A Lost Cause

I know you think

You can change me

That your kindness

Will be enough

But trust me when I say

There’s been too much decay

For my heart to be capable

Of love


Bad Seed

I
wish
there
was a
way

To
make
you
see

That
good
boys
like
you

Aren’t
for
bad
girls
like me

(Originally Posted 26.02.2020)

Broken Promises

The fool and her heart

Were very soon parted

As he couldn’t finish

What he started


Unkept

You said

To me

You’d always

Be true

Yet it’s clear

That forever

Meant fuck all

To you

(Originally Posted 22.02.2021)

Diluted

She who was once vivacious

Grew ever weary from the pain

And though she remained flirtatious

She never truly loved again


As Time Goes By

From
happy
souls
the
lifeblood
drains

Until
nothing
but
the
darkness
remains

🖤

(Originally Posted 17.01.2020)

Pissing In The Wind

That I ever thought

Those pills would work

Is actually quite preposterous

For I have found

To my cost

That the pit of my stomach is bottomless


Prescription For A Broken Heart

I took
the first
one this
morning

The rest
won’t be
hard to
swallow

Soon
my belly
will be
full

And I’ll
no longer
feel so
hollow

(Originally Posted 24.09.2019)

Signs Of Improvement

Things were so hard

For me back then

Every day

My outlook was bleak

And though the worst has passed

I still feel downcast

For at least

One day each week


Not Today

No-one can shield me,
from this pain within.

Nothing can soothe me,
now the rot has set in.

(Originally Posted 24.07.2019)

“Wait For Me, Wait For Me”

They tell you that

It’s time that heals

But time moves

So fucking slowly

In fact all time does do

Is exacerbate the issue

When you’re this heartbroken

And lonely


When Will It End?

Biting my nails
until they bleed,
doesn’t give me
the relief I need.

Scratching my skin
until it’s breaking,
doesn’t stop my
heart from aching.

When will it end,
this pain I’m feeling?
When does it stop,
when do I start healing?

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)

Wednesday 8pm

So I’m back
home now,
after that
shit show

Only two
more days
of pretending
to go

Then it’s
the weekend,
so I’ll be free
to lament

And avoid
all people,
to my hearts
content


Wednesday 2.30am (Pt 1)

I can’t even
bear the thought
of what’s to
come tomorrow

No doubt
it’ll just be
more misery
and sorrow

Perhaps I’d
be better
off staying
in bed

Then I might
just escape
the thoughts
in my head

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)


Wednesday 11am (Pt 2)

So I managed,
in the end,
to get out of bed

And it’s been
shit so far,
just as I predicted

It seems I was right,
I should never
have tried

For I’ll never
escape this
pain inside

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)

Poignant

Sometimes I

Have nothing to add

No further words

Or updates

This is one

Of those times,

I think,

As when I read this

My heart breaks


Leftovers

A weak and weary
confused mind

An empty and
hollow heart

As bleak as it is,
it is all I have

As my life has
fallen apart

(Originally Posted 13.07.2019)

‘Coming Apart Yet Still Not Done’

Only a year ago

This one

And still no better than when I started

Sometimes I fear

There’ll never be an end

To feeling so broken hearted


The End Of The Road

Pretending gets tiring

After a while

So in the end you stop

With no cylinders left firing

And an inibility to smile

It’s back up to that rooftop

(Originally Posted 13.05.2021)

The Meet-Cute

So I suppose

This is the part

Where you say hello

And break my heart


All Good Things

So
I
suppose

This
is the
part

Where
you say
goodbye

And
break my
heart

(Originally Posted 04.05.2020)

I Know Now

And here I lie

My heart still broken

Knowing this to be

The truest word I’ve spoken


Who Knew

I’d never realised
the word heartbreak
was meant literally,
until now

(Originally Posted 04.04.2019)

A Temporary Fix

I have since toiled

Without that guide

Pasting my heart

With water and flour

I just have to hope

It continues to hold

Though it’s looking less likely

By the hour


My Heart

My heart is smashed into a thousand tiny pieces.

I don’t have the glue to put it back together.

And I lost the instruction manual years ago.

(Originally Posted 14.03.2019)

Random #158

‘Stab the body and it heals, but injure the heart and the wound lasts a lifetime.’

– Mineko Iwasaki

Betrayed

I don’t know

If I can forgive you

For all the pain

And hurt

It’s not that we

Can’t be friends now

But more I don’t think

We ever were

Random #145

“I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery – air, mountains, trees, people. I thought: “This is what it is to be happy.”

― Sylvia Plath

Letting You Go

I really did love you, you know

I wish I’d told you so before

And now you’re gone

Nothing can be done

But to regret it

Forevermore

Xxx

Random #144

‘I get along without you very well,
Of course I do.
Except perhaps in spring.
But I should never think of spring,
For that would surely break my heart in two’

Random #143

‘The Young Man came to the Old Man seeking counsel.

I broke something, Old Man.

How badly is it broken?

It’s in a million little pieces.

I’m afraid I can’t help you.

Why?

There’s nothing you can do.

Why?

It can’t be fixed.

Why?

It’s broken beyond repair. It’s in a million little pieces.’

– James Frey

Six Years Ago

Walk down the aisle with me?

She said

The bakery aisle, that is

I thought you were being serious

He said

And my heart just skipped a beat

Xxx

The Death Of Me

Nearly twenty years together

And what do I have to show

Just a blackened heart

Now we’re three years apart

And sadness the status quo

Xxx

Not A Material Girl

I wouldn’t thank you

For diamonds

And I don’t care

About pearls

I couldn’t give

Less of a shit

For all the stars

In the world

I just want you

Back here with me

If only

For a minute

For my life

Has lost it’s sparkle

Without you

Still in it

Xxx

Queen Of The Damned

I guess I should be better now

Is that what you’re trying to say

I should be all sweetness and light

Having locked the darkness away

Well I’m sorry to disappoint you

But that’s not how this shit works

Time doesn’t heal all wounds

In fact it makes it worse

See whilst the world moves itself on

I fall further and further behind

For the pain of his loss is lifelong

And to that I am resigned

Xxx

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