No Hard Feelings

It wasn’t our time

Nor was it the place

But I’ll never forget

Your sweet embrace


The Reference

When it is

I see

Her next

I’ll be sure

To let

Her know

How you’re

Passionate,

Funny

And kind

And how

It hurts

To let

You go

(Originally Posted 11.11.2021)

Too Late Now

I don’t know how it’s happened

And I can’t even tell you why

But, it seems, I’ve grown old

In love with the wrong fucking guy


Set In Stone

Neither of
us knows

If the life
we chose

Will work out
for the best

(Originally Posted 05.11.2019)

Random #253

“What you really want is someone you can hang around with on a Sunday afternoon and watch a TV show with, and do nothing, and feel like it’s the most fun ever.”

– Aziz Ansari

Imploded

Concerning affairs

Of the heart

I was once a master

But when he died

I lost my mind

And now I’m a complete disaster


Ready To Implode

It
isn’t
you

That
I don’t
trust

Honestly,
it’s
me

My
mind
is

No
longer
robust
enough

To
deal
with

Such
trickery

(Originally Posted 02.11.2019)

Random #251

“and we didn’t love each other
but we helped each other forget
that life is shit”

– Sean Hughes

Not Yet, Anyway

It will soon be three years

Without him here

And I know time is supposed to fly

But it feels like just yesterday

That he was my mainstay

So I’m not ready for some other guy


The Anniversary

It will
soon be
a year,
without
you here,
and I
don’t
know
what
to do.

For I’m
still
nowhere
near,
facing
my fear,
or the
reality
of losing
you.

Xxx

(Originally Posted 17.10.2019)

Random #248

‘So I’ve made my mind up
I must live my life alone
And though it’s not the easy way
I guess I’ve always known
I’d say goodbye to love…’

One Decision, One Thousand Lifetimes

I’m not sure if this notion

Of there only ever being one person

For us to love is true

But what I can say for sure

Is even if there were a hundred more

I would only ever want you


Galaxies

If
I was
to
decide

To
leave
this
place

I’d
still
find
you
again

In
any
time or
space

(Originally Posted 10.11.2020)

Random #241

“Some kill their love when they are young,
And some when they are old;
Some strangle with the hands of Lust,
Some with the hands of Gold:
The kindest use a knife, because
The dead so soon grow cold.”

– Oscar Wilde

Because You’re Worth It

You’ll be here all day

She said

There really isn’t much to find

Well I will never stop looking

He said

Until the end of time


Digging For Gold

Kindness
lives
within
you

He
said

Of
that
I am
the
judge

Then
by all
means
try to
find it

She
said

Beneath
the
fucking
sludge

(Originally Posted 18.09.2020)

I Tried To Warn You

She never did see it

And now you’re apart

You have been left

With wounds that smart

If only you’d listened

To my remark

You could’ve saved yourself

The broken heart


You Deserve More

I wish you
could see
yourself with a
different view

And know
there are so
many things to
love about you

My only hope
is that she
will see it
again soon too

Then perhaps
you could both
just stop
making do

(Originally Posted 17.09.2019)

42%

I can clearly remember

Their wedding day

All of that promise

On display

It’s such a shame

It ended that way

And now love’s young dream

Has faded away


The(ir) Split

It’s
not
about
what
she
did

Or
what
he did
either
to be
fair

It’s
about
how
it has
made
me feel

As for
the
rest
I could
not
care

(Originally Posted 16.09.2020)

There’s Always One

I’m sure that we can all recount

How we met our lovers

But some such stories

Of our former glories

Are more significant than others

Xxx


That Split Second

When I saw you
sleeping there

I couldn’t help
but stop and stare

Probably because
I was drunk too

Although nowhere
near as drunk as you

(Originally Posted 15.09.2019)

A Younger Model

Will you still love me

When I am old and grey

Will you still want me

To touch you in that way

Will you still need me

To kiss you goodbye each day

Or will you just find someone else

And simply walk away


A Risky Business

We really
shouldn’t
do this,
she said,
it isn’t
the right
time

It’s now
or never,
he said,
for I’ll
soon be
past my
prime

(Originally Posted 14.09.2019)

