"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
You could have been
So much more
But you drank it all away
I know deep down
Your heart was sore
And that you didn’t want to stay
But I wish you knew
How much we cared
And only wanted the best
Now you’re no longer here
We hope
You are finally at rest
(For O.R)
I do not come here
Every week
Looking for praise or reward
For I don’t deserve
Any of those things
Of that I have been assured
I took care of everything
But no one took care of me
Did it even occur to you
All that I had been through
And what was then my reality
Things should be better now
He said
They certainly shouldn’t be worse
I really hope so
She said
For I can’t live with this curse
I really am sorry
I cannot take your weight
For my arms are too broken
From carrying my own
I
really
can’t
explain
itThis
feeling
I have
insideI
just
don’t
want
to be
hereAnd,
God
knows,
I’ve
tried
I
shouldn’t
need to
tell you
againYou
must
already
knowI
don’t
want to
be here
anymorePlease
just
let me
go
I’ll
take
your
hand
If
you
are
frightened
I’ll
hold
you
hair
If
you
get
sick
I’ll
even
lead
you
To
the
path
of
enlightenment
If
you’re
really
fucking
quick
That’s
it
nowI’ve
pulled us
throughSo for
better
or worseIt’s
over
to you
Full
of
holes
As
it
rocks
Against
the
shoals
As
the rot
starts
to set
in
I
pour
myself
another
gin
To
silence
the pain
in my
head
As
the
thoughts
seem to
shift
My
mood
starts
to
lift
And
I can
finally
get out
of bed
It’s all just so wrong
This shouldn’t be happening to you
Not as it hasn’t been that long
Since it happened to me too
I’m not sure how to act
And I’m not sure what to say
For there’s nothing on earth that can take the pain
Of what is to come away
I love how you know,
To hold my hand,
Just by the croak in my voice.
I’m so grateful,
That you understand,
Just how much I need that choice.
Feeling that you’re there,
And how much you care,
Means everything you see.
But not forcing me to speak,
When you sense I’m weak,
Is why you’re the one for me.
It was
exactly
one
year
ago
today
That I
entered
into
this
WordPress
fray
Thank
you to
everyone
for bringing
me such
happiness
Despite
all
of my
unrelenting
crappiness
I’m
really
not
fineI’m
really
not fine
at allSurely
you
must
see it?Can’t you
hear my
distress
call?
I’m not sure I
can offer muchBut a tissue
for your tearsA shoulder for
you to lean onAnd an endless
supply of beers
Although
we have
now come
to an end
Your help
to me
has been
a godsend
Even
though
my heart
you could
not mend
You’ve
stopped
me from
going round
the bend
We
can’t
let
each
other
goWe
are
all
we’ve
got
left
I
wanted
to help
you
He
said
I
really
wanted
to try
Then you
should
have left
me alone
She
said
You
should
have just
let me die
Will you
catch meWhen I
fall?Or am I
not worthThe effort
at all?
Thank
you
for the
offer
But I
really
must
say no
There is
no need
for you
to listen
To any
more of
my tales
of woe
