Thinking Out Loud (Bonus Post)

I watch you from

Across the room

And see your face fill

With dread

If only you

Could see what I do

And quiet that voice

Inside your head


Internal Monologue

What the fuck
is wrong with you?

Just cheer up,
you miserable cunt

Your wallowing
is excruciating

And your self
pity an affront

(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)

Habit Of A Lifetime

Just stop this negative talk

He said

I won’t hear any more of it

But those seeds have been sown

She said

Ever since I was a kid


Sham(e)

I got
bored of
this shit
a long
time ago

These
endless
tales of
sadness
and woe

Now with
eyes that
burn from
the tears
that flow

I loathe
myself
more than
you’ll
ever know

(Originally Posted 23.08.2019)

(Not So) Positive Affirmations

You should stop the negative self talk

He said

And just give yourself a break

I’m not sure if that’s possible

She said

With the destruction I’ve left in my wake


Adjourned

Those
words
you
spoke
so softly

Are
etched
upon
my
brain

A
reminder
of
how
I really
did

Fuck
things
up
again

(Originally Posted 05.07.2020)

‘The Voice Inside My Head’

Whatever you say

Won’t hurt me

For when it comes

To my mental health

There is nothing that

I am better at

Than flagellating

Myself


Plus Ça Change

So
this
is
it

Lying
in bed
all day
again

Wine
and
cigarettes
my only
friend

I’m so
bored
of this
shit

I
could
make
myself
sick

I
really
am
nothing

But a
nauseating
prick

(Originally Posted 02.06.2020)

The Expert

You just have to remember

He said

You can’t pour from an empty cup

Well mine is smashed to smithereens

She said

So how the fuck do I fill it up?

Insurance

What is it going to take

He said

For you to open up to me?

Another bottle of wine for starters

She said

And a money back guarantee

Self Talk

If I don’t talk about myself negatively

She said

Then I’ve got nothing much to say

Well perhaps I can try to help you

He said

See yourself in a different way

Harbouring Secrets

You have no idea

As you sit here

With your good humour and wit.

Now let me be clear

Kindly fuck off my dear

‘Cause honestly, you don’t know shit.

(Originally Posted 18.06.2019)

I’m Not Sorry

Why
should
I apologise
to you

When
you
lashed
out
at me?

I’m
just
glad
to have
realised

You’re
no
longer my
responsibility

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