As I sit here alone
And my tears glisten
I just wish I knew
Someone who’d listen
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
As I sit here alone
And my tears glisten
I just wish I knew
Someone who’d listen
Hi,
Sorry I’m late.
I didn’t want to come
And I already want to go home.
Where’s the booze..?
(Originally Posted 19.04.2019)
Lying
here
in
this
strange
bed
Wondering
what
was
going on
inside
my head
Trying
to
ignore
this
feeling
of dread
Wishing
I had
chosen
to stay
at home
instead
It
matters
not
If
I go
out
Or if
I stay
at home
As
either
way
It’s
clear
to me
I’ll
always
be alone
Yet another day with the urge to quit
How the fuck do I deal with it
Without you by my side
With all your love and kindness to me me denied
Perhaps I should just put it all to an end
Rather than continue going around the bend
As hanging on has never been worth it
Not when I face this tsunami of bullshit
I
would
smash
that
glass
And
reach
for
your
hand
If
only
I was
allowed
Yet
we
have
no
choice
But
to
press
against
it
Hearts
broken
and
heads
bowed
Just
because
I like
my own
company
Don’t
assume
I don’t
want
any
It’s
easy
to lieWhen
no one
is listening
Pain helps, momentarily.
It provides a fleeting relief.
Then the numbness returns.
And living inside this emotionless abyss, continues.
People are easy to fool, on the whole, I find.
They are so wrapped up in themselves they don’t notice me standing there, amongst them, pretending to be happy…