Whenever
You feel
Something might
Be amiss
Remember you can’t
Get hurt
By what doesn’t
Exist
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Whenever
You feel
Something might
Be amiss
Remember you can’t
Get hurt
By what doesn’t
Exist
I know
You’ll think
I’m stupid
And say
I’m off
My head
But the seeds
Of doubt
Have rooted
And now
I’m filled
With dread
Maybe
I should move
She said
Start again
Somewhere new
It doesn’t matter
Where you go
He said
The guilt
Will follow you
I don’t think I can cope
She said
With all this worry
And stress
My heart
Just won’t stop pounding
And my head’s
A fucking mess
Maybe I’ll just end it
She said
That could be
For the best
As within
The peace and quiet
I might finally
Get some rest
If I were to take
One as prescribed
No doubt I’d feel
The same inside
If I were to take
Two or three
I could cope
Quite easily
If I were to take
Four or five
I’d most likely still
Make it out alive
If I were to take
Six or seven
I’d start knocking on
The door of heaven
If I were to take
Eight or nine
I’d be pretty close
To the finish line
But if I were
To take ten
I’d make sure you never
Saw me again
Dosage Instructions
Please
give me
another
pill to
swallow
For I
don’t
want to
wake up
tomorrow
(Originally Posted 31.01.2020)
I envy those people
Who are not deep thinkers
Who never peek out
From behind their blinkers
They all must live
Such carefree lives
Whilst I toil away
Hiding the knives
Stood At The Urinal
Do you
ever
think
there’s
more to
life
than
this?
Fuck
knows
mate,
to be
honest,
I only
came in
for a piss
(Originally Posted 30.01.2020)
4am
And my demons
Want revenge
Again
That thing
You were speaking of
Well, I think I’ve found it
Now I’m out of my head
And in your bed
I don’t think I’ll ever quit
I pride myself on my planning
I write lists day after day
I schedule my time wisely
So that nothing gets in the way
I prepare for every eventuality
Without a pause for breath
But the one thing I didn’t account for
Was your untimely death
Xxx
It’s
hard
to
know
which
is
which
When
you
can
be
such
a
bitch
Time to
get some
sleepHe
saidYou can
do that
another dayIf only
it was
that easyShe
saidTo pack
my brain
away
Thoughts
run
through
my head
at pace
As I
question
the futility
of the
human race
I’ve been
thinking
it over
again
And I
have
changed
my mind
If there’s
one thing
I don’t
regret
It’s
leaving
you
behind
Why do
I bother
coming
to bed
It’s not
like I
can
sleep
All I
do is
fucking
lie here
Overthinking
and
counting
sheep
Waking up to find that,
once again,
I’ve lost my mind
at some point
during the night…
So I managed,
in the end,
to get out of bed
And it’s been a
shitty day so far,
just as I said
So I was right,
I should never
have tried
For I’ll never
escape this
pain inside