"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
It seems I missed
The trip that day
You went
To the optimism farm
I was probably at home
With an ‘on silent’ phone
Sleeping soundly
Through the alarm
Optimism
If I
had
any
spare
I’d
give
some
to you
But
I only
have
enough
To
get
myself
through
This
bullshit
they call
life
(Originally Posted 03.01.2020)
To be honest
I always knew
Psychopathy
Was your main trait
It’s just a shame
That I played your game
Losing out
When it was too late
Psychopathic
Looking through old photos
It’s only now I’m struck
By how much your eyes
Betray your lies
And your smile is fake as fuck
(Originally Posted 29.12.2020)
The extent of your brilliance
They never could see
But you were always more
Than just a man to me
Xxx
Afterlife
You still
save me
in so
many ways
Even
from
beyond
the grave
(Originally Posted 15.12.2019)
I’ll never look on the bright side
Or see that glass half full
As my penchant for misery
Has now come to be
Very much dyed in the wool
‘Jealous Guy’
Some
days
I am
acutely
aware
That
you
have
much
more
fun
than
me
I
suppose
it’s
not
that
hard
to
believe
Given
my
penchant
for
misery
(Originally Posted 08.11.2020)
If you’re talking about my arms
She said
Then the urge I could try to park
But if you mean my wit
She said
That’ll always be razor sharp
Spitting Distance
We
could
have
had
it
all
She
said
But
now
we’re
left
with
nothing
Maybe
we’d
have
been
okay
He
said
Had you
not been
so fucking
cutting
(Originally Posted 30.10.2020)
I actually love sassy me
I just wonder where she went
As I really only see her
At times of hostility and torment
Undefeated
You might
not be
speaking
to me
But I know
you’re
speaking
about me
That
means
I win
(Originally Posted 10.08.2019)
Nature versus nurture
That is the great debate
Was I born a pessimist
Or did it find me late?
I suppose it doesn’t matter
However it came to be
As the cynic is now embedded
In my personality
Mythbusting
If
life is
funny
sometimes
Then
why
can’t
I contain
my laughter
It’s the
same as
all that
bullshit
they say
About
living
happily
ever
after
(Originally Posted 01.08.2020)
Perhaps it’s because I’m boring
Or maybe it’s just that I’m mad
But whatever I project
I’m easy to reject
Hence why my social life is so bad
Detached
It
matters
not
If
I go
out
Or if
I stay
at home
As
either
way
Suffice
it to
say
I will
always
end up
alone
(Originally Posted 21.07.2020)
I couldn’t have put it
Any more sincerely
As this is me
All over really
The Knight
You come charging in
On your white horse
Thinking you’ll save the world,
Of course
But you’ve nothing to offer
Under all that armour
You don’t fool me,
You little charmer
(Originally Posted 21.07.2019)
I love that you see
Something in me
And I hope one day
That I’ll see it too
But whilst I am trying
There’s no point in denying
That I’m just not as nice
As you
The Bright Side Of My Dark Heart
I’m
glad
that
you
can
see
it
As
I
don’t
have
a
clue
But
out
of
everyone
It
might
have
been
I
knew
it
would
be
you
(Originally Posted 28.06.2020)
When you won’t decide
One way or the other
Known colloquially
As a ‘contrary little fucker’
That’s me
Indifference
Sometimes I do
Sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I will
Sometimes I won’t
Either deal with it
Or don’t
I’m not fussed either way
(Originally Posted 22.06.2019)
You might be pretty
On the outside
But you’re sure as shit
Ugly within
If only your
Personality
Was as radient
As your skin
What would it take
For you to notice me
Wear a skimpy dress
Paint my lips so readily
Well all I have is my words
So I guess that counts me out
As there’s nothing at all about them
That suggests I’d like to hangout
Mal – Adjusted
Mal – Adapted
Mal – Content
Only ever
Fleetingly happy
But always
Desperately sad
Forever trying
To be good
Whilst contemplating
Being bad
The
black
sheepThe
ice
queenBoth
these
thingsI’ve
always
been
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 