Tag: loss

Never In A Million Years

I know

You think

I’m better

She said

That I’ve spent

All these years

Healing

But just because

I don’t

Say his name

She said

Doesn’t mean

I’ve forgotten

A thing

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Hearing Things

I spoke

To you

This morning

And I swear

I heard you

Respond

But then

It hit me

There’s no way

It could be

When you’ve

Been gone

So long

Xxx

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Still Standing

I haven’t

Really done much

In my forty six years

On Earth

There’s nothing of note

To really show off

That has any value

Or worth

But one thing

I am proud of

If you can excuse

My indulgence

Is I’ve survived the days

When, deep in a haze,

I really thought

I fucking wouldn’t

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Canto 38

You may say

It’s better

To have loved

And lost

Than never to

Have loved

At all

But if what happened 

To me

Happened

To you

You wouldn’t have

The fucking gall

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Rewinding The Film

I don’t know

If I lost you

Or if

You were never

Really mine

Either way

You’re gone

So I’ll keep

Moving on

And maybe 

Figure it out

In time

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With The Fishes

Grief

Is like

An ocean

All vast,

And dark,

And deep

It ebbs

And flows

In waves

Through

Dark nights

And days

Never truly

Going

To sleep

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Just For Fun

Why don’t we

Just hit rewind

Go back to another

Place and time

Relive the day

That we first met

And when we didn’t

Hate each other yet

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Everything After

Life does go on,

You know

But you’re never

Really

The same

You just

Get good

At doing what

You should

So you can keep on

Playing

The game

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Were We Ever Us?

Sometimes I wonder

Was it really true

Did you actually love me

As much as I loved you

Because now,

It seems,

Whenever I think back

I don’t remember the good

And can only see

The cracks

Xxx

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After The Funeral

Walking home

In the rain

Knowing I’ll never

See you again

My heart hangs heavy

My eyes shut tight

Knowing there’s no way

That I’ll last the night

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Gut Punch

Just as you

Start to think

You can cope

With anything

It comes along

To prove you wrong

And you’re left,

Reeling

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Forever Changed

The day

They die

Isn’t the worst

It’s every day

That follows

With nothing left

You exist, bereft

As your heart

Hangs empty

And hollow

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At The Winter Gardens

Let us stop

Take a pew

There’s something

I need

To say to you

I have to ask

Now that he’s dead

Do you think

You could ever

Love me instead?

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Happiness, Impeded

I thought

I would

Be better

If I could just

Forget

About you

But it’s proving

Too hard

With a heart

This scarred

To move on

With anyone new

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Thanks For Nothing

I can’t believe

You’ve left me

Alone, and

In this position

I never agreed

To this bullshit

Nor did I give you

Permission

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Fingers Crossed

It’s good to see

You’re moving on

It’s just a shame

That it’s with her

I wish you well

Although time will tell

If you will get

What you deserve

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Why I Walked Away

They just assumed

I was better

Because they

Had all forgotten

So I’d just pretend

For months on end

As we had

Fuck all left

In common

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Lost Voices

I’ve forgotten

What you sound like

Now

And it cuts me

Like a knife

I’m not sure if

I can cope

With such a silence

In my life

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Had We Known

The more

I think

About it now

The more

It’s clear

To me

That we were

Always

Meant to meet

But just never

Destined

To be

Xxx

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Just Watching TV

I don’t really know

What happened

I’m not sure

Why I cried

Something

Just reminded me

Of how I felt

The day he died

You were amazing

With me

Your words

So soft and kind

Your touch

Helping to soothe me

Drying the tears

From my eyes

I know

That I struggled

To tell you

At the time

Just how much

I loved him

And truly miss

That man of mine

Yet what I’m sorry

I couldn’t say

But really

Wanted to

Is how happy

I know he’d be

To see

That I’ve found you

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SOS

Maybe it’s you

Maybe it’s me

Maybe we’re both

Just lost at sea

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Respite

I thought of us

Again today

And, as always,

You made me smile

It was a welcome break

From all the heartache

Even if only

For a while

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Un Merveilleux Malheur

I don’t think

I’ve missed you

More than I have

Today

There was nothing

I could do

To help push

These feelings away

And even though

It is now

Nearly twenty six years old

I have realised

My love for you

Will simply

Never grow cold

Xxx

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“Into My Arms”

Your wandering soul

All alone

With your bones of ash

And heart of stone

If only you could find

Your way back home

I’d hold you tight

And never let you go

Xxx

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