Wasted Potential

You’re actually quite romantic

He said

When you put your mind to it

But therein lies the problem

She said

I just can’t be arsed to persue it


When Lightning Strikes

It’s like
we’ve been
connected
forever,
he said,
but it’s only
been a minute

However long
it’s been,
she said,
I can’t
remember
life without
you in it

(Originally Posted 12.09.2019)

Being Toyed With

As I have never

Loved again

From that day

To this

I cannot help

But wonder

If someone up there

Is taking the piss


I Can’t Tell You

I can’t
tell
you
how
much
better
I feel

To
know my
feelings
I need
no
longer
conceal

I
can’t
tell you
how much
more open
I am
now

To the
possibility
of loving
someone
again,
someday,
somehow

(Originally Posted 11.09.2019)

In Body Only

Men may have since

Shared my bed

But they have never

Shared my head

Like you


Fuck Knows

My days
are sad

My nights
are lonely

Fuck knows
if I’ll ever

Only be
true to you

(Originally Posted 09.09.2019)

Random #236

“And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again”

Your Butterfly, Madame…

It’s better to have loved and lost

Than to never have loved at all

And it’s better to hide the knives,

I find,

To protect your abdominal wall


The Dagger

At
least
I don’t
feel pain
anymore

As my
insides
spill
to the
floor

(Originally Posted 04.09.2020)

And Lots Of It

If love was all you needed

Then we’d all be happy as fuck

So it’s about time that we conceded

What you actually need is luck


Nowhere Near

I love you

You love me

If only that was enough

For us to be happy

(Originally Posted 03.09.2019)

Death Hurts

This was so true

For much of that first year

In fact it’s only now

I have realised

How much his illness

And his death

Had left me

Paralysed


The Robbery

Your illness
robbed you
of your life

And it
robbed me
of my mind

Your death
still cuts me
like a knife

So now
to madness
I am inclined

(Originally Posted 01.09.2019)

The Sadness In My Soul

I wish I could update this one

Comment on how it has aged

Yet it seems that when

I pick up the pen

It’s only my tears that fill the page


I Hope So

Sing
to me
some
more

She
said

For
your
voice
I hold
so dear

I’ll
always
sing to
you

He
said

Even
when
I’m no
longer
here

Xxx

(Originally Posted 01.09.2020)

Melting

Don’t get me wrong

It’ll take much more

Than just a smile

For my heart to thaw

But until such time

It doesn’t mean

That we can’t have fun

In between


Your Smile

Even
though
my
heart

Resides
in the
deep
freeze

Your
smile
has the
power

To make
me weak
at the
knees

(Originally Posted 27.08.2019)

Random #231

“It’s better to have loved and lost, surely, but try not to lose it all”

– William Hill

The Promise That Can’t Be Kept

He knew right then

As he watched

The tear fall from her eye

It was best to forget

And to just let

His feelings for her die


Silent Conversations

Not yet
but soon
she says,
as she makes her
way to the door

But when,
how soon
he asks
as he stares
at the floor

Not yet
but soon
she says,
as her head
is slowly bowed

But when,
how soon
he asks
will we
be allowed?

(Originally Posted 22.08.2019)

Random #227

“I know that’s what people say – you’ll get over it. I’d say it too. But I know it’s not true. Oh, you’ll be happy again, never fear. But you won’t forget. Every time you fall in love it will be because something in the man reminds you of him.”

– Betty Smith

Unreciprocated Love

It will never be

The right time for me

I just have to accept it

As I cannot take

The abject heartache

Each time I am rejected


Each Time We Meet

Why isn’t
it me,
she asks,

Why can’t
it be us?

For I
already
love another,
he says,

As her
dreams
crumble
to dust.

