Returning home
To stress and strain
Wondering when
I’ll be free again
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Returning home
To stress and strain
Wondering when
I’ll be free again
The hairdressers who first permed my hair
The record shop that’s no longer there
The place the first ring pierced my nose
The stall that sold those second hand clothes
The school that taught me how to grow
The man who showed me all I know
The pub I was in every Saturday night
The doorway where I held you tight
The café where I laughed and cried
The club where I danced eyes open wide
The hospital visit that left a scar
The venue where I lost my bra
For all the hours spent here
Both good and bad
I know they were the best
I’ve ever had
Tell me all about your life
He said
And what has happened to you
You’ll need to give me a minute
She said
To think all this shit through
How on earth do you cope
He asked
With all the loneliness
You don’t have any choice
She said
When you’ve got no one left
The world didn’t stop
But I did
You all carried on
While I went and hid
If you can’t win
Don’t lose
What if your best
Isn’t good enough
What if things
Shouldn’t be this tough
Maybe it’s OK
That I want more
And I deserve
What I’m asking for
Life goes on
Day after day
I just wish it didn’t
Have to be this way
Xxx
So I’m due to leave
The house today
Off out with my friends
To play
Whilst enjoying, perhaps
A wine or two
I’ll try my best
To forget about you
I looked you up online
Last night
And was disappointed
With what I found
It seems first loves
Almost certainly are
Best left
In the playground
I always assumed
Because I did it with ease
That you’d find it straightforward too
But I’ve come to realise
In the cold light of day
I was just better at it than you
‘Screws fall out all the time. The world’s an imperfect place.’
– John Bender
If we leave things like this
He said
Tell me you won’t self destruct
I can’t make any promises
She said
As my head is completely fucked
Tell me
Who it works out for
In the end
And don’t lie
Because I’ll know
“If you shoot an arrow and it goes real high … hooray for you”
-Dorian Corey
The rain
May well
Have passed
She said
But sadly
So has
My prime
If all roads lead to hell
Then let me out of the car
As I’m looking for salvation
And I’ve already come too far
New friends
Old friends
Friends I’ve yet to meet
I hope and pray
One day you’ll say
That I was right up your street
I may have
A long life left
But what use is it
Without any light
For all of my fire
Has been douted
Ever since
That awful night
If the choice
Is to go hard
Or go home
I know
Where I’m headed
Your comfort zone will kill you
Isn’t that what they say?
Well I say that is nonsense
As I’m happy living this way
Come on then
Don’t keep us waiting
We want to see you bleed
To see others suffer
For their art
Is the validation we need
I don’t care
If you don’t understand
Because this
Isn’t meant
For you
If
your
life
is a
traffic
jam
Then
just
step
out of
the
car
In the beginning
I would always try
To be as honest as I could be
But in the end I fell
So far from the truth
That the line was a dot to me
If only this was a movie
One where the good guy wins
I wouldn’t be sitting here, alone,
Knocking back the gins
What’s the point
In laying down grit
When there’s all that ice
Still underneath it
Life is hard
But so am I
That is why
Despite my efforts
I am yet to die
Looking up to the sky
This foreboding feeling grows
As I see the unkindness of ravens
And hear the murder of crows
I wake up one morning
and I’ll look at the wind
and I’ll see a song and music
Though I’ll feel nothing
and hear no tune
I’ll look behind me
and see poetry
– Anon
Words spill
Onto the page
Just like the blood
From my veins
We’ve got to move quickly
He said
Time is of the essence
Just go ahead without me
She said
I haven’t run since adolescence
How long will it take
He said
For you to see
The wood for the trees
I don’t know
She said
But one thing’s for sure
In the end, everyone leaves
Does anybody know
What we are searching for?
Or where we’re supposed to look?
Because my motivation
Is fading
And it’s getting harder to give a fuck
Tell yourself you’re moving on
And they might just start
To believe it
But you and I know
This is all just for show
As you’re still drowning
In shit
I don’t want to go back, actually
My old normal kinda sucked
Whereas my life now
Doesn’t seem somehow
So irrevocably fucked
I’d give you my heart,
But it’s not worth me tryingI’d give you my body,
But it’s not worth your touchI’d give you my soul,
But it’s not worth my cryingI’d give you my life,
But it’s not worth very much(Originally Posted 19.04.2019)
I never thought
I had a heart
Until it broke
In two
I think that I forgot myself
Somewhere along the way
So not only have I lost you
I’ve got a whole life to replay
(Originally Posted 28.07. 2019)
If only I could ask you,
But I never should.If only I could show you,
But I never would.If only you could tell me,
But you never should.If only you could love me,
But you never would.(Originally Posted 20.04.2019)
Life is a struggle
She said
And after that you die
I couldn’t agree more
He said
So let’s get fucking high
If this is how life is going to be
Then I wish to play no part.
I have neither the strength nor the desire
To risk another broken heart.
(Originally Posted 19.05.2019)
Throwing up the contents
Of yet another hateful day
Wondering why I ever made
This ridiculous choice to stay
My heart
belongs
to the
Highlands
Of
that
there
is no
doubt
I
pray
for
the
day
I
drive
all
that
way
And my
heart
just
gives
out
All
you
do
He
said
Is
whine
and
moan
I'm
surprised
anyone
reads
this
pish
Well,
perhaps
if you
She
said
Weren't
such a
prick
My
words
wouldn't
so easily
flourish
‘I was too busy serving
To listen to the speeches…’
Let’s both jump
Into this taxi
Please just take me home
And have me
I’m done waiting
Now is our time
Let’s grasp this moment
Whilst we’re in our prime
You're
no fun
anymore
He
said
What
happened
to you
my friend?
I was
never
fun
before
She
said
All
that
was
just
pretend
It broke your heart
But soothed my soul
So one day I know
I’ll pay the toll
As my life passes me by
I lose the will to even try
So I raise my hands to the sky
And scream why me, you arsehole, why?
We
only
really
reached
halfway
When
you
went
and
died
on me
Now
what
was
once
bright
is grey
As
I deal
with
life's
debris
This is why
I’m still alive
To be here
In moments like this
When all the pieces
Fit together
For these few seconds of bliss
Xxx
Who am I now?
What should I do?
Why am I still here?
When I could be with you?
Xxx
If only I could
If only you would
But we both know it couldn’t
Come to any good
It’s not you
It’s not me
It’s just the way
It has to be
How
much
more
of
this
can
I take?How
many
more
times
will my
heart
break?(Two down – one to go)
If
we
are
all
supposed
to be
stars
Why
do
some
shine
brighter
than
others?
So
this
was
always
the plan
then,
was it?
To
spend
my life
all on
my own
Well
you can
fuck
your
destiny
bullshit,
my friend
Put
that
on my
gravestone
How
long
will
you
Be
here
for
me
When
your
own
tradegy
strikes
What
will
happen
To
our
love
When
your
reality
bites?
And
just
get
on
with
itIt’s
not
like
everyone
elseIsn’t
also
wading
through
shit
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