If I’ve learned one thing
After all these years
It’s that being kind to yourself
Doesn’t end in tears
And something else I’ve learned
From surviving the worst
Is that loving yourself
Never fucking hurts
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
If I’ve learned one thing
After all these years
It’s that being kind to yourself
Doesn’t end in tears
And something else I’ve learned
From surviving the worst
Is that loving yourself
Never fucking hurts
The more
I think
About it now
The more
It’s clear
To me
That we were
Always
Meant to meet
But just never
Destined
To be
Xxx
Now that it’s all
Said and done
There’s still
One answer
I lack:
Why the fuck
Did you let me
Love you
If you didn’t want
To love me back?
I don’t really know
What happened
I’m not sure
Why I cried
Something
Just reminded me
Of how I felt
The day he died
You were amazing
With me
Your words
So soft and kind
Your touch
Helping to soothe me
Drying the tears
From my eyes
I know
That I struggled
To tell you
At the time
Just how much
I loved him
And truly miss
That man of mine
Yet what I’m sorry
I couldn’t say
But really
Wanted to
Is how happy
I know he’d be
To see
That I’ve found you
If only you
Could see me now
I’m sure
That you’d be proud
I think you’d agree
I’m as I should be
And you’d say you love me
Out loud
In another place
And another time
I’d be yours
And you’d be mine
But as we’re here
And the time is now
Seems we both
Have to settle
For just chatting,
Somehow
As I run down
This darkened road
My heart beats fast
Ready to explode
Just thinking
Of what lies ahead
Little do I know
As I follow the flame
It’ll turn out to be
Such a shame
As you’ve walked
The other way, instead
If only
You would see me
The way
That I see you
But now you’ve gone
And married her
To wait
Is all I can do
It’s nice to have you around
She said
I feel better when you’re here
I wouldn’t be anywhere else
He said
I hope that much is clear
Don’t you dare
Cry for me
I don’t deserve
Your tears
I’d left him behind
In my mind
Way before
He disappeared
Maybe it’s you
Maybe it’s me
Maybe we’re both
Just lost at sea
Of all the men
It has been
There’s no one
That compares to
Yet of all the men
It will be
I must accept
It’ll never be you
I really hope
You’ll meet me
And we’ll leave
Hand in hand
But the journey ahead
Is risky
So if not,
I’ll understand
I did
What I did
All those years
Because
I thought
I loved you
But now
I can see
How you
Treated me
And what a shell
That turned me
Into
I thought of us
Again today
And, as always,
You made me smile
It was a welcome break
From all the heartache
Even if only
For a while
I don’t think
I’ve missed you
More than I have
Today
There was nothing
I could do
To help push
These feelings away
And even though
It is now
Nearly twenty six years old
I have realised
My love for you
Will simply
Never grow cold
Xxx
I know
Your words
I forever
Negated
But your
Kindness
Was always
Appreciated
I’ve craved
Your touch
Since we met
In fact
I’ve known
Nothing else
You’ve consumed
My mind
So much so
That no
Other man
Can help
If there’s
One thing
I know
With complete
Certainty
It’s that
I’ve seen
Enough rain
To last
An eternity
Your wandering soul
All alone
With your bones of ash
And heart of stone
If only you could find
Your way back home
I’d hold you tight
And never let you go
Xxx
It all
Felt better
For a while
You made
Me laugh
You made
Me smile
But now
It’s over
And
You’re gone
So again,
I’m left
All alone
You have
To ask him
She said
Otherwise,
You’ll never know
But I think
I’d just die
She said
When he says
Inevitably, no
Spooning
My heart out
Drowning
In blood
You have killed me,
In a way,
That no other man
Ever could
You claim
You want
To know
The truth
But the truth
Is you couldn’t
Care less
All you want
Is someone
To taunt
And to leave
After making
A mess
I drink
Because I like it
I drink
To numb the pain
I drink
Because it’s easier
Than falling in love again
Out of all the trouble
I get myself in to
It’s important you know
That I’ll always choose you
Why don’t you just start small
He said
Take baby step, or two
Because to act like I’m over him
She said
Couldn’t be further from the truth
I don’t think I can do it
She said
I’m just too fucking scared
It’s the only way I can see
He said
For your heart to be repaired
Although
Most days
Are no longer
That hard
Grief still
Finds a way
Of catching me
Off guard
Xxx
With all those years
That we were blessed
If you asked again
I’d still say yes
Xxx
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