(Originally Posted 10.08.2019)

In The Vestry

How long must I wait

She said

Until I tell him how I feel

I don’t think you ever can

He said

That truth you should never reveal


Always The Bridesmaid

If only you’d ask

I would say yes

My undying love

I would confess

Alas it seems

I must somehow

Bide my time

At least for now

(Originally Posted 02.08.2021)

Random #224

‘Oh all the times I’ve tasted love
Never knew quite what I had
Little darling if you hear me now
Never needed you so bad
Spinning ’round inside my head’

Eating Dinner In Fancy Restaurants

There were quite a few before him

As I tried each one for size

But if there’s no more after him

Then I wouldn’t be surprised


Like Lightning

I remember

When
I thought
it was
you

And I
made my
feelings
plain

But
then
I met
him

And
within
seconds
I knew

I’d never
think
about
you

Again

(Originally Posted 26.07.2020)

(Slave To The) Algorithm

I guess that’s why folks use Bumble

Grindr, Tinder and Hinge

Virtually searching for a fumble

For digital bodies on which to binge


Blindfolded

They
say
there’s
someone
for
everyone

But
how
can
that
possibly
be?

I’m
surprised
anyone
can
find
anyone

Trapped
in
this
insanity

(Originally Posted 23.07.2020)

Not Wandering Anymore

Out with the old

And in with the new

Time for me to find

Someone better than you


Rose Tinted Glasses

Sometimes a
wander down
memory lane
is no bad
thing

So long
as you can
remember
your way
back

(Originally Posted 22.07.2019)

‘Just Like A Moth To A Flame’

You only have

To look at me

And I am powerless

To resist

As by your eyes

I am hypnotised

And before I know it

We’ve kissed


Temptation

Although
it seems
I’ve
lost
my way

I’d
like to
make it
back
someday

Now all
I can
do is
hope
and
pray

That
you
won’t
lead me
further
astray

(Originally Posted 12.07.2020)

Random #218

‘And if one day
You should see me in the crowd
Lend a hand and lift me
To your place in the cloud’

‘I Made It Through The Wilderness…’

Your touch

Leaves me reeling

Your kisses

Make me swoon

It seems

That for now

From romance,

Somehow,

I am no longer

Immune


Carnal Knowledge

These
blissful
feelings
are all
consuming

Who knew
one kiss
would
be so
subsuming

(Originally Posted 04.07.2020)

Tea For Two

At that café

Drinking tea

I wished you were there

Sitting opposite me

But I soon realised

Even though we’re apart

You’ll always be with me

Inside my heart

Xxx


Royal Exchange Square

I had to come back here,

How could I not?

Because it all started here,

On that night I’ve never forgot.

Xxx

(Originally Posted 03.07.2019)

‘I Wake Up Alone With It All…’

Remember you said

You’d love me forever

And you begged me

To let you to stay

Well I’m beginning

To wonder

If that

Was a blunder

And if I should’ve

Walked away


Happier

Perhaps we’d
have been
happier
as strangers,

For never
having met.

Perhaps we’d
have been
happier
as strangers,

With nothing
to regret.

(Originally Posted 24.06.2019)

‘Don’t Fear The Reaper’

You appear to me in a way

That is beyond my cognition

Emerging slowly into the light

As a ghostly apparition

I hear you whisper softly

How it is now your mission

To close the void between us

And put an end to Deaths partition


Mausoleum

In
the
graveyard

Of
my
mind

Is
where
the
memories

Of
us
reside

So
when
I’m
alone

In
the
dead
of
night

I
walk
the
tombs

Of
our
love’s
plight

(Originally Posted 23.06.2020)

‘No one sings like you anymore…’

I don’t think

It will matter

How much time

Continues to turn

This will

Forever

Be the case

That much

I have learned


Three Score And Ten

Some
days
it feels
like
forever

Others
it feels
like a
minute

But no
matter
how
much
time has
passed

Life is
still
shit
without
you
in it

Xxx

(Originally Posted 17.06.2020)

Empty Handed

As
I lie
here

Alone
again

I can
only
assume

I
wasn’t


Bounty

I
can
only
hope

I’m
worth
the
wait

(Originally Posted 12.06.2020)

Desiderate

Even now I struggle

To lie on your side of the bed

I just wish you were in it

As often as you are my head

Xxx


A King Sized Longing

Lying in bed

Late at night

I turn over

With a sigh

I reach out

With my hand

But it’s now empty

Where you would lie

Xxx

(Originally Posted 31.05.2021)

In Thrall

I have said

Time and time again

“That’s it – I’ve had enough”

But it proves pointless

Time and time again

As leaving you is just too tough


‘It’s In The Trees…’

How do I give you up

My drug of choice

You don’t stand a chance

Whispers the voice

(Originally Posted 31.05.2020)

That Old Chestnut

I wish I could say

I’d never take you back

But if I did

I would be lying

You’ll always have a way

To knock me off track

Even without

You really trying


I Am My Own Temple

You only get one chance with me

And you blew it good and proper

Now it’s not about forgiveness

It’s all about my honour

(Originally Posted 30.05.2021)

French Exits

As I lie with yet another

Notch on my bed post

I am grateful for a lover

But that’s as far as it goes


Just Another Fish

I suppose
I should
make it
clear

Right
from the
very
start

You may
delight
my
body

But you
will never
have my
heart

(Originally Posted 28.05.2020)

Actually, It’s Not Me That’s The Problem

If you lowered your expectations

I reckon we’d be OK

But if you feel it integeral

To keep me on that pedestal

It’ll only end in dismay


‘All The Time…’

If I
could
be

Who
you
want

Me
to
be

Perhaps
then
we

Would
both be
happy

(Originally Posted 21.05.2020)

Oscillating

I’d still rather have you

Both ways

Than to never have had you

At all


The Past

Some days
it’s easy
to remember
you

Some days
it’s hard
to forget
you

Some days
I don’t want
to remember
you

Some days
I never want
to forget
you

(Originally Posted 18.05.2019)

The Meet-Cute

So I suppose

This is the part

Where you say hello

And break my heart


All Good Things

So
I
suppose

This
is the
part

Where
you say
goodbye

And
break my
heart

(Originally Posted 04.05.2020)

Black-and-Blue

I can’t quite believe

All the time I wasted

Trying to be perfect

When all I created

Was a lie


Bruised

It’s
OK

You
can
say
it

After
all
it’s
true

I
know
you
never

Really
loved
me

Like
how
I loved
you

(Originally Posted 30.04.2020)

Glutton For Punishment

I tried to forgive you

Once

But I didn’t quite succeed

So I tried to forget you

Twice

But I would never be freed


Promises

I promise myself
never again
every time
and every time
I believe it.

But the truth is
forgetting you is
a promise
I am powerless
to keep.

(Originally Posted 27.04.2019)

In The Next Life

My only wish

Is to see you again

As I really do miss you,

My friend


Maybe One Day

My body
decays
and

My mind
forgets
but

My heart
desires
and

My soul
awakens

(Originally Posted 23.04.2019)

Divorce

I know you don’t
Want to live with me
But I hope one day
You can forgive me
For all that I
Have done and said
Since the day we met
And after we wed


Love Or Hate

It’s
hard
to
know
which
is
which

When
you
can
be
such
a
bitch

(Originally Posted 23.04.2020)

Fantasy Land

Why can’t it be
Like it is on TV
Where everyone lives happily

Ever after


Slap And Tickle

I
have
tried to
move on

My
feelings
for you
to shelve

But
it seems
when push
comes to
shove

I just
can’t
help
myself

(Originally Posted 22.04.2020)

Pillow Thoughts

If only I’d been honest

Back then

And told him how I felt

I wouldn’t be lying

Here alone again

Ruing the blow I dealt


Pillow Talk

I’ll
never
be able
to give
you

Exactly
what
you
want

I can be
your
standby
fuck
buddy

But
never
your
confidant

(Originally Posted 08.04.2020)

A String Trio

Were you ever lovers?

Or was he just your friend

I guess now I’ll never know

Who he wanted in the end


Second Fiddle

Drunkenly
wishing
upon a
star

Won’t
make my
dreams
come true

For he’ll
never be
able to
love me

Half as
much as
he loved
you

(Originally Posted 06.04.2020)

Random #184

‘You are the bane of my existence. And the object of all my desires’

– Viscount Anthony Bridgerton

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