I’ve no
Doubt that
What has
Happened
To put
You in
This position
Is down
To your
Incessant
Stupidity
And of
Your own
Volition
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I’ve no
Doubt that
What has
Happened
To put
You in
This position
Is down
To your
Incessant
Stupidity
And of
Your own
Volition
It was you
Who wanted this
Not me
You who were
Too blind
To see
That we could
Never make
Each other happy
Not while
My heart is chained
And yours
Runs free
I don’t think
I’m entirely blameless
I’m not that
Self absorbed
Or shameless
But it wasn’t my doing
Nor was it my fault
That things came to such
To an abrupt halt
I said some things
That were unkind
But in my defence
I had lost my mind
Whereas her behaviour
Had no justification
She practically revelled
In my flagellation
So when it comes
To my ‘tirades’
At least it’s with words
And not razor blades
The Tirade
Don’t stop me now
I’m on a roll
Saying my piece
Letting this shit go
It was you who did this to us
You see
You’re the arsehole here
Not me
(Originally Posted 08.02.2022)
I shout and swear
About how you don’t care
And you just presume that I’m strong
Yet if you actually asked
It’s a one hundred percent fact
That I’d lie to you all day long
The Self Pity Party
So many nights I’ve cried,
Feeling dead inside,
Whilst wrestling with my neurosis.
Now I can’t help but discern,
Despite your care and concern,
That you haven’t even noticed.
(Originally Posted 05.10.2019)
It was you
Who kicked
This hornet’s nest
So don’t cry
Now you’ve
Got stung
Radio Silence
It’s
not
that I’ll
never
call
you my
friend
It’s
just
that I’ll
never
call
you
again
(Originally Posted 31.08.2019)
So who’s fault is it then
Yours or mine
Who was it that took this
Over the line?
Was it me
With my brutality
And supposed lack of rationality?
Or was it you
And your crew
With fuck all else with your time to do?
Either way it doesn’t matter
As the line has now been crossed
It’s just a shame that we’ll never know
Which one of us won or lost
It was you who made things difficult
It was you who made things worse
You who added injury to insult
It was you who left me cursed
It was you who made me doubt myself
It was you who made me cry
You who just pleased yourself
It was you who never asked why
But as for all that has followed
All that has now came to be
Every pill that I have swallowed
That’s on no one else but me
It really isn’t
Your fault
It’s mine
I just repeat
The same old shit
Time after fucking time
That was the difference
Between me and you
I was willing to forgive
But you just turned the screw
I considered everyone
While you only cared for yourself
That’s why I’ve got everyone
And you have nothing left
I’m sorry I didn’t listen
He said
But I thought I knew it all
Now I’ll watch from the sidelines
She said
And cheer on your downfall
When you tell them
How you met me
Remember to mention
How you forgot me too
At some point you have to see
He said
It was you who wouldn’t commit
I wasn’t the one who gave up
She said
I just ended it
You were the light
To my shade
The sunshine
To my rain
That is why
I can’t forgive you
For causing me
All this pain
You’ve been on my mind a lot more
Lately
Which really does trouble me
Greatly
You see my memories are at best
Hazy
So trying to remember drives me
Crazy
Sometimes
I wonderIs everything
my fault?And then
I rememberI actually don’t
give a fuck
I suppose
I should
have
askedIf you
really
were
okBefore
I put our
friendship
on blastAnd
again as
I walked
away
It’s
not
your
fault
He
said
Honestly,
it’s
mine
It
doesn’t
matter
anyway
She
said
As we
can’t
go back
in time
I’ll
say
it was
my
faultI’ll
take
all
the
blameJust to
protect
you
and
yoursFrom
feeling
this
terrible
shameBut
don’t
think
it’ll
lastI
won’t
stay
quiet
foreverOne day
I’ll
tell
the
truthAnd
all
ties we
will
sever