SOS

Maybe it’s you

Maybe it’s me

Maybe we’re both

Just lost at sea

Respite

I thought of us

Again today

And, as always,

You made me smile

It was a welcome break

From all the heartache

Even if only

For a while

Un Merveilleux Malheur

I don’t think

I’ve missed you

More than I have

Today

There was nothing

I could do

To help push

These feelings away

And even though

It is now

Nearly twenty six years old

I have realised

My love for you

Will simply

Never grow cold

Xxx

“Into My Arms”

Your wandering soul

All alone

With your bones of ash

And heart of stone

If only you could find

Your way back home

I’d hold you tight

And never let you go

Xxx

A Temporary Salve

It all

Felt better

For a while

You made

Me laugh

You made

Me smile

But now

It’s over

And

You’re gone

So again,

I’m left

All alone

Too Big A Jump

Why don’t you just start small

He said

Take baby step, or two

Because to act like I’m over him

She said

Couldn’t be further from the truth

Emergency Exits

Thinking back

To that night

A split decision

And your plane

Took flight

If I’d known then

What I do now

I’d have grabbed

Your hand

And never

Let go

“Coping By Not Having To Cope”

When he died

And you’d nothing left

How did you deal

With the emptiness?

I filled it up

With pills and gin

In the vainest of hopes

I could forget him

And did you find

That it worked

They helped wash away

The pain and hurt

Some days did feel

Like less of a chore

But, in the end, the grief

Got too big to ignore

Moving

I remember the day

We got the keys

Thinking the rest

Would be a breeze

But now I sit and rot

All alone

In what should have been

Our forever home

A Knife’s Edge

It rears it’s head

This time of year

The feeling of wishing

That I wasn’t here

I’ll try to push through

As best as I can

But I’d be lying to say

It wasn’t still a plan

Wreckage

As the thunder claps

And the heavens open

I search through the scraps

Of what you have broken

I Didn’t Believe You Anyway

Remember

When you told me

I’d never get hurt again

That it didn’t matter

How my heart was shattered

As there wouldn’t be

Any more pain

Well, you lied

This is worse

It Still Hurts

I know

That you’re

In love

With her

But please spare

A thought

For me

I know we

Were bereft

And that’s why

You left

But you were once

Everything

To me

Just A Glimpse

When I saw him

Again today

All of that pain

Was washed away

Until I realised

It wasn’t him

And my heart, once more,

Cracked

From within

Truth Hurts

Please

Don’t look

At me

That way

I know

What you

Are going

To say

And when

You do

I’ll know

For sure

That what

We had

Can be

No more

Sweet Revenge

Do you ever

Think of me

When you’re lying

In her bed?

Because I don’t ever

Think of you

Happy she’s stuck with you

Instead

Dragging It Out

Another hour

Another day

Wishing I didn’t

Feel this way

Another second

Another minute

Life sure is shit

Without you in it

Xxx

Punching Bags

If we take away

The anger

The frustration

And the pain

It’s pretty clear

Neither one of us

Has anything

To gain

At The Widows Support Group

Do you ever miss him?

All the time, she said

Each night I cry

Screaming “why?”

As I lay down

In our bed

Do you ever miss him?

Never once, she said

The second he’d gone

I just moved on

To someone else

Instead 

Still Bitter

I hope that you

Are happy now

And you go to sleep

With a smile

But for me to hope

That she doesn’t choke

Is going to take

A while

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