You promised
That you’d help
But instead
You made it worse
Now I’ve got
Nothing left
Not even
A decent verse
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
You promised
That you’d help
But instead
You made it worse
Now I’ve got
Nothing left
Not even
A decent verse
I know
I’m nothing special
But then again
Neither are you
You are just
As fucked up as me
In fact
You’re actually
Much worse
For you think
You can
Bypass the plan
Whereas I just accept
The curse
It really isn’t
Your fault
It’s mine
I just repeat
The same old shit
Time after fucking time
Home
All I want
Yet I can’t wait to leave
Stuck here again
Frozen in time
Not quite sure
Of the reason or rhyme
You want more
I want less
We can’t end this
Without making a mess
Is this real
Am I still me
Or is this part
Of my insanity
It’s hard to tell
If I’m really here
Or if I have in fact
Disappeared
Every time I look
Into your eyes
My love for you
I cannot hide
You’ll never know
How I burst inside
To know we are part
Of the same pride
Not sure if I’ll cope tonight
Going out is such a chore
Plus there’s a chance
You’ll force me to dance
And my head is already sore
Why bother to wait
I’m not that fussed
Either way
All I’ll feel is disgust
You say more
With your eyes
Than you do
With your mouth
So maybe
You should shut them both
Sliced wide open again
For all the world to see
If only there was
Another way
To let the poison free
Pardon me miss
If I buy you a drink
Please
Do not think me bold
No problem mate
You can buy me two
As long as you fuck off
When you’re told
If it wasn’t you
It would have been someone else
I’m not that fussy
I always knew
That I loved you
But never if
You loved me back
Another
day spent
trudging
through
the
sludge
of life
still
refusing
to budge
forever
trying to
avoid the
judgement
of those
who secretly
hold a
grudge
against me