
As if
After all
This time
You have
Forgotten
What's
Rightfully
Mine
To be honest
Most folks
Are doing
What you do
Just trying
Their best
To make
It through
So please
Don’t believe
All that
Bullshit’s true
Because, trust me,
It’s not all
About you
I remember,
Once,
He asked me
How I cope
With all these trials
I just use the darkest
Of humours,
I said,
Along with
The wryest of smiles
You need to try
He said
And find
Some peace
I’ll only get that
She said
When I am
Deceased
Waking up
This morning
To his
Promises
Of change
Yet unable
To shake
The feeling
That he’ll
Fuck it up
Again
Of all
The things
I've known
To be true
I'd say one
Is the spark
Between me
And you
There’s no need
For anything fancy
Or to reinvent
The wheel
Because it won’t be
What you say to me
But how
You make me feel
I know
That we
Have
Hardly
Spoken
But my
Insides
Are now
Broken
And what
Is left
Merely
A token
Of the
Woman
I used to be
I didn’t believe in love
She said
Until my head
Was turned
Then I realised
How right I was
When I got
My fingers burned
I often think
Of that night
And how events
Proceeded
Because being seduced
Was the confidence boost
That I so sorely
I needed
The worst is when
All hope is gone
And you know that they
Can’t carry on
When the end is coming
At them hard
And all that’s left
Is wounds and scars
That’s when you wish
They could call it a day
Instead of just watching
Them waste away
I remembered what
It was like today
Back when that pain
Gnawed away
When his death broke me
To the sum of my parts
And my mental health
Was off the charts
And although with her
I did empathise
I couldn’t be false
Or tell her lies
So I whispered the truth
As I’ve come to accept it
Although time does heal
It can never correct it
I’ll sleep with you
When I’m good and ready
So don’t come around here
All hot and heavy
Thinking your patter
Will trick me to bed
You see all that talk
I’ve heard before
And believe you me
I know the score
So never again
Can I be misled
So much the same
Between me and you
But it’s okay
I’ve buried it too
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