Uneven Playing Fields

The older I get

And the more I see

I realise

Our biggest lie

Is meritocracy


Light Years Away

If
we
are
all
supposed
to be
stars

Why
do
some
shine
brighter
than
others?

(Originally Posted 16.11.2020)

I Should’ve Known Better

It isn’t that you lied,

It’s that I believed you.

That’s what hurts.


Support

I really
cannot
stay,
she said,
it is time
for me
to go
back

It’s the
only way,
she said,
to get
my life
on track

I will come
with you,
he said,
you needn’t
be on
your own

I’m here to
help you
through,
he said,
so you’ll
never
be alone

(Originally Posted 28.10.2019)

The Dance

Another well meaning question

Asked way too expectantly

Answered without hesitation

Although far too respectfully


Tight Lipped

I am
not
trying
to be
mean

Or to
cause
yet
another
scene

So before
my fuse
is well
and truly
blown

Please
just piss
off and
leave me
alone

(Originally Posted 26.10.2019)

Toxic Bitch

She’s still out there

Or so I’ve heard

Badmouthing me

To her adoring herd

Never recounting her part

In what happened with us

Preferring, as ever, to throw me

Under the bus


Bitter

Tell all
the lies
about me
you like

Spin your
twisted
tales
of spite

But half
truths won’t
make people
like you

And they
certainly
don’t make
you right

(Originally Posted 18.10.2019)

Obsequious

I kow you’re out there

Selling your story

Accepting sympathy

Basking in glory

But remember I know

Those who dance to your tune

All know, deep down,

The truth about you


(Prick)ing At Your Conscience

Think
whatever
you
want
about
me

Speak
shit
to
whoever
will
listen

But
believe
me
when
I say

I
won’t
ever
rue
the
day

That
you
created
this
division

(Originally Posted 02.10.2020)

From Each Perspective

I was just trying

He said

To force your hand

I never wanted to leave

I didn’t want to lose face

She said

Or wear my heart

On my sleeve

We just wish

They said

You’d told us the truth

Instead of making us believe

That you wanted to be with us

They said

When all that time

We were being decieved


Concequences

You said
you wanted
to leave

And I
didn’t ask
you to stay

So now
we lie to
someone else

And that’s
the price
we pay

(Originally Posted 23.08.2019)

Yet Another Let Down

He wasn’t.

In fact, they never are.


Forever

My happiness
is fleeting,
she said,
but my pain
is forever

I cannot help
repeating,
he said,
that I’m here
for you whatever

(Originally Posted 02.09.2019)

Putting It Politely

I looked you up

On Facebook

And see you all

Still play that game

Hiding behind

Fake smiles and lies

The pretence

Still the same

Now you’ve heard me say

I walked away

And I’m infinitely glad

I did

As if I had to pose

In any more those photos

I fear by now

I’d have flipped my lid


Picture Perfect

Continue to enjoy

Your sweet little lives

And act as you see fit

I’m just relieved

I no longer suffer

The toxicity that lies

Beneath it

(Originally Posted 20.07.20)

A Miscarriage Of Justice

If our case was

To be heard again

In any court of law

You know it would end

With your actions condemned

And you locked behind this door


At Her Majesty’s Pleasure

You were keen to kidnap my kindness.

Happy to hijack hope from my heart.

You smiled whilst you stole my soul,
and laughed as you looted the love from my life.

So why am I the one who is sentenced to this life of solitude,

And you are strolling around out there scot-free?

(Originally Posted 07.07.2019)

‘Just Fucking Leave Me Alone’

How can you sleep at night

She said

Just cutting me off like this

With no problem at all

She said

Despite how you persist


‘Because Enough Is Too Much’

I can explain

He said

If you want to hear it

I don’t have time

She said

For anymore bullshit

(Originally Posted 03.07.2021)

‘…The Gangster Of Love’

He may well

Have been a chancer

But he was also

A fine romancer

Otherwise I’d have left him

Years ago


‘… A Midnight Toker’

What
do I
have
to
show
for my
life

Fuck
all
is
the
answer

I
suppose
that’s
what
you
should
expect

When
you
risk
it all
on a
chancer

(Originally Posted 03.07.2020)

Shove Your Angel Cards Up Your Arse

Charlatans and con artists

Preying on the weak

Making a pretty penny

Through their lies and false mystique

It’s not that I don’t ‘get it’

Or couldn’t possibly understand

It’s that their ‘gift’

Is a fucking grift

And, quite frankly, should be banned


Sceptical

You can tell me all you want

That you can hear him

But I’ll never believe it’s true

For if he was talking to anyone

From the ‘other side’

Then it would be me, not you

Xxx

(Originally Posted 02.07.2021)

For The Best

I never did tell him the truth

Of where I went that day

But even though I did it

I’m glad I hid it

As I could never hurt him that way


Deceit

Lying to
myself
is bad
enough

But
lying
to you
hurts
more

But
there’s
no way
I could
be truthful

That’s
for
fucking
sure

(Originally Posted 29.05.2020)

I Can Still Hear Her Now

I’m not drunk

She says

It’s all in your head

I know you’re lying

She says

I’ve seen under your bed


Mother’s Ruin

As
the rot
starts
to set
in

I
pour
myself
another
gin

To
silence
the pain
in my
head

As
the
thoughts
seem to
shift

My
mood
starts
to
lift

And
I can
finally
get out
of bed

(Originally Posted 20.05.2020)

My Better Half

Now you’re not here

To cheer me on

I have lost my way a bit

I just need to remember

Those things you said

And try my best to get through it


You Make It Easy

It’s
not
really
you I
love

It’s
that
when
I am
with
you

You
make
it
easy
to
believe

The
lies
I tell
myself
are
true

(Originally Posted 08.05.2020)

Black-and-Blue

I can’t quite believe

All the time I wasted

Trying to be perfect

When all I created

Was a lie


Bruised

It’s
OK

You
can
say
it

After
all
it’s
true

I
know
you
never

Really
loved
me

Like
how
I loved
you

(Originally Posted 30.04.2020)

Truths

I still stand by this.

Completely.


Lies

There is no better place.
Those we love don’t walk beside us.
There are no other rooms.
You will stand at that grave and weep.
There are more than five stages.
There are more than two parts.
Tears are not silent.
There is no peace or comfort to find.
Time heals nothing.
You’ll always walk alone.

And grief is like a fucking tsunami,
so good luck learning to swim in that.

(Originally Posted 23.03.2019)

You Hypocrite

Look out for each other

That’s what you said

Be considerate and kind

Well you never did

When you left me for dead

Whilst I slowly lost my mind

No Witnesses

If no one saw

But us two

Then who is to say

It happened

If we promise

Never to tell

Then no one else

Need be saddened

Candour

What is more important

She said

Being kind or telling the truth

For if it’s the latter

Then I cannot flatter

And your ego I will not soothe